its so weird how different people can suddenly start acting when certain things happen or certain people come around. i don't and won't ever get that at all.
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CRAZY (not really jus starting to become very amusing lately).. how people do that. and also people sit there and constantly claim you've changed, or that you're different... but yet they can't even see their own behavior/actions? cmon now....
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so glad i'm learning to laugh at everything instead of sitting around wasting my time being all mad or sad... so glad i'm learning to remind myself of my worth, my purpose, what's important, and what i've learned.
refuse to lose myself anymore. i've lost myself enough. and i can't keep beating myself up over everything.
thankful that my God has helped me to grow & learn so much. Thankful that i've learned you aren't going to be able to understand everything in life and that's okay. AND lastly thankful that I know all too well, to not reveal everything i've learned.
Glad i've learned to pay attention and keep things to myself. Glad i'm learning that no, i'm not the worst person in the world, and no, not everything is my fault. Nobody's ever going to be perfect but all I can do is try. I can't force anybody to see/believe/understand anything. The only thing I have control over is myself. That's that. And I can, and WILL, keep praying. Because the faith of a mustard seed will ALWAYS move mountains, NO MATTER WHAT...
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one last thing: yeah sure there's gonna be shit that might depress you, piss you off, make you feel as if something's not right (especially when you get off ass vibes.) but like i keep saying: when life hands you lemons, you can't just make lemonade. you gotta learn how to stomach that shit whether it's sour or sweet. period.
... thank u tumblr for allowing me to let this shit out before it drives me insane. thankful for the one person in my life that i can talk to about EVERYTHING.. and grateful for all of her advice. so fucking ironic how spot on she seems to be about everything.
idek but it is what it is. . that's all i know.
... update: really fucking blows when you feel as if you can't say a god damn thing about shit, period. ftbs... but i'm good lol..
