#weightlossissues

But I’m back at it, yesterday was good and I’ll make damn sure today is too!

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How can I be this wide awake after workin a 12 hour night shift? Ugh my sleep schedule is so messed up. My hormones make me constantly tired all the time but then I get these random spurts of energy like I do now like I should go clean my whole house... Yet I have to work again tonight. Come on sleep!! I think it's because I'm excited to see what the scale says when I wake up how pathetic is that. #weightlossissues #excitedtoweighin #cantsleep #needsleep #nightshift #nightshiftnurse #nurse

If only I could get back to where I was... I'm struggling big time.

I always cool down with 5 min walk on the treadmill. . . Whilst on the treadmill I over heard 2 girls can't have been any older than 18/19 discussing their weight. One said I just want to go in a shop and know I'm a size 12 everywhere. I laugh because that's what I told myself all them months ago. It's not about the size ... River island are smaller than next. Who's smaller than asda sizes. You can't be one size anymore. I have stuff in my wardrobe that's size 10, 12, 14 s I don't have any more 16s and 18s tho 👌 Joking aside though it goes to show that people are still hung up on their size. Does anyone really come over to you and ask you what size you are wearing? No.... So why should we bother about it? As long as it fits, looks nice and you feel comfortable. Who gives a fuck? Really.... 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻 Anyway. . . Aside from this my numbers are going up and up and I'm getting stronger 👌🙌🏻👏🏻

I'm going through a lot right now. Trying my best to stay on top of my weight lost but it's just so hard. I'm orienting to a new nursing position that is completely unfamiliar to me so it has me completely stressed out... Not to mention I have generalized anxiety disorder and I've been taking back too much Xanax so they're trying to wean me off of it. It's hard to tackle it all at once. I just want to cry 😢

I got on the scale today and I was 217.8.. I'm pretty sure this is he heaviest I've ever been. I want to go to the gym today but I think it'd be a smart idea if I was to just wait till my sunburn heals a bit so I can at least walk and move my arms. It's so depressing. I want to say I won't let me self get any heavier but I don't want to let myself down- but if I stick to it I guess I'll be okay. I honestly have gained about 20lbs since I started dating Tom back in October. He's been uber supportive. And I'm super grateful for all he's done but I have to set a plan and stick to it.. I know if i put one in place he will help me stay on track- just a matter of doing it. Ugh I feel lazy 😟