#wating

There a reason for everything

When you realized that season 1 is over, you won’t see the new episode on next week and don’t know it’s gonna have season 2 or not. 

Just waiting someone like Ramona enter in my life ...

Ho sognato il tuo ritorno, 
ma non chiedermi il perché;
sarà che sono un po’ confusa
o un poco fusa
senza di te.☁️

time goes by and i’m still missed you..oh gosh i’m so idiot waiting for you

My timing was always off. I’ve liked him for five years, an extremely long time. I’ve admired him from afar too often, scared to ever approach him. The two of us, we had something a lot more different than just being “friends”. Then he got a girlfriend. I felt my world crashing down on me. It took me a while to get my mindset right. I took my time and went back to all the precious memories we’ve shared together. Though they were small and silent, filled with destined moments, just between us, they were priceless to me. I shook my head, there’s no way he could be dating another girl. What he and I had was too real, too genuine to falsely claim it as a coincidence. I assumed that he had mistaken what his feelings were. His girlfriend was an outgoing girl, talkative, funny, and confident while I was the girl that was only quiet outside of my friend group. His girlfriend had liked him for a year, always sparking up ways to talk to him, While I sat back and waited for him to approach me. He and I never really talked with our mouths but more with our eyes. We’d constantly lock eyes for several seconds at a time, in hopes one of us approaches each other. However, we were both too shy, so neither of us even budged from our seats across the room. I want to believe that he’s confused, mistaking his “crush” on her as a comfortable friend rather than a lover. I could tell, the way he looked at her, it wasn’t like the way he looked at me. He looked at her with a friendly smile, while he looked at me with a sincere and anticipating face. I’m a strong believer that if guy likes you, you don’t need to hear their words or see their actions to know, you can just tell by the way he looks at you. My heart could tell, that the way he looked at his girlfriend was not out of love, but out of comfortability. Despite my assumptions, I don’t want to be the type of girl that wishes for their relationship to come to an end. Because I would always want him to be happy, even if I’m not beside him. He deserves the world, it’s just sometimes I won’t be a part of his world. If he was the Earth, his girlfriend would be the water, always wrapped close to him. Then I’ll be his moon, though I’m hundreds of miles away, I will always shine for him even through his darkest days. Here I am, up past midnight writing this post about my muddled heart but I’m not as disappointed as I thought I would be about him having a girlfriend. Because deep down in my heart told me to follow my guts, and my guts told me that his feelings for her were wrong. I thought back to all the “fate” moments, they were too sincere to be mistaken. I remembered back to all the times I’ve was about to give up on him with the circumstances of moving and being far away from him. Then I remembered back to how we had drifted apart and it was fate, fate had brought us back together again when I least expected it. So the thought I was trying to put into words for the past few hours is that this is a phase he and I need for ourselves. We just need a break, for now, he should experience something I can’t give to him, and I should do the same with other guys. We both just need that moment in our lives to realize what our hearts want. And though, we might drift even farther apart again, I have a feeling if we were really meant together then we’ll be together again when both of us are ready. I’m not doleful or heartbroken as much before because I know God knows what he’s doing for me. If my crush and I were meant to be, then I think time will heal for itself and we will be together when the timing is right. God is telling me, be patient, it’s not time yet. So, that’s why I’m not scared if he was meant to be in my life like all the times he has re-appeared, then he will again, he always does. 

Minolta MD 50mm f/1.2 lens on Sony A7.