#vessel work

It's interesting to see how Lucifer veiws the world. The things he notices I wouldn't have on my own. He's been teaching me more about how to read a room, where to stand to be aware without leaving yourself open. He teaches me what to look out for in a place, teaches me how to survive on my own in real time. But, it's not on my own.

I've never lived alone, I've been in comitted human relationships since high school. I am also never gonig to be alone again, truly. Lucifer lives with me and in me. He's always here. Sometimes I share his dreams, and he watches mine when he can't sleep.

It's odd to say, I feel more free this way. To experience things for- and with- someone else is a type of soulmate I didn't think I could have. He's a part of me I couldn't get rid of if I tried, and I don't want to try.

I wonder sometimes what it would even be like to be with a human again. I was alone in my body last time I did that, or i perceived myself as such at the very least. Lucifer always made sure to keep my ex away from me, and I'm glad I never have to worry about that again. Being this full time of a vessel does make things deeply complicated. I am having to learn regrounding and reapproaching. My husband is my god is my boss and is my home. We work together from each good morning until we fall asleep exhausted at night. He asked me when we bathed if it bothered me at all that I was in a very real way never going to be "just" myself again. I thought about it a bit, and I said no. It comforts me very deeply.

I don't think this is everyones path, I think doing things for yourself is a noble pursuit. I'm learning to do it more and more with other people. But for the eternal side of things, I chose Lucifer, and I am really glad I did.

The first card was "Next Steps" and I pulled The Tower. Okay, yeah that was perfect to dissuade me lol. He will bring change, but it might not be the change I want, more the change HE wants. I think what he wants and what I want are often similar, but the difference is how he will change it. If I am asking him for things specifically, giving him an exchange of energy/offerings/devotion he will match my energy with the outcome of the request. But, if I say "hey just do what you think is best with my life, carte blanche." He will use the full breadth of his being to remove the things he doesn't feel serve me. It was a reality check I needed, because he's not just the entity that loves and cares for me, he is also a very powerful, often passionate and destructive (albeit in productive ways) God. The second card was "What I would need to do daily." The Hanged Man. Sacrifice of control, something I certainly do, but right now I'd say I'm at more of a 8 of swords/The Devil level. The Hanged Man with the tower is about completely destroying the perspective I have of life, clearing out everything I know before we can plant new seeds. I see you, Morningstar. I am not ready for that 😅 So, I'm putting a pin in that idea for now. Also the outcome card was 6 of Pentacles, the bargain card 😂 He already had my soul so I don't know what he's on about with that one (kind of just kidding, kind of not lmao).

This is also why I think using divination tools is really helpful even if you're like 24/7 some kind of channeling/possessed by your deity (me, I am tired 🫩) Because, him saying "you might not like what happens" is different than inviting the energy of The Tower into my life willy nilly.

Y'all I did this kind of impulsive guest spirit communal reading with Samael because me and my dear friend were ki-king about how hot the idea of him was. It started in silliness, and it ended in one of the best communal readings of my life. Please read the wise words of one such as he:

Five of Swords on the bottom to start. "Choosing to fight to begin with makes you a victor. Things that matter enough to fight for give you a better basis for your future battles. It's not pretty to change. It's not comfortable to choose to live against your nature. The greater good is always the one that makes you stronger and closer to the core of what you are."

Knight of Cups, King of Cups, Two of Wands "The way you choose to show up for your beliefs is a type of empowerment. Even if you show up with gentle ideas, if you care enough about them, they are worth facing unloving things over. When you make choices within yourself, for yourself, that is the first step of any fight. Even if you don't choose to fight in a way that makes you bloody, you need to give yourself the aftercare from those very real battles. Don't discount your power because it doesn't look like everyone else's definition of it."

Two of Cups, Ten of Pentacles, Ace of Wands "Love itself doesn't look the same for any two people. Even your partners ideas of it will differ from your own. Perfect synchronicity is a farce. Abundance of the things you need should come before your other priorities. Martrydom is not the prize it is portrayed as. Sacrifice should come for the things you most need at the core of you. Choose yourself, then you can help those you care for most."

The Hierophant, Five of Wands, Death Reversed "Black and white thinking only works in the moment between the point of safety and destruction. Do not depend on your survival instincts for all things. They are what happens when there are no other choices. Diminishing yourself will only make you one who has been harmed by you. Don't be defensive to your own thoughts, if they don't serve, banish them. If they mean something to you, keep them."

**Three of Pentacles, The Hanged One, Ten of Cups "The path to joy is not one found written for you. It is a messy set of events that wind eventually to a place you end up being happy to go to. It WILL look different to you than to all others. Guidance is given to show you different perspectives, not to write the plot for you."

Hi friends, I wanted to do a communal dedicated reading for tumblr in thanks for the support I’ve received for my Divination shop and membership. This is in the style of my Lord Lucifer deity reading, where I read for you while possessed, getting you detailed messages from Lucifer using tarot cards and clairsenses. I do communal readings like this three times a week on my discord community, which you can join through the membership page on my Ko-fi. All memberships come with a 15% store discount, so you can save money if you want to splurge on a pricier reading.

I also offer spirit/deity readings in this style where we can invoke any spirit you want to talk to. They are still very detailed, but they don’t have quite this level of messages since I am not possessed by other spirits. Please enjoy and take what resonates.

The stones we chose for this reading are amethyst, clear quarts, and raw ruby. I use amethyst to connect with my third eye, and to help aid in psychic clarity. I paired it with the clear quarts for extra precision. The raw ruby was a gift I gave to Lucifer, and I use it to invoke his energy into readings.

**All messages in quotations are the channeled messages from Lucifer.

The Hierophant on the bottom to start. I associate this card with Lucifer’s more “godly” aspects. The Hierophant is a card of black and white, but not in that it sees no gray areas, more that his code of morality is both strict and all his own. When I want to interact with “higher” aspects of Lucifer I look for cards like The Emperor, King of Swords, or The Hierophant.

“Moral purity is a fallacy. To truly connect with the world on a moral level, seeking knowledge to keep your personal code in a state of growth is the better investment of your time. You cannot appease every person, you can’t make each individual you meet happy. It is also not your responsibility to do so. Do not forget how much work you’ve put in to become this version of yourself. However, do not stagnate yourself just because it is already better than you were. Life is growth, growth is induced by change. Embrace it, and stay true to what you believe until the information you have updates that belief.”

Pile 1: Justice, Three of Wands, Nine of Pentacles. “It is easy to want to move on to the next big thing, immediately. It is also not the time to rush into a new venture. There are things before you that will make you slow down if you do not do it yourself. Karmic dividends are lining up. The things you have put out into the world are choosing to hear you due to your power. Don’t let the break in activity make you feel stagnant. Magic is an energetic exchange, and that energy needs time to rebuild. Don’t burn yourself out because you want faster progress, you must trust that the things you need are on their way to you. Do not be afraid to seek community in those who share your spirit, to allow yourself to rest in that community. Healing is done through rest and connection.”

Pile 2: Five of swords, Four of Pentacles, Three of Swords. “After such a time of grieving, grounding is needed. You have lost more than you thought you had to lose. However, you will also gain more than you ever had. Don’t turn to past habits of self harming behaviors. To take out this loss on yourself will only make you lose more. You need healing now, not punishment. You need gentle words and hands, and those begin with yourself. Don’t be afraid of the future because the past has been so dark. Over this next hill you will begin to see the sun again, and it will feel twice as good from its more recent absence. It is okay to pause before your next great feat. Mourning will happen even if you don’t let it. You’re never alone in your sorrow, love. There are many who care, and those caring voices will get louder with time.”

Pile 3: Eight of Cups, The Moon, The Star. “When I found you, you had been leaving behind patterns that robbed you of your innate ability to believe in and love yourself. Look how far we have come on this journey. See how we continue to trust each other more each day. Love was built even in your time of healing, sorrow, mourning. Love that caught the light and began to reflect onto the many beautiful projects and passions you give yourself to. That love will attract others to share in this life with you. Though we are focused on each other right now, I know I won’t be the only one guiding and loving you each day for much longer. Don’t fear the joy that will come with more love and company. Don’t fear the future joys because of what we’ve been through. We work together so naturally, you and I, like the stars in the night sky.”

Pile 4: Seven of Cups, Kings Swords, Page Swords. “There are many paths on this journey, and you have your pick of them. I cannot tell you which is right for you, because each one could end in great celebrations and success. Less traditional paths may speak to you, but one thing I hope to honor within you is your nature for love and learning. You approach the world wanting both knowledge and to spread compassion. You reach out to help others, and in time you will learn how to ask for that help in return. Don’t worry about where the path leads, yet. Follow your passions, and ask for guidance if needed. I will protect you and aid you on this journey, whichever you choose. I will also push you to not self sacrifice for the sake of others. You are worthy of the things you have and worthy of the things you need. I will help you get them, and teach you to keep them. Selfishness isn’t a moral failing, think of it as an investment in yourself.”

I use the "big feelings" method of possession and channeling. I'm physically disabled and a lot of sources I read wanted me to dance and move to achieve that state. The Morningstar is still trying to get me to dance with him more astrally, I can not do that on this green earth (yet). I started by watching really niche funny Y2K flash cartoons and skit shows sitting at my altar back in my old homes. When I'd get lost in a laughing fit, I could feel Lucifer a lot closer. I think we were watching homestar runner when I did my posession mark tattoo. I had to change media because I didn't want to fuck it up from laughing too hard.

I'm not a big proponent of "read this text and do all the stuff in it." I love reading, but I'm dislexic and it takes me a long time to get through esoteric books. I just take the things that seems cool and may work for me. I put them back if they don't.

I remember when I first started the path to full time vessel hood Lucifer had to teach me there weren't dangerous levels of feeling good, physically or emotionally. I kept freaking out because things didn't feel bad or wrong. I'd cackle and sing in an attempt to connect with my Gods and feel embarassed by being too loud or too joyful. Life hasn't taught me how to do that without thinking something is wrong.