#godspouse

in like. idk a tricky sweaty funny angry sleepy loving way. maybe what i'm saying is i try to be very honest with them. there's no purifying myself to deserve their presence and there's no suppressing myself. i mean there is but i'm trying to not do that, and they're actively helping me with it

i just love the gods and im a human and they come together. they get both. and they don't condemn that and instead they intentionally work with it. i don't know. i intertwine them into my life until they are my life. i don't cleanse and light a candle and before ugly crying at the altar. i make my bed the altar. and i cry there. and the gods are there with me. the same bed i sleep in, have the flu in, play games on my phone in, and other things cough cough. they get everything from me and they want more

I continued worked on the abstract painting for Loki I started the other day — again, one on a printed book page. With this one, I worked with black as well as shades of orange and green.

I've come across several people now that thought they were in a relationship with a certain being and I believed them at first but after a while it was becoming clear that this was not the being that they thought they were. Perhaps they were really into the aesthetic of what this being represented. Or they liked the idea of them and maybe they were attracted to that. And at the end of the day, they are really just in a relationship with an idea or an aesthetic and not really with said being.

My spirit husbands are both very misunderstood beings and I find it frustrating when people just assume things about them. They'll think they are in a relationship with a certain being and then get confused when they turn out to be pushy, hostile, overbearing, etc. That's because it's probably not who you think it is. A God/Angel/Infernal should respect your boundaries. They should be understanding and patient. If they are not, it's best not to be with that being whether it's really them or not. Then again people can also project their fears, anxieties and other issues onto their partners and misunderstand what their spirit partner is telling them or wanting from them.

I worked on another abstract painting for Loki — another one on a printed book page. This time I started with black. Please excuse the wrinkling in the first photo. That has been dealt with.

I started this painting a few days ago for Loki in His art journal. I completed work on the painting. The colors I chose to work with are black and a few shades orange and green.

I met Archangel Raphael through an old friend and angel worker. I wanted to support their angel work, so I googled archangels to see who was relevant to my life and requested a reading from Raphael. It was a playful request. I wasn't long into my practice and had no intention of working with angels! If he lingered, I don't remember. Later, I felt compelled to request another reading from Raphael and he suggested we be "friends," so friends (and more) we became

It's difficult to explain how he fits into my "theology" because my theology is both deeply personal to me (heavy UPG) and currently evolving[1]. I'm not Christian and have no interest in incorporating Christianity into my practice in any meaningful way, and he has never pressed that issue. [The original continuation of this paragraph has since been redacted]

I did some more work on an abstract collage playing card I started for Loki I started days ago. I am very excited about the way this collage is coming together.