Apr 26, 2025
oh my god. i can finally see. my dad didn't get "less abusive" because he isn't yelling at me as much. the erosion and violations of my boundaries has been the abuse this entire time.
he isn't terrorizing me anymore because he has less of a reason to. it's not because he's better at controlling his anger. he's just using different methods of manipulation and force.
this feeling of being a daughter-wife that i have. that has been the goal the entire time. it's literally just coercive control and enmeshment.
and i think my apprehension to post this probably speaks for itself (tw for the tags)
#like im kinda scared that maybe i'm being overdramatic and reading into it to much. yk?#like ohh no it's normal for fathers to . ask their kid to rub/scratch their back#and literally beg for them to do that if they say no#or like. idk. calling their 23 y/o a a 'good girl' when they do a chore/favor for them#completely normal for a father to have used the same tactics to coerce his wife into . you know what .#as he did to play tickle with his child. until that child was yelling for him to stop because they couldnt breathe#hi it's me i was that child. i am that 23 y/o#woohoo#traumaaa#julian rants#only-knives#vent#my dad#abuse tw#sa tw
