Daily T shots - Daily T injections - 1 month 12 days
There is so much new hair popping up all over. My arms, my legs, my stomach, and my face. It’s still new hair growth so it’s blonde hairs of all different lengths. My voice is cracking and all over the place. My acne is flaring up today like crazy. And I think my vile of T has like 1 more dose left. I'm so surprised to see changes this quickly. But that's the best surprise I’ve ever been given. And having a shot every day sucks, but Im happy that it’s at a point where it sucks like doing the dishes sucks. The anxiety is way lower and I feel really in control and I think I just needed to adapt to it. My whole family is kinda freaked out by needles and stuff so I don't really get to talk about it and I think I would like to more. Because it’s still something new and when you compare the idea that I will be doing this every day for the rest of my life, It really makes you see that this is worth allowing me to talk about and is a big enough deal to want family input in some way. This may sound weird but since being on t and feeling the excitement and weirdness of a male puberty I’ve been thinking more and more about my childhood and how I do feel a bit cheated. I always draw back to the thought “What if there was like some summer camp type shit for grown ass people who are trans to just learn and experience some of the things we didn’t get to as kids”. It makes me sad. like I don't have prom pictures and it’s simple moments that I just don't have but I feel silly that I still want some things/experiences from childhood/teenage years. I’m grateful tho for being able to be alive to see this. I really didn’t think I’d make it. I'm so happy that I survived all those suicide attempts and I'm so happy that my friends and family have been there for me. And I'm so glad that transitioning has helped to start me on opening my eyes to the love around me.
