#tomekin

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ok . this is gonna be like. way way different than my usual posts, so i am so sorry. this also feels rly rly Cringe™️ but like. You'll see why I'm making this post eek. I would use the sideblog I made for fictive stuff specifically but I don't think it'd get as much reach there as it would here, so. Desperate times call for desperate measures. This isn't like a canon call or anything, I don't really do those, I'm just looking for someone(s) very specific. This is fucking crazy of me to do, I'll admit, considering the amount of ways this could go WRONG and how I only saw them once, and honestly, I'm surprised this idea is even on the backburner for me, but I'm willing to take a risk because it's not often I run into other TOME players in the wild.

For some background, I frequent(ed) various fictionkin & fictive blogs to vent about like. source feels. and stuff. whatever, right? I have a lot of pent up emotions, most of my friends arent fictionfolk or systems and so nobody really Gets it gets it, even amongst those who are. (how Emo of me to say, I know =3=) I sent in one ask that I will Not show here for my own privacy but it was me venting about a lot of identity stuff related to me being Kirb. The Usual. And I got this absolutely lovely response from an Alpha & Gamecrazed the next day:

I don't know who this is. And I know basically every single system on tomeblr and none of them have this typing style or anything. This was sent about 3 weeks ago as of the time of me typing this, and while I've sent an ask off anon to the blog in question in hopes that they'll reach out, them posting it could take 5ever or Tumblr could eat the ask or something and they'd never see it. So while it's a bit redundant, and I'm sure it won't go anywhere...

I'd like for anyone who sees this to pass this around. Maybe if it spreads far enough they'll see it, and reach out or something. This + the ask I sent in to the blog is kind of a hail mary attempt, because it's likely they'll not find me, but!!!! I want to be able to thank them at LEAST. IF NOTHING ELSE. This meant the world to me, and I'm sad I missed fheir message by so much time :-(

So reblog this, share it w someone you know who is a sys and you know has TOME players in it, I just... I need to be able to face my fears and say thank you. For their sake. I hope they know how much their words impacted me.

AND!!! IF THIS IS YOU/YOUR SYS AND YOU SEE THIS!!! PLEAAAAASEEEE MSG ME OR SOMETHING IF YOU WANNA!!! SEND IN AN ASK ON ANON HERE!!!!! I'D <3 2 HAVE U HERE THANK YOU FOR BEING SO KIND!!!!!! THIS IS LIKE ONE OF THE SWEETEST THINGS A STRANGER'S DONE FOR ME. IM SERIOUS. I WANNA PRINT THIS OUT N PUT IT ON MY WALL OR SOMETHING. FUCK

i miss my friends. I miss when it was just me and them. when it was just us. but i know they're never gonna come looking for me. they're never going to want to look for me. because i'm not him, and i'll never BE him, even if i try and pretend that i am.

just once, i want someone to fucking say that they care about me. that i meant something, that my existence MEANT SOMETHING, to ANYONE AT ALL.

but i know they won't. it'll never happen.

because all i am is the discarded parts of someone else. abandoned, just like the last time, just like every other time.

all i am is something that doesn't belong. forever out of place in a world where either nobody understands, or everyone's already found their own missing puzzle pieces.

— #⚔️🎮🌈 (Kirbopher, Terrain Of Magical Expertise)

sad/affectionate moodboard for a kirbzet anon! enjoy bud!

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everyone says the more you say something, the truer it becomes. so why does it still hurt when i think about it? when i see other fictionfolk in the tags and i want to reach out, even through anons, and I feel this overhwleming grief inside?

I want to reach out, and yell "HEY!!! I'M OVER HERE!!!" even though we're not even from the same continuities- even though we're technically-but-not-really the same guy. i just want to feel close to someone or something that reminds me of that place.

nobody's looking for me. but im looking for and seeing them in everything, and it's hurting me like nothing else does. It shouldn't. but i can't stop grieving over what i could've had.

i miss them. i miss him. i just want to be back there again. amongst the purple rocks and in the woods, walking down the grassy green paths, watching the sun rise and set. laughing with them like nothing's wrong.

i miss you. i hope you know that. and i'm sorry.

— #⚔️🎮🌈 (Kirbopher, Terrain of Magical Expertise.)

an aesthetic kirb-cyberpunk/glow/cityscape for @ulipse! enjoy!

moodboard for @artisticprotector, ttarurizet who were best friends n loved each other very much + ttazet being thankful for it! enjoy ^^