#thoughtdaughter

feeling like her lately

Sometimes it feels so hard to be a girl. Being a girl at any age is so.. hard. I wish I didn't have the pressure I do on me now. I wish I didn't have to feel so suffocated. I feel like I have to plan every move I make sometimes. Nothings enough but when I do too much i'm dramatic or overdoing it. There's no in between, no safe point. I wonder if there are other girls out there who feel the same. Looking out my window helps me feel normal. I just love looking out at the sky, feeling the breeze on my face. It's calming. I feel like when the breeze hits my face, it takes my worried with it. I wish I lived in a cottage, with a tall god fearing, strong man. He would hold me and make me not worry, not feel invisible in a room filled with people who are looking at me. I know I said something about wanting to find love in my last post too. I swear im not some boy cry 19 year old girl. I just wanna get to that part of my life. Im ready. But more than anything, I want to be seen. Someone to see me the way god see's me. Anyways.. that's all. - J