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fuckyeahsam

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To be honest, I wouldn't change much. I just wanted Alec's feelings to me more clear?? But you inspired me, so... I wanted something more like this:                                                                ----For the first time in a long time, Alec didn’t know what to do. He looked at his boyfriend, now back at his original body, and he could almost see the air getting thicker and denser as it flew out of his breath. The feelings that emerged were painfully familiar to him: guilt and discomfort. Carefully, he walked towards Magnus, trying to feel the ground below him and reassure himself of some security, but it was useless. It was like walking in glass, constantly checking if it was going to break. When he finally got close enough, Alec could see see his boyfriend’s expression better and his heart immediately broke. The High Warlock of Brooklyn never looked so weak and vulnerable, it was almost uncharacteristic of him. Alec’s first instinct was to hug him and say that he loved him and everything was going to be fine, but he hesitated. Magnus was unreadable, he wasn’t giving any signs of opening whatsoever, he looked broken. Maybe he didn’t want to be touched, maybe he didn’t want Alec to touch him, he was the one who should had recognized him after all. After everyone left, Magnus silently went to his room and Alec started cleaning the mess, thinking about how everything turned out. He wished he could pick up the pieces of the mess inside of him as easily as he was doing with the trash on the floor. It felt like ages when Magnus finally got out of his room. Alec couldn’t stand anymore, he couldn’t stare at him without saying anything, he was exhausted and sad and he needed to make sure that Magnus knew that he was there for him, even if he didn’t want to. Even he didn’t want him.“Magnus, I’m so sorry... For everything you had to go through”, he meant it. He was sorry, he felt guilty and terrible. He wished there were more words to explain exactly how sorry he was. How much he wished it was him on that chair. Magnus was on the couch now, still looking as broken as ever. “That agony rune...” he started, almost whispering, his voice like shattered glass. “Made me relive memories I spent centuries trying to forget.” Alec tried eagerly to catch his eyes, but Magnus was far away, it was almost like he was relieving said memories all over again. Hesitantly, Alec sat next to him, suddenly aware of every little movement he makes.“Magnus, tell me how to fix this.”, he said, desperate. “Just tell me what to do.”, he was begging, he wanted to make everything better and take off the awful weight he was suddenly carrying on his shoulders. Now he didn’t truly believe that everything was going to be fine, not after looking deep into his boyfriend’s eyes.Magnus finally stared, hopeless. He didn’t answer, but it was plenty for Alec, at least he was looking at him, there was hope. Maybe Magnus didn’t hate him, maybe he could forgive him after all, even if himself could never.“I think I just need a little time.”, he finally answered and Alec couldn’t help but nod, a tiny bit warmer inside. He stood up and got back to cleaning, thinking that the torture that Magnus endured was way worse than what he was feeling, but it was still real and it hurt. Oh, it hurt.

(Might not watch Spain play tonight, I’m a little upset about this).

The OG will return Monday ;)

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