Hi there! Iām a queer nonbinary/trans teen member of the church and Iāve been struggling lately, but your blog has really helped me a ton. Today I had an interview for my temple recommend renewal and I felt guilty the whole time because when my bishop asked if I was preaching anything that contradicted church doctrine, my mind raced to the fact that i believe in LGBTQ+ rights and was open about that online. I thought about how Iām a member of the community myself. My mom wants me to get my patriarchal blessing but I have this fear that Iāll get outed through my blessing. Even a patriarch i donāt know knowing Iām not cishet scares me. Iām not out to anyone except a few friends and online. I feel unworthy to participate in temple visits because Iām nb.
If you have any words of wisdom, theyād be much appreciated. But if not thatās fine! Im really just here to say that your blog (as well as some other LGBTQ+ LDS blogs) has really helped me and I appreciate you so much. Whenever I feel doubt or fear I come here and I can feel the love and acceptance.ā¤ļø
Oh my! I am so touched that you find anything in my blog helpful (/hug). That really means a lot to me tbh! (and sorry this is so long, but the most important part is at the end!)
Thank you for bringing up temple recommend interviews. The key interview question in your ask may be this one: āDo you support or promote any teachings, practices, or doctrine contrary to those of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints?ā.
Short answer: You are free to support marriage equality on social media and still qualify for a temple recommend.
Longer answer: (And Please Note: This question used to be āDo you support, affiliate with, or agree with any group or individual whose teachings or practices are contrary to or oppose those accepted by The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints?ā - This change in the question is itself a change in practice)
I canāt personally answer this question for you in an interview, but Iām happy to talk about my Thoughts on the subject. First off, let me say that I am wholeheartedly committed to the two great commandments identified by Jesus in Matthew 22:36-40:
36 Master, which is the great commandment in the law? 37 Jesus said unto him, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind. 38 This is the first and great commandment. 39 And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself. 40 On these two commandments hang all the law and the prophets.
Thatās a pretty good start for me when it comes to ādoctrineā.Sometimes church members use the word ādoctrineā when they mean āmy interpretation of something someone said about a scripture passageā, but I think itās helpful to look at doctrine more narrowly as āan eternal truth that does not changeā - and there are few of those that have been revealed. More on that in another post.
The āteachings and practicesā of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints change frequently. I do not believe sustaining church leaders means agreeing with them on everything. I love something I saw indicating Bruce R McConkie and Brigham Young might deny each other temple recommends if it came down to agreement on some issues. The church has reversed major policies (āpracticesā) on queer issues in just the last few years, and is drastically different in its teachings regarding queer issues vs 20+ years ago.
To me, this question is still a lot about āAre you trying to harm the flock?ā. I don't believe I am. To rephrase: I support ongoing, internal debate on Issues, but do not support anything I consider to be contrary to the doctrines of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. And disagreeing with selected church teachings and practices may be an indication you are on the right side of history. Example: Should women hold and exercise the priesthood? In my opinion, āYesā (start with women officiating priesthood ordinances in the temple, glance over to the prophetesses in scripture, and then work through DC 76:95, before visiting some historical notes in the early church re Eliza R. Snow and josephās thoughts on the Relief Society, etc.). In this lens, my position is not terribly inconsistent with the teachings, practices and doctrines of the church. Am I encouraging people to stop paying their tithing, or stop attending church, praying or reading the scriptures while we await further light and revelation on this issue? Nope.
I recently had a temple recommend interview with a member of the stake presidency. His daughter is gay (they like her girlfriend), and we had a discussion on support of LGBTQ+ issues (I am not out btw). He was fine with giving me a temple recommend despite my disagreements. Different church leaders may disagree on application of the question, but I suspect anyone trying to deny you a temple recommend over your social media support is in the minority with regard to current church āpracticeā. :)
Iām not sure what to say on patriarchal blessings. I have never heard of anyone being outed in a patriarchal blessing. In fact, it seems more likely that the patriarch will misgender you in the eternal sense, may misgender your future spouse, and so on. Thereās been some great discussion in our Queerward Discord server on that. If you arenāt a member, Iād encourage you to ask for an invite.
And the last bit. About being nonbinary and not feeling āworthyā to enter the temple. I can empathize with this feeling, and have felt it before, but I havenāt felt that way in a long time. Through prayer and scripture study and earnest seeking, I have come to the witness that God loves me and knows me individually, that my being trans is part of my life story, and that our Heavenly Parents invite me into Their House as I seek to become more like Them. I know They love you too. I hope youāre able to gain that witness, even if it can take a while to get there. If you ever feel down about yourself when coming to the temple, just remember you are loved as a Child of Heavenly Parents, and Jesus very much wants you to be a part of His flock.
Thank you for the question anon! (And I very much agree the online LDS+LGBTQ community is a wonderful experience!)