(SFW) What if Kylo Ren finds you unconscious after a raid? He senses dormant Force energy in you, so he brings you back with him. But after you’re knocked out during the raid, the other thing you remember is your name. Kylo says: “You are my apprentice, & you were injured in battle. Your power will return. I’ll make sure of that.” He cannot sense your old memories as he reads your mind. But it will be easier for him to teach you, so he’s pleased. (1/2)
(SFW) Continuing that post Kylo Ren & amnesiac Reader- he’s rather protective of you outside of his harsh training sessions. You’re surprised, but you assume it’s normal. After 3 months, you fight in a battle with him. “You’ve done this before, & you’ve always impressed me. Do it again,” Kylo says. When you both leave the battlefield, Kylo removes his helmet & yours, staring at you intensely. “Master, were we, like… a couple before I lost my memories?” He’ll be in trouble if memory recovers(2/2)
Ren hesitates for a moment, his mind working in overtime.
It had been months and your memory had not returned, butthere was no guarantee that it wouldn’t. He had found you knocked unconsciousafter a raid but your entire village had been destroyed. What if you had had afamily, or worse, what if he had been the one to kill your family? There hadbeen so many bodies; one could have mistaken them for rocks or mounds in thesand in the dim light.
If he told you what he wanted now, there was always thepossibility that he would lose you later on. Ren had a reputation for being impetuous,but he could not risk you.
“What do you remember?” He would do the thing he alwaysdid, the safe thing, turning the questions around so that he was responsiblefor very little. Could a lie still be considered a lie if he chose not to voiceit?
“Between us?” you hesitate, wetting your lower lip as yousearch your memory. “Nothing concrete. It’s just that, well…” Your voice trailsoff as you raise your shoulders and let them drop by your side. “You feelfamiliar. That’s all.”
Familiar. Hecould work with that.
“What you’re sensing is the Force,” Ren says, adopting amore formal tone. “The Force-”
“You’ve told me about the Force already,” you insist. “Throughyour teachings, I have learned the Force, and this isn’t that. This isdifferent.” Your expression softens as you hesitate to ask your next question.For all his recklessness and violent swings of mood, Ren could be surprisinglyshy, if approached in the right way. He was more child than man, but perhapsthat was why you had grown to care for him in such a way.
“Does the past really mean that much to you?” Ren asks,and you can tell by his answer that there’s something that he doesn’t want totell you. Judging by the way he had refused to discuss your memories or yourpast life, you had sensed that there was something that he was hiding from you,something he didn’t want you to know…
…or maybe he didn’t know himself. Maybe he had found yousomewhere and had decided that you were worth protecting, worth training. Maybethat was why he had been so harsh with you during your training but so gentlewith you after.
Perhaps these were feelings that he also was not used to entertaininghimself.
“The past doesn’t mean as much to me as you do.”
Ren looked stunned for a moment, as if this was not an answer that hehad expected to hear. Slowly, nervously, you take a step towards him, pleasedwhen he doesn’t pull away. He lets your face draw closer and closer to his ownuntil you eventually press your lips against his, red and chapped from thecold. He hesitates for a moment before he returns the kiss, placing his hand onyour shoulder as if to prevent you from pulling away.
You relax into him, placing a hand on his chest and suppressing the urgeto run your hand through his thick hair. Maybe that could come at another time,when more trust had built between you and Ren was sure that you were someonethat he could trust with anything, even with matters concerning your own past.
Honestly, though, did the past truly matter all that much? The past wasjust information, cold and objective. Even if you had been enemies with him before,did that really change things with him now? While Ren’s volatile emotions couldshift from one minute to the next, yours had been slowly building. Would anythingthat he had to tell you about your past really change what you felt now?
You hoped not, but perhaps ignorance was bliss.
You gently pulled away as you took his gloved hand in yours, starting backtowards his shuttle, and towards home.