#study log

☀︎ 4:20 | ☽

⏱ __.__h | __:__ ▸ __:__

lectures:

○ modern history - ○ 17/22

○ current affairs backlogs

anki:

○ review polity

○ review modern history

○ review current affairs

○ add modern history

○ add polity

studying this week (08.06 - 14.06):

○ polity - preamble + union & it's territories

⤷ preamble - review lecture notes (08.06) (08.06, 14:00 - 15:06)

⤷ ncert xi - icw (08.06) - ◉ ch 1 (13.06, 06:39 - 07:56)

- ○ ch 10

⤷ ml - ch 5 (09.06)

⤷ union & it's territories - review lecture notes (10.06)

⤷ ml - ch 6 (11.06 - 12.06)

⤷ notes (13.06 - 14.06)

○ modern history - advent of the europeans and expansion of british

⤷ review lecture notes (08.06 - 10.06)

⤷ bipin chandra - ch 2 (11.06 - 13.06)

dailies:

○ read newspaper ◌ mcqs ○ answer writing

others:

○ journal ◌ go on a walk ○ membership application

○ must do ◌ not a must do ◉ done ◓ half done

☀︎ 5:00 | ☽ 00:12

⏱ 5h 07m | 10:00 ▸ 23:38

lectures:

◓ modern history - ◉ 15/22 (11:50 - 13:11) ◓ 16/22 (21:50 - 23:38)

◉ current affairs - 08.06 (10:00 - 11:00)

anki:

○ review

◉ add polity lecture notes (14:00 - 15:06)

○ add modern history lecture notes

studying this week (08.06 - 14.06):

○ polity - preamble + union & it's territories

⤷ preamble - review lecture notes (08.06) (14:00 - 15:06)

⤷ ncert xi - icw (08.06) - ○ ch 1 ○ ch 10

⤷ ml - ch 5 (09.06)

⤷ union & it's territories - review lecture notes (10.06)

⤷ ml - ch 6 (11.06 - 12.06)

⤷ notes (13.06 - 14.06)

○ modern history - advent of the europeans and expansion of british

⤷ review lecture notes (08.06 - 10.06)

⤷ bipin chandra - ch 2 (11.06 - 13.06)

dailies:

◉ read newspaper ◌ mcqs ⊘ answer writing

others:

◉ journal ◌ go on a walk ◉ review internship & apply if possible ○ membership application

○ must do ◌ not a must do ◉ done ◓ half done

⊹ ࣪ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁﹏⊹ ࣪ ˖

feels like i did most of the tasks today 😌

got a call from a friend and it went on much longer than i expected. also realised i'm not eligible for the internship because i'm not enrolled in a university yet... which is kinda annoying because i'll be enrolled in like a month 🫠 it was a really good opportunity too.

i was hoping to finish the lecture before going to sleep, but i kept dozing off while watching it 😭 so, decided to call it a day instead.

☀︎ 07:12 | ☽

⏱ 3h 46m | 09:40 ▸ 15:54

lectures

◓ modern history - 15/22 (13:30 - 15:54)

◉ current affairs - 06.06 (10:36 - 11:16)

anki

○ add current affairs cards

⤷ ◉ 05.02 (09:40 - 10:15) ◌ 06.06

○ review polity

studying this week (05.06 - 07.06)

○ polity - constitution

⤷ review lecture notes (05.06) (05.06; 01:00 - 02:18, made anki cards from the notes too!)

⤷ ncerts (06.06): ○ ix - ch2 ○ xi - ch1

⤷ anki (07.06)

⤷ pyqs (07.06)

dailies

○ read newspaper ◌ mcqs ○ answer writing

others

◉ journal ◌ go on a walk ◌ review internship info & apply if possible ○ membership application

⊹ ࣪ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁﹏⊹ ࣪ ˖

☀︎ 05:08 | ☽ 04:55

⏱ 05h40m | 21:30 ▸ 04:19

lectures

◉ modern history - 14/22 (21:30 - 00:28)

◉ current affairs - 05.06 (02:55 - 04:19)

anki

○ review current affairs

studying this week (05.06 - 07.06)

○ polity - constitution

⤷ review lecture notes (05.06) (01:00 - 02:18, made anki cards from the notes too!)

⤷ ncerts (06.06): ○ ix - ch2 ○ xi - ch1

⤷ anki (07.06)

⤷ pyqs (07.06)

dailies

⊘ read newspaper ⊘ mcqs ⊘ answer writing

other

◉ journal ◌ go on a walk ◌ review internship info & apply if possible ○ membership application

○ must do ◌ not a must do

⊹ ࣪ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁﹏⊹ ࣪ ˖

pulled an all-nighter somehow and still got only a few things done, but it felt like a very productive night 💀.

lectures

○ modern history - 14/22 ○ current affairs - 04.06

anki

○ add current affairs cards - ○ 03.06 ○ 04.06

○ add modern history cards - ○ 12/22 ○ 13/22

readings

○ modern history (ncert viii) - ○ ch3 ○ ch4

◌ polity (ncert viii) - ◌ ch3 ◌ ch4

dailies

○ read newspaper ◌ mcqs ○ answer writing

others

◌ go on a walk ○ journal ○ read ○ apply for admission

○ - must do ◌ - not a must do

⊹ ࣪ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁﹏⊹ ࣪ ˖

hello!

idk what happened 😭 i went to sleep feeling motivated and somehow woke up with none of it. even woke up later than usual, which definitely didn't help. looks like i can't do much about it now 😮‍💨

anyway, i really need to finally apply to at least 2 universities because i've been procrastinating on that for way too long and the deadlines are getting close 🫠 hopefully it won't take up too much time and i'll still be able to finish the rest of my tasks as planned.

lectures

○ modern history - 13/22 ○ current affairs - 03.06

anki

◌ psych - history and schools ○ add current affairs cards (03.06) ○ add modern history cards (12/22)

readings

○ modern history - (ncert viii)

○ ch 3 ◌ ch 4

○ polity - (ncert viii) ch 3

dailies

○ read newspaper ◌ mcqs ○ answer writing

others

◌ go on a walk ○ journal ◌ make a drink ○ read

○ - must do ◌ - not a must do

⊹ ࣪ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁﹏⊹ ࣪ ˖

good morning \(^o^)/

it's been raining since i woke up. i usually love rain, but it's been thundering too. hopefully it won't get too hot later.

i was really motivated to study when i posted last, but somehow that motivation disappeared and i ended up lazing around for two more days 💀. anyway, i'll try to be more consistent from now on.

day 70/70—27/05/2026

its over :) all 2 years of hell

ended on a pretty bad note. which makes sense. Considering.

uh. bitsat went bad lol. might get msc math goa. might. im hoping for it. like praaaying. paper wasnt even hard i just blanked out again. cried in the car my dad said he was proud of me. talked a looot. got home ate yummy food had a buzzball (baby's first drink! i dont think it did shit 😭 my head just kinda hurts but thats all the crying)

sat outside w my parents for a whiiile. went to mh room. tried playing stardew but i felt too guilty. cried. my dad came in and sat w me and gave me another Talk. "college shouldn't be your identity it should be your platform" "im not going to tell you to not be disappointed because thats useless, its human it's okay" and then talked ab how his brother spent years resenting the branch he had chosen and it sucked for him bc he regretted so much. so just kinda reminding me that it didn't go well because yeah effort wasn't enough but i was capable and regret doesn't really do much because "i could have started studying a month earlier" could also mean "if id started studying 2 years back I would have got an iit" and he could also regret not pushing me to do this in 9th grade but regret doesnt. do anything. trying to internalise that. its hard but im trying

cried a looot lol. also saw an old classmate at the centre. we were best friends in lkg because we were born on the same day. i dont think she recognised me and i was too tired to go up to her lol. but that was nice. and i saw a few other classmates :)

trying to just. come to terms w it i guess. because i almost 100% got my plan b choice (manipal main campus mnc) and plan c (vit vellore cse). and like. bits goa msc math is also a slight possibility. its there. idk if it'll happen its not for sure but it Is An Option. so. yeah

im just very very thankful for my parents i guess. idk. im so so so lucky and blessed to have parents that care about me like this and . idk. i love them and im happy and grateful and they arent perfect but they try and im so so thankful for that.

idk what else to say 💔 not abandoning this blog trust ill turn it into a daily diary entry and also post stupid shit 🙏 people writing iat/neet/anything else hi ily ur going to do SO good because i just decided you are. and there's nothing you can do about it.

song of the day is somebody that i used to know by elliott smith. also shoutout sun bleached flies ethel cain for playing "if its meant to be it will be" while i was crying and my dad was giving me a pep talk about regret lol

day 69/70—26/05/2026

guys. im almost done. oh mh god

uhhh. wasted the first half of the day Tbh. then did a bunch of chem and phy. error log skimmed. read all formulas. got very very anxious for a bit. couldn't breathe properly for a bit. but thats Okay

because!!! i can do this bc i worked hard and i wasnt perfect but its okay that i wasnt perfect because i deserve this and i know im capable and i can do it i can i can i can

song of tje day. rhiannon fleetwood mac!!! its so sparkly

good night:)