hear me out: bottom joel majorbeans dubcon, BUT it's only dubcon because joel would never ask scott for sex in a million years, and ESPECIALLY would never ask scott to top him, but he really really wants him to. so for the sake of his honour he refuses to show he's enjoying it and keeps insisting he hates scott, while never actually doing anything to stop him beside token resistance and brattiness. but ALSO! he's really bad at hiding he's enjoying it. he's trying to act tough and shit talk scott but his words keep being interrupted by moans and pants and he can barely get the words out, he's trying to play rough with scott but his limbs keep giving out. scott finds watching his pathetic attempts to stay tough incredibly amusing, and wants to break joel down into begging for it just to enjoy how humiliated he'll be afterwards, if he even acknowledges to scott that it happened at all.
sorry. went insane. god i hope anon is definitely on oh my god
Dearest anon, you know it's not nice to look directly into people's head and see the silly idea they have been sitting on for half a year. /silly
But to answer your ask, or your hear me out, this - or something to this effect - happens in Soldatova's Rule. They 'talk' about boundaries and make a safe word [as a joke: it's a REALLY stupid and bad safeword] and then Joel cannot fathom Scott topping him unless it is in a 'non-con' setting - cause then he doesn't want it and it's happening and it's fine and he doesn't think about what this means for him and he's def not gay and everything is fine and everything is okay - BUT it's consensual non-con and Joel hates that it's consensual and has entire moment about it and Scott is being a bit too rough and Joel SAFE WORDS.
And it's horrible... for him. Cause Scott stops. And he hates that it does.
Anways, Soldatova's Rule coming soon hopefully < 3
