#solveforx

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One of the biggest things that impact me negatively from being on the spectrum is the lack of proper executive functioning. It’s not talked about as much as a lot of other ASD struggles, but I feel it has put me at a huge disadvantage in my young adult life. This year I have noticed it far more now that my fiancé and I are living on our own thousands of miles away from our family and we have both struggled with severe depression all throughout the year, further inhibiting normal functionality. There are very important things that needed to be done within the first few months after the move that have STILL not been done and it’s been over a year now... I don’t have proper insurance, my car is all sorts of messed up, I need to go to the doctor, my fiancé needs to go to the doctor but even when I have energy and am not depressed it all becomes so overwhelming that I can never figure out how or where to start. I’m drowning and panicking and still just let all of these priorities fly by. I feel useless and lazy. I don’t know what to do anymore. Just let me sink.

Writing a song now. I’m definitely not the best at writing poetry or songs because I think too much. I’m great at writing well technically and I’m a great editor, timed essay writer, tutor, etc. but I’m definitely not good at abbreviating my feelings in lyrics. But I’ve been listening to a lot of new original song writers and it’s inspired me.

Alter Alohas:

Ricky ~ protector

20, female (she/her), pansexual, American

Fun facts:

•not easily trusting, but will do anything to help people she deems real friends

•possibly bipolar or BPD, temperamental, unfiltered but sarcastic

•enjoys the beach, nature trails, traveling, fitness (competitive sports), and academics

•part-time barista, full-time college student inner world

Alter Alohas:

Rune ~ memory holder

Eternally appears approx. 16 but doesn’t really have an age, Cambion (half-demon/half-human), no gender(Rune/she/they)

Fun facts:

•often compared to Raven (“Teen Titans”) and Violet (“the Incredibles”) but with an oddly thin, bony stature

•was raised by fairies in a secret garden in Wyatt and Ricky’s (other alters) backyard

•insomnia (doesn’t sleep at all), recovering ED, and serious case of RBF

•enjoys studying Wicca, reading, long walks, and alone time

Hey there! We are System X and we have dissociative identity disorder. Here are the basics:

1. How many alters are in your system? 7 total, we believe, along with a few fragments

2. Names? X (Jonah), Jessica, Cameron, Wyatt, Ricky, Rune, C.J.

3. Who is the original? X relates to the body and has earliest memories, however we do not feel that there is an original or core in our system.

4. Who is the host? X and Cameron co-host

5. Are there any littles? C.J., but they’re 10 yrs old now. They grow up so fast.

6. Did you realize you had DID? If so, when? I always knew something was off and doctors had trouble treating me. In high school an event triggered a breakdown, which resulted in X becoming aware that the alters were actually coming forward. After years of struggling, another breakdown led us to a psychologist who suggested the possibility of DID.