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October was so good to me 🧡 I am proud of myself for starting therapy, prioritizing the things that makes me feel most like me, giving in to love and vulnerability, saying no thank you to alcohol and Trying Really Fucking Hard.
“And now that you don’t have to be perfect, you can be good.”
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Sober things:
Biking, reading in the sun, keeping my apartment tidy (even the floors!) saying ‘no’ a lot more often, Friday nights in the gym and Saturday mornings on the trails, apparently taking more selfies and finding delicious AF options- cider, wine, matcha, bubly
I want to remember my joy
Hard things I’ve been doing recently: drinking kombucha instead of alcohol, going to school without makeup and believing that I am still worthy, making homemade granola and eating it until I am full, trusting that my body is wise and knows when it is hungry even though I notice it growing, sitting with my feelings and FEELING them without using substances or food to cope, running in spandex even though I think I will always be conscious of the size of my thighs. We can do hard things :)
Things I’m proud of- prioritizing my mental health over pleasing others, 3 good weeks of mileage, not feeling guilty for eating real ice cream, working hard on my relationship with food and alcohol, choosing ME again and again.
Fall in love with taking care of yourself 💖
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Being sober curious allows me to use the principles of intuitive eating to choose foods that will nourish me- body or mind (sometimes green vegetables and sometimes a smiley cookie)- instead of restricting because of ‘alcohol calories’ or consuming mindlessly (or bingeing) when I’m drunk or hungover. It gives me a sense of balance and stability that I didn’t have when I was getting drunk every weekend.
It means being present and mindful with my thoughts, behaviours and FEELINGS and the way those affect my food choices. This year I committed to feeling my feelings! Sometimes I still eat a cookie even though I know I’m only eating it because I feel sad or overwhelmed or angry. At least I can be present and aware! Sometimes food is just comfort 🍪
Finally, it has started to give me freedom around foods! I eat a cookie when I WANT a cookie (literally every single time) and then I don’t binge on cookies! ✨
