#shattered thoughts

The words typed, untyped and typed again are hard to really comperhend, but I came to save lost Alice to far from wonderland. The sky is blurry and the king went away. The queen has caused mischief insnaring this pain. All the white rabbits and talking plants can't fix the lose of a prince, but maybe I can. So the king disappeared and the queen is a wreck but wonderland is far from a mess. Its got potential if you clip up the thrones. The garden is beautiful dispite of these storms. You find trusting the changes, hard and fearing the thoughts kept up at night . Inspite of all this you still try to fight. Fight past the cards that are bent and the Croquet left unplayed. You stand up for the twins and the oysters and play with the Hatter on your better of days. The hare and the mouse are as triblent in belief in fighting a cause,just like me. Of the thoughts that make us feel lost. So finding Alice is my concern in wonderland eat me and drink this are just words on a paper. The action that backs them is not in your favor. So strugglings hard and this tale has dragged on..... so I'll be here to help figure out how we can impossibly move on.

one twisted aftenoon, I got lost to two sounds standing between two epochs colliding while, I confuse with my identity drown with my thoughts shatter with my life. I badly need some saving.

But, no one seems to notice

they were all screaming, dancing, thumping as if everything is normal laughing, and talking their self comfortable to the rhythm I wish I am too

But, I am left gawking.

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I got to thinking on my long daily commute about the choices made in the writer's room;

Could you imagine anyone, other than Buck, being the person watching Eddie get shot in slow motion? *with bonus spray of blood* Who else could have pulled Eddie to safety so damn dramatically. The way this scene was framed is the ultimate love scene (imo)

Hen could have easily been the one reassuring Buck when he was trapped under the ladder truck but no, even though she was administering medical treatment, it was Eddie with his hand in Buck's. The man had just one job on that scene and it had nothing to do with his training or skills and everything to do with love.

No-one on the team would have clawed at the ground which had swallowed Eddie like Buck. As upset as the others were, none of them would have lost it quite like that. The man was never going to be on a rostered day off or in the toilet when that shit went down because it was important to tell that specific story. The story of Buck's love for Eddie.

Could you see Chris calling anyone other than Buck to kick in Eddie's bedroom door?

It was a no brainer that Eddie was going to recklessly climb the ladder, screaming Buck's name after the lightening strike. And why was it Eddie's hands who brought Buck back to life? I will tell you why, because it is the perfect love story. There was plenty of opportunity for Chim to be the hero but it wasn't what the writers wanted and so a choice was made.

It's a pattern, it's deliberate.

My weary brain is literally toast tonight. 🍞