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y/n could not breathe. She couldn't see, she couldn't feel, she couldn't hear anything as she stumbled into the room. The girl moved to the curtains pulling them shut so darkness reigned, then she stumbled into the bathroom.

Her chest was moving up and down rapidly, trying to pull air into her lungs and failing with the wheezes they were letting out. The girl gripped the sink, trying to calm her sobs.

y/n couldn't see anything but Leah's shocked face, her hurt eyes that y/n hadn't told her. y/n and Leah had once made a promise that they would tell each other everything. This was the first time either had broken that.

Everything was so tangled in her brain as the girl coughed out, a shaky hand wiping her tears across her cheek as she stumbled against the shower wall, sinking into the corner to press herself into the corner.

The girl brought her knees up against her chest, her shaking arms wrapping around them as her head fell against her knees, eyes shutting as she continued to try and suck in deep breaths.

It felt as if she was on a round-a-bout, being spin as she closed her eyes, her stomach tensing from how sick the dizzy feeling was making her feel.

All y/n could hear was her own heartbeat, how quick it was racing in her ears as she tried to count down from 50, trying to think of anything but what had just happened.

It wasn't working, nothing was working and her hands were shaking, oh God her hands were shaking so fucking much. Leah was going to hate her, Georgia definitely hated her.

y/n was going to have to fake her death and run away, dye her hair and get a spray tan, get a job on a beach bar and hope everyone would forget who she was.

The thought of such a dramatic thing is what managed to ground her, the humour in her sudden thought sucked her from her panic attack and suddenly a ghost of a smile bit at her lips.

y/n's hand pushed on the ground, her head spinning as she slowly sucked in a very deep breath, her lungs almost burning in pain as she did so.

Her head was still spinning, as if she was stuck on a round-a-bout and couldn't get off. It was like when she was ten, and Leah had told her to not go on the spinning teacups again at the fair because she would throw up.

y/n ignored her big sister as usual and went back on them with her father, Leah and their mother watching in disapproval as she got off and promptly began to cry because she felt sick.

Leah. The thought of the blonde did further help to calm y/n. The blonde Leah, the feisty captain, her Leah, her big sister who loved her so much. Who would be so angry now she had done this.

y/n's breath sped up again, the thought of that sending her spiralling once more and she tried desperately to grasp back onto reality, in her haze failing to notice the door slamming open, her sister searching for her with wide and panicked eyes.

"y/n?" Leah's voice was quiet as she tried to talk to her younger sister. y/n however just covered her face with her hands, folding herself into her knees as if doing so would protect her from the truth.

"I'm sorry. So sorry." y/n mutters quietly. "So so so so sorry." y/n continues, hiccups interrupting her speech as she continues to sob, her eyes red and skin puffy.

"y/n." Leah says a little stronger now, the woman slowly kneeling next to her sister, almost waiting for her to scarper.

"Leah." y/n says softly, almost as if she had suddenly remembered who her sister was. The younger girl wipes her eyes, looking up at Leah while biting her cheek.

"Hey kiddo." Leah says softly, her hand slowly rubbing circles around y/n's back knowing it calmed the girl. y/n reaches out for her sister, who sees what she is doing.

Leah's hand grabs her sister's hand and places it on her chest, allowing y/n to feel the difference in their heartbeats, y/n could feel the blood pumping rapidly through her ears.

"In with me pumpkin." Leah says softly, breathing in deeply and nodding when her sister does the same. "Now hold for me." She continues before letting the breath out. "And out." She tells her sister.

y/n can already feel the way her blood has slowed its sprint, her heart now slowing it's beat to a much slower rhythm and y/n focussed on that, focused on Leah and her own ever slowing heart.

Leah stayed by her side the entire time and continued rubbing her back until y/n sucked in a breath which was filled with strength and Leah knew her sister had calmed.

"You wanna try and stand?" Leah asks y/n who nods. "Okay, come on." Leah says, taking her sister's hands and helping her to her feet, which y/n does so steadily, albeit on shaky legs.

"Oh Lee." y/n sighs as she looks at herself in the mirror, her red eyes, puffy face, irritated cheeks from the way she had been folded in on herself.

"You've gotten into a right old mess, haven't ya?" Leah asks her sister, moving to sit on the bathroom sink. "Haven't seen you like that in a while." Leah adds to her sister who runs a hand over her face.

"I promised to tell you everything." y/n shrugs. "And I didn't." She adds and Leah chuckles.

"Oh kiddo, I'm not mad about that eh." Leah promises her sister, bringing the girl into a tight hug.

"You're not?" y/n asks, her voice quiet and small as Leah squeezes her again.

"Course I'm not my girl." Leah promises her sister. "But I'm worried about you, and I'm worried about G." Leah admits to her sister who groans.

"I know, it is so bad, but recently it has become so toxic Lee, and I don't know why." y/n tells her sister. "I don't know what I did wrong." She adds and Leah sends her a look.

"You got into bed with your best friend, that is what was wrong." Leah tells her sister who groans.

"Best friend." She scoffs and Leah furrows her brows.

"Huh?" She asks her sister confused, but y/n had already started to spill her honest feelings of everything happening.

"I know, okay, I know that was wrong, but it was working Lee. We were doing okay. And then suddenly it fractured, it broke and we were shattered." y/n rants to her sister, pulling from the blonde.

"When did this happen?" Leah asks y/n.

"It got bad a few weeks ago, but I've been feeling so much worse about the situation for months." y/n tells her sister and Leah lets out a noise of understanding.

A few weeks ago Georgia had started acting weird, and Leah was pretty damn sure a few weeks ago was when the ship edits of y/n and Sydney came out.

"Why were you feeling bad?" Leah then asks her sister, as if realising what the girl had said. Leah's eyes flicker behind her sister, who was turned to Leah.

"Because I've been in love with Georgia for years." y/n admits softly, looking at her feet in what seemed like shame. "And it's killing me." She finishes.

"I'm in love with you too." Georgia's voice echoes and y/n snaps around, mouth dropping in shock at the girl who was stood in the bathroom door.

"Do you want me to stay, do you want me to go?" Leah asks her sister quietly and the girl turns to her sister, smiling softly.

"I'll be okay." y/n promises her sister, Leah sighs before pressing a kiss to her sister's temple and walking toward the door. Leah's hand lands on Georgia's shoulder and squeezes.

At that action Georgia's worry calms, because that was Leah telling her that they were okay, and that maybe Leah understood somewhat, that Georgia hadn't meant to cause this.

"I'm in love with you too." Georgia repeats softly once the door had shut, proving they were alone. "And I've been such a dick because I'm jealous. Jealous of you and Sydney." She continues.

"G, why?" y/n asks.

"Because they were all shipping ya! And I hated it, because I want them shipping you with me." Georgia rants, she throws her arms up as she groans, going to say something else.

y/n however doesn't need her too and beelines to Georgia, cupping her jaw and instead sealing their lips together in a sudden but heated kiss.

Tongues clash as Georgia's hands wrap around y/n, the two putting all the lost feelings they had into a kiss which would forever remain imprinted into their brains, even years from now.

Then it slowed, their kiss became soft and lips slowly pulled from one another as their foreheads rested against each other, breathing in one another's beings.

"What now?" y/n asks Georgia and the girl breathes out a chuckle.

"We are going to go home after this, and I am gonna take you on a date, a proper date where I hold your hand and kiss you." Georgia tells her.

"Yeah, I like the sound of that." y/n smiles and the two connect their lips once more.

"Oh, and I am so sorry for back there-" Georgia doesn't get to finish her sentence because her lips are covered by y/n's own.

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The room was quiet as y/n looked up at the dark ceiling, her brain trying to comprehend all that had happened that day. She couldn't quite comprehend it.

She was love, she was so loved and she always had been. And she was also an idiot, and had she slowed down and stopped to think about it, maybe she and Georgia could have saved so much time.

Georgia loved her. She actually loved her. What were they supposed to do now? y/n wasn't sure.

"Are you awake?" Georgia asks aloud, her whisper cutting through the dark and quiet room.

"No, I'm sleep talking back to you." y/n tells Georgia who snorts in response.

"Can I be with you?" Georgia asks quietly and y/n grins at her hand.

"Please." y/n tells Georgia and soon enough the two are tangled together, y/n running her hand through Georgia's hand soothingly.

"We really did it all so wrong didn't we?" Georgia asks, a smile on her voice.

"Oh completely." y/n agrees to Georgia who chuckles. "But we got there." She adds, pressing a kiss to Georgia's head and the girl kisses her neck in return.

"I love ya." Georgia tells y/n and the girl smiles.

"I love you too." y/n promises her. "Best friend." She adds and Georgia's laugh echoes the room.

Oh yeah, y/n really loved her. And you know what? Georgia loved her just as much.