#sh trigger

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Officially, I have broke my sh-free period. I did it month ago already, but I didn't leave the mark. This one will do. Adding a new scar to my collection.

No one would notice it anyway. If they do, they'd pretend they didn't. They'd pretend they don't see the bandaid and the very bottom of my left forearm, which is already covered in scars from ling ago. And no one would ever notice there's new one once it will be healed.

Only I know that there's 52-57 lines there on my left arms+2 on the shoulder. I counted them once, out if curiosity.

Now it will be either 53 or 58.

I don't feel the relief it used to bring so long ago. It didn't hurt. If you were into that, you know that when it does not hurt it means it's deep.

I feel disgusted. I remember the time when I saw that fat layer in the depth of the line, long ago. I felt disgusted. This process is disgusting. But I did it because this slight pull on the wound is grounding me.

There's a lot of ways to sh without a mark. I used some of them subconsciously, not being aware. But I did the classic now.

I can't stop thinking about the veins on my feet that stand up so perfectly. Its one of this thoughts that has you actually shrinking but you still think about it. Woud it hurt? I hope not.