Jul 9
Feeling Lost
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Feeling Lost
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I hate having anxiety and panic attacks. Unironically, they freak me out.
The worries I have are so random and unlikely too, but the thoughts themselves terrifiy me.
Like that people I love don't love me back, i'll randomly get banned off of Tumblr, or tumblr will shut down. (Knock on wood guys /hj)
Its probably NEVER going to happen, but the thought..:(
Sorry for the vent, i'll go draw some more I promise, I just needed to get this out.
ughghhhhg being sick has me like
I sneezed like 30 times now Im the last couple hours and it’s so weird because normally it’s super hard to get me to sneeze like I’ll sneeze maybe once every 4-5 days when i’m healthy. Not a sensitive nose, no allergies that I know of, nothing.
I got this cold now tho and at first it was normal but now theres just a tickle stuck in my nose and it keeps coming back especially when I finally get rid of any snot (sorry if this is too graphic) and then I’ll need to sneeze like 5 times and then im gross and snotty againnnn
all I wanna do is finish cleaning why is this happeninggghhggh???? Is it smth in the air or just the weirdest sickness everugh??!?
****dies in a puddle****
I want to say this: The Cookie Run Kingdom story is likely planned ahead of time, Devsisters can do what they want with their story as well. This was probably always going to happen and not much would change. However.... That doesn't mean we can't be frustrated. And boy, for the first time- Upon rethinking the ending to Beast Yeast- I am frustrated. It's not fair. How come HE gets to live?! Why is he THE ONLY ONE who gets to?! That's not fair. My bias for which one of the five was my favorite might be taking over but just... Why him?! In my opinion, it should've been all of them or none of them. But him?? HE gets to live?! Out of all of them?? One of the least deserving in my opinion! It's. Not. Fair. I cried like a baby at the ending, I cried like a baby. And when I had it confirmed that the rest of the five were gone, when my favorite was gone. It hurt more than it should've. It's probably due to me being very in tune with how some Cookie OCs I own and co-own would feel on the situation and I was thinking of them the entire time due to having AU projects I want to do for CRK at some point. It's not fair. Why HIM. Why Shadow Milk Cookie. My frustrations will probably go away later but until then... I can't stand that Shadow Milk lived while the other Beasts had to die.
i grew up for a good portion of my childhood with undiagnosed/untreated audhd (the hell that is autism/adhd combo and, in my case, crippling anxiety/panic disorder whoopee) and therefore as a kid i had a really hard time performing in school and was essentially straight up bullied, purposely humiliated and constantly punished by teachers instead of being given the accommodations and understanding that i needed to succeed, and it’s traumatized me so badly that now as an adult i cannot handle being in situations where i have the potential to fail following the directions that i’m given or could be ‘punished’ for doing a task incorrectly. when i fuck something up it genuinely feels like someone is going to come beat me
for example i’m a grown 22 year old woman who needs someone to go with me still to get an oil change at valvoline because i’m so afraid of what will happen if i don’t know the answer to a question they ask me about my car or don’t get on the tracks properly or something. if there’s something i need to do where the instructions are unclear or missing, i simply avoid the ask altogether or need someone to hold my hand through it, because the prospect of fucking it up feels like the most humiliating thing in the entire world. the idea that someone will give me directions and i don’t understand them or don’t follow them properly is debilitatingly terrifying to me. whenever i do happen to misfollow directions and am even lightly scolded by someone, it usually ends with me crying, having a meltdown or shutting down completely/eloping (abandoning the task completely, quitting a job, etc). this sort of disordered trauma response could’ve been avoided if i’d simply………. been given the proper help and love i needed as a child instead of having been mercilessly bullied for my cognitive disability by the grown ass teachers and professionals that were supposed to help and protect me. FUCK!!!
one time i was in the mcdonald’s drivethrough and i had this weird sort of gift card, and the lady at the window was sticking the card reader machine out the window for me to use, and it was this oddly shaped machine so i couldn’t tell where the spot was to swipe my card. and she was getting really frustrated and frantically barking at me where to swipe it and i froze because i couldn’t process what she was saying. and she ended up snatching the card from my hand and doing it herself all angrily. and then once i finally got my food i pulled over and shook and cried for a good 30 minutes probably. genuinely felt like i needed to be put down like a slow dog on that day
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Ongggmdmh the prideful is so overstimulated… it’s so loud becus of carhorns and fireworks and those blowers or sum, makes falses head hurt and some1 is popping REALLY loud fireworkz and aids dad is crashing out on his muther and falses brother. Thetexture of my clothes itfeels itchy bhghfhag ytyghh… wtf…. I’ve been listening to Effie voice lines to calm bandaidself down.
Whenever I see a proshipper be like "DNI are stupid and unnecessary" I roll my eyes. Genuinely.
God forbid people sets a boundary for themselves. You're not entitled to someone's else's time especially when they make that boundary clear and known. You're not entitled to know their reasoning.
Someone's an asshole and crosses that boundary??? Guess what! It's not the person with "DNI" fault. You know who it is??? The person who crosses that exact boundary.
I get it, you can't control what everyone can do- but people are also allowed to curate their own expirence. Getting mad at someone for not wanting to associate with your community feels like a self-report tbh.
“Being anxious and pathetic all by yourself beautiful?” Mach says, emerging from the walls and placing a hand on my shoulder as I sit in the fetal position on the verge of tears