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i must say scouring half the midwest a bunch of times by car has made me a bit more patriotic. the word patriotic tends to make me cringe and turn up my nose because the most prominent, mainstream form of patriotism tends to be very… empty ring-wing colonialism bullshit. a love of triumph and imperialism more than land and people. that’s the opposite of what i am. maybe i just mean i’m fond of this place in some way. and i love the trees and the mountains and the ozarks and the country and all the little towns and the big ones too and the long stretches of road in the sun and all the different cultures and the indigenous and all who’ve immigrated here, both recently and long ago and all the ways of living and foods we have and grow and have been gifted by others. we all deserve for here to be a good, just place someday

hark! the herald angels sing

i’m going to take a recreational kpin dose and watch twin peaks tucked into bed until i fall asleep

getting real crazy off that ritalin klonopin nicotine combo im kind of scared im gonna explode

my life would probably be way better if i wasn’t so so exhausted and in pain all the time #euthanizeme