#selfdisclosure

I look around and see everything is all neat & in it’s place I look within and I see that’s not exactly the case. I’m here, then I’m there, I’m up, then I’m down. I could feel on top of the world and the next second come crashing to the ground. I feel too much, sometimes I wish I didn’t. I need a filter for my mind, to block out everything that’s doesnt need to be in it. I’ve got a strong thought process, I know how to push the negativity away There’s just some part of me that whispers no, let it stay. Deal with your demons, don’t lock them away. You know that if you do they’ll just come back another day. This battle has gone on for longer than I can remember. I’ve always had a tough time really pulling it together. You probably wouldn’t expect it though like I said I’m outwardly precise, But if you look deep enough into my eyes you could practically watch my inner fight.

𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝 𝐟𝐮𝐥𝐥 𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐢𝐜𝐥𝐞 𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 https://www.undoyourstress.com/self-disclosure-a-vulnerability-or-strength/

https://youtu.be/-ldqH3Qt47Y #mandatedreporter #mandatedreportertraining #traumainformedcare #traumainformedcaretraining #selfdisclosure #childhoodabuse #childhoodabusesurvivor (at Martinsburg-Berkeley County Public Libraries) https://www.instagram.com/p/CVEE_5vl_JK/?utm_medium=tumblr

SELF DISCLOSURE: I think it was the summer going in to my last year of undergrad; when I met my Dad for lunch. We had some laughs and then we talked about what my plans were going to be post grad. He mentioned the thought of me obtaining my masters degree and how the sky was the limit. At the time, the thought seemed so foreign to me. So many questions raced through my mind--how would I fund it? What would I study? What school would I go to? I was just trying to finish my B.A (-_-). I realize now that Daddy planted a seed. Parents have a pretty unique way of doing these things. (ha!) This picture was taken 7 years ago; right before I walked across the stage and received my M.S. degree in Behavioral Studies. To me, its more than a piece of paper, credentials, hard work, perseverance, debt, long nights, missing social events, tears, etc. It's the drive, it's not giving up, its's losing a parent, it's having to take care of a parent while working FT, it's going to school FT, it's keeping house, it's not feeling worthy, it's wanting to give up, it's receiving hurtful comments from "close loved ones"--processing them and moving on; realizing it was a reflection of how they felt about themselves. To anyone wanting to give up, this it to encourage you to keep going. Even when you feel like you can't. One moment, one day at a time. Nothing good or bad lasts forever. I am a LIVING TESTIMONY of this! Love and light, Coach J 💫💫💫💫 #selfdisclosure #capellaproud #ruproud #alumna #journeyreflections #7 #keepgoing #tuesdaymotivation #tuesdaystogether 🙏🏽💜💫🌻🦋👩🏽‍🎓 (at Pennsauken Country Club) https://www.instagram.com/p/CDwTn-PhxaH/?igshid=gmagxqqmk8xr

TRUE STORY: Last weekend my sister and I went jet skiing. We had a blast (other than losing a pair of shades) but shortly after this picture was taken a #tidalwave flipped us off of the jet ski into the MIDDLE of the river. This was not my first time falling off a jet ski but getting back on this time was different (Shoulder injury+ age+extremely rough waves)(((( (shout out to my rescue team--yall are the real MVPs)))). The point of my sharing this: Life is going to knock you down. Waves are going to come. You CAN get back up. You CAN chose to have a positive attitude during the various happenings that are most definitely going to transpire. Thinking back to the incident, I wonder if I panicked what would have happened. I am constantly reminded that the only thing I can control in this life, is how I show up and how I react to the happenings that are going to occur. I am grateful for each day and all the learning experiences I am provided. #selfreflection #selfdisclosure #rescue911 #selfdiscovery #truestory #summertime #jetski #jetskilife #delawareriver #lifelessons #lifejacket #sisterhood #riding #lifecoaching #lifelearner #tuesdaymotivation #tuesdaystogether 🌊💜💫🙏🏽🌞😎🌻🦋 (at Crossing The Delaware River) https://www.instagram.com/p/B1rWUmHBL3c/?igshid=13uzr0w1fsepw

I would respectfully argue that you're not really grown until you lose a parent. This loss could be to death, addiction, abandonment, etc. Losing my Father has been the most challenging thing I've had to deal with on my journey (to date). This continues to be my guide on why I live my life the way I do. Simply put, yolo. Forgive. Love. Travel. Move. Cherish. Release. Reflect. Grow. •|📷Coach J and her Mom...mother and daughter...home for the holidays|• #supersoulsunday #selfdisclosure #selfreflection #liveyourbestlife #liveboldly #livealifeyoulove #liveauthentic #thejourney 💜✨🦋 (at New Jersey) https://www.instagram.com/p/BsBgKFIhTvZ/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=dcwaq1dsx8ex

It's a matter of perception in believing and achieving all that you can.