#self insert lore

Ahh!!! I had way too much fun with this omg, I'm so happy with how it turned out!! 🥳

Full info dump & bonus image below cut~ it's quite long!🖤

content warning: long, tentacles, m(on)preg mention, Miguel slander(?) little shit alert *w*

ignore the inconsistencies with Alan I drew all of this across the span of 3 nights without a reference image lmaooo,,,

Yeah, I suck at art. I’m fully aware. I tried my best but it was so hard like 😭 I know it’s probably difficult to understand what is going on with her suit so I’ll explain it and her backstory along with her abilities! Also, my phone camera wouldn’t capture the colors accurately so I added a filter so it could look more like it does irl. Still not exactly it but close enough!

Suit

Front of suit: So, she was involuntarily genetically altered. The green heart represents her true nature before the genetic alteration which was fully human and the bright pink spider on her chest represents her altered nature. The light pink is just there hehe. The green in general both just represents her true nature (human) along with nature itself and the bright pink just represents her genetically altered nature which is why her wrist gloves are also bright pink since that area is where her organic webs come out. She has tendrils wrapped around her arms and legs with leaves and white flowers on them to just represent nature itself. The white flowers are also on the back and palm of her gloves hehe. I didn’t draw it but there is also white flowers on her lateral malleolus. The spider legs curls like tendrils to represent nature as well. I added bows onto the front of her mask because there wasn’t anything to on with it.

Back of suit: On the back of her suit, there is another heart with grooves that is supposed to represent a tree along with “FNSW” which stands for “Friendly Neighborhood Spider-Woman” and that is supposed to represent an tree engraving. The green heart is also meant to represent her true nature.

Of course, if she switched to her spider hybrid form (which I will get into after this) then her suit would rip which is why her suit is holographic and is activated and deactivated by her spiderweb necklace. (I didn’t add it onto her character design because it would have been hard to draw but please just pretend it’s on her XD)

Here are close ups of her spider symbol, FNSW heart, glove and necklace!

How she gained her abilities

She gained her abilities from being involuntarily genetically altered.

When she was genetically altered, she became half human and half spider since she had her genes sliced with the spider DNA. Similar to Miguel but instead she has a spider hybrid form that she can thankfully switch to once she learnt how to control it. However, turning into her spider hybrid form is agonizing so she rarely does so unless necessary. At first, she was not happy about her spider hybrid form… like… at all. She didn’t know how to control it at first which means she could have turned into it at any moment. It took a long time for her to accept it but she eventually did. After some time, she did learn how to control it and how to use her abilities.

Spider hybrid form: I was unable to draw her spider form so I’ll just explain it. She has keeps her human upper half (from the hips up except for her eyes and fangs which turns spiderlike when she’s a hybrid) and a spider lower half from the hips down. The spider DNA she was genetically altered with is inspired by the Parasteatoda tepidariorum spider but all black. Her torso and bust is covered in black just like the rest of her spider body and so are her arms up to her upper arms (they look like long formal gloves) She has eight eyes that are bubblegum pink and she also turns 8 feet tall. A normal looking girl one moment and a freak of a nature the next moment. >_<

Abilities

Abilities when human: Since she is basically half spider now, she gained retractable microscopic hairs on her finger pads which gives her the ability to stick to walls (like Tobey Maguire, Spectular Spiderman and real spiders.) She also gained superhuman strength, speed, endurance along with a spider sense. She has organic webbing that shoots out from a small hole in her wrists like a real spider instead of webshooters.

Abilities when spider hybrid: When she’s a hybrid, she loses her spider sense and has poor eyesight because she has spider eyes at the moment. Because of this, she has amplified senses such as hearing and smell and touch along with paralyzing venom. She also relies on vibration using her legs to help her get around

Becoming Spider-Woman

She was reluctant to become the hero of NYC and have such a big responsibility on her shoulders but she is aware that if she has an ability to do good then she has a moral obligation to do that good (thanks TASM hehe) and becomes Spider-Woman to protect her loved ones and the innocent. While she generally enjoys being Spider-Woman, it does take a toll on her. Surprise surprise… she deals with stress, guilt and loneliness alone until she is recruited by the Spider-Society.

Relationships

Spider-Ham (best friends)

What made the two of them start talking was the fact that they both kinda became a different species. She was a full human until she was genetically altered and became half spider and Spider-Ham was once a full spider until he was bitten by a radioactive pig and became… fully a pig. Becoming a different species is kinda a big thing which they both understood. While Spider-Ham is from a cartoon dimension and wacky things happen all the time with everyone kind of just accepting it, what happened to him was still a shock even though he quickly accepted it. They talk to each other about it since they went through very similar things and he helped her to accept her spider hybrid form. With that aside, they do enjoy each others’ company and quickly become close friends.

This is a self insert so I ship myself with multiple characters so yeah hehe

Hobie Brown (romantic & best friends)

Miguel O’Hara (romantic & platonic )

ITSV Peter B Parker (romantic & platonic)

Spider-Noir (romantic & best friends)

Jess Drew (platonic)

LYLA (best friends)

Lego Spider-Man (best friends)

Webslinger (Romantic & platonic)

Ben Reilly (platonic)

That’s all for now, have a good day! Mwahhhhh!!!!

I FORGOT TO ADD IT BUT HERE IS WHAT THE SPIDERWEB NECKLACE IS BASED OFF OF, ITS A BELLY BUTTON RING BUT I LOVED THE DESIGN SO MUCH THAT I USED IT FOR HER NECKLACE

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"i know you're strong enough to carry it but i love you too much to let you do it alone."

"The thin walls don't shield against the bittersweet plumes of steeped coffee thanks to the anima that idly overfills her favorite mug, makeshift luxuries are born from once separate, imperfectly crafted rituals that now unapologetically bleed into one gentle routine.

So painfully and beautifully her and him."

"somehow in this desolate world i found a sea among sunless stars, the persistent life that bleeds through fog reminds me that beauty exists even in a world with no light"

And honestly? Here for it.

Self-insert alert 🗣️

This made me realize that I don't have that much stuff of them

Okay, since I don't have that many drawings, here comes the lore ::

I remembered how to draw and finally made an attempt to design the oc/insert that's been on my mind for months😌 Meet Fenyor Vranek! Their backstory is still in development, but 5BY they are stationed on Lothal as one of the officers in charge of organising inventory and supplies, where he also works together with Yogar Lyste (and eventually develop a relationship beyond just being coworkers👀).

This is not a proper ref sheet yet, rather some exploratory sketches (that I cleaned up and coloured, too lazy for shading though) to figure out their facial features. I tried designing their face slightly after my own, without forcing myself to make it exactly the same. I'm still struggling with consistency between different view angles, but I think the top left drawing resembles best what I was going for. The hair is slightly different than mine irl, while I do have short hair now (I legit don't remember if I ever mentioned it, but I had my long hair cut off in February last year, still really happy with it), I still made it a little bit shorter and also gave the hair parting a sharper, more military-esque style that I felt would be fitting for an imperial officer. I actually found drawing the hair a bit intimidating at first as I haven't drawn a lot of characters with similar hairstyles or short hair in general, and I wasn't sure yet how to do it in my style, but somehow it just turned out super good?? I'm genuinely very happy with it and I honestly think it's kind of a shame that it will have to be hidden underneath the hat during most of Fenyor's everyday life😅 I still want to refine his body proportions and also figure out how the cut of the uniform influences his silhouette. I am kind of glad though that I don't need to come up with an outfit for him by myself right now so I don't have to do everything at once, though he might still get an off-duty look later on :3

As for Fenyor's name, it took some time to come up with it and was kind of a journey. At the beginning I wanted to give them a first name starting with A like my own name, but nothing really stuck. Around the same time I had also thought about what more masculine names I would maybe enjoy using, and for whatever reason the name Friedrich snuck into my mind. Yes I know, it sounds like I was born a hundred years ago, I actually feel like it was more that the name chose me than the other way around, but somehow I genuinely like it and I actually think Fritz is a really cute nickname as well (and I hate how much it has been tainted in recent times due to Friedrich Merz and all of his bullshit). I still wanted a name that feels more Star Wars-y though (although who knows, the galaxy far far away is big after all, and who says there can't be people called names like Friedrich or Hans-Wilhelm or Annemarie somewhere in it?). So I started looking at other names starting with F, and specifically the name Fedor felt like it was already going in the right direction. I tried a few made-up variations of it and Fenyor was the one that really stuck. For the last name, I genuinely had no idea what to come up with, so I chose a rather straightforward solution and simply picked out a name from my own family tree😂 It's from an ancestor like 7 or 8 generations back and hasn't been present in my family for a long time, so I don't worry that someone could identify me through it, plus I still also changed the spelling.