trying to move my body and stay motivated to move my body bcs i am very out of shape and unhealthy and feel awful all the time and like i’m way too young to be losing this much mobility…but holy shit doing like a hot 15 on a treadmill with relatively low incline and speed put me in actual fucking pain. like my lower back was burning so much that it made me a little lightheaded by the end. and i want so badly to be able to give myself grace and remind myself that it will get better with time as long as i keep doing my best to move but i cannot help but to literally dog on myself for letting it get this bad. for rotting in bed for most of my teen years but especially the majority of my twenties so far and just???