#seeingclearly

Some people aren’t asleep.

They’re hiding.

By letting myself be

in all of my onlyness

do I discover that I (already) Am.

It's by 'trying, willing, controlling, enduring' that we expend energy actually going against ourselves (1)

instead of staying in the centredness and peace of having the freedom to just be.

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(1) How we go against ourselves Any form of trying = 'pulling yourself together, getting uptight, having constricted muscles, holding breath' is to control the functioning of nervous system in a way that in fact does not effect / support its _proper_ functioning or operation anyway. We think it's resulting in the psychological effects we want to, but it doesn't. 

Example analogy: feeling nervous and fastening seat belts and stressing in the plane just before the plane takes off.  The mind becomes preoccupied in the doing that we do not get to see clearly.  

When our nervous system or an organ is working properly or fully functioning, we don't feel it (eg. seeing, breathing, digesting).  We don't need to feel our "I" to function properly. 

On the Ego being the sole obstacle to mystical vision

When we are aware of the ego "I", we are aware of the chronic, futile tension that we don't want to be 'married' to.  

(A joke:) With whom are you in love against?

By 'wanting' to change (=desire), we hang on to the (little) "I" existence.   Analogy: (Like) Lifting yourself up with your own bootstraps ie. you can't.

Getting rid of the ego is HARD work.   eg. How can I stop identifying myself with the wrong me

Hence religion producing hypocrisy and guilt.

The biggest ego trip going IS getting rid of your ego.  [In Yoga, ego is treated as part of a layer of the mind]

"A fool who persists in his folly will become wise"  Teachers help speed up the folly when they ‘teach’ you you can control your mind.

There is no "method". Even finding methods to get rid of the ego is still a method, a desire, a cause for suffering, _including_ the desire not to have desires or suffering.  

So long as you think the transformation of your consciousness is something you can bring about, it will be a frustrated endeavour.  One also riddled with endless games of one-upmanship and competitiveness of who/what method can do better, faster etc.  

It/the ego can disappear only in the realisation of its own futility.  

A time when a natural quietness comes to you.

Hence being able to ‘save yourself’ and have a divine experience through the Grace of God.

You cannot catch hold of it, Nor can you get rid of it, In not being able to get it, you get it, When you speak, it's silent. When you're silent, it speaks. -Zen Buddhist quote

The main obstacle to mystical vision is you / the little "I" / ego.  You do not 'have to' transform yourself, you _already_ are.

The thinker of thoughts, is just another thought, The feeler of feelings was just one of the feelings, The experience of the experience is just part of the experience.

Things can't initiate a process into action.  Action is caused by the operative principle of Consciousness / controller / doer / ego.

Things are just happening. = this is yourSelf. <3 <3

Nature is just knowing.  

There are feelings / thoughts. [Like clouds in the sky that you are, or the wind passing by]

See things, reality as it is, as they are, an idea / the projection of Consciousness that You are.

We live only in an eternal now.

It's super cool! You can attack from miles away and never have to accept criticism for what you've done while critiquing others. You never have hear what was going on in the person. You can regard them as non-person entities that you attack for personal pleasure, while wearing the mantle of "reformer" and "defender".

This is, of course, what it is to not recognize your own shadow in another.

The more ferociously you attack, the greater your rejection of the other, the more you are saying with a clear voice to yourself "That is not me! I am not like that!"

The more immediate the rejection, the more suspect.

The greater the intensity of the rejection of the person you don't really know, the more clear it is that you sre actually rejecting parts of yourself you don't want to admit are major components of who you are.

This means you can never achieve full expression of yourself, understand yourself, or really understand others.

It's a fun way to live, actually, as a partial person. A trip to the linen closet becomes a labyrinthine hall of funhouse mirrors. Very exciting. Never mind the trail of ripped threads, broken doors, and rooms on fire.

Of course it's senselessly selfish and self contradictory, but hey, if everybody else is doing awful stuff much worse then who cares, right?

right?

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I get it. Life is hard. Hurting other people might make you feel strong for once, especially if they never attack you. This changes when you see that the one you do this to is really you. It will be clear when you ask what do you really know about their personal experience and come up with mere surface facts. It's your own self-hatred bubbling up.

What can I do? Recommend self-love? Then what if they won't accept their own self-love? At that point, you're really dealing with dust and debris flying out from a storm that started well before you got involved. Bad weather. Come back when things have cleared up a little. Some storms last most of a lifetime.

Do you see how that act of withdrawing is compassionate, and not accusatory? Do you see how there is recognition of self even in the storm metaphor? Do you see how there isn't a standing above, but a standing next to, even in recognition of the chaos that impinges upon us all?