I never got to be a little boy, and I'm not going to get to be a teenage boy, either. My childhood has been and is being stolen from me, and there is nothing I can do about it. As my parents eldest 'daughter', I was the 'second mom' for as long as I can remember, and they made me interweave my entire identity with that. I never even really got to be a little kid, much less a little boy. And now I'm still that person in the eyes of almost everyone around me, and that makes it impossible for me to really be anywhere near who I want to be, who I am. I have been robbed of my own life, and I am powerless against it even as I'm fully aware and furious. I'm so tired