#blm movement

!!cw: bigotry, racism, Jim Crow (I think)!!

so brief explanation, I am not racist. never have been, never will be. But my family is (my grandmother and her son, my father at least, I do not like them) so I grew up hearing and seeing a LOTTT of mockery/bigotry toward the black and Asian communities.

My grandmother owns a very racist Christmas ornament(which she calls her ‘little n-word girl’ we are white), and a soap holder of a black girl

both look something like this

It got to the point I thought it was completely okay to say the n-word(I thought it was slang for friend for a while) and said it a few times. I was confused why people told me I can’t say that, until someone actually explained it to me. At which point I promptly stopped using it.

I thought everyone learned that racism was bad in the BLM movement back in 2020 but nah, you people need to realise what woke actually is, not just being queer and everything.

Here’s the flag below:

It shocks me how racist some white queer people are and how they’re running the demographic of white queer people, so if you’re a white queer person reading this, stand up against racism, call out your own people, and make the LGBTQ+ community inclusive as possible!

I’m a black autistic cishet girl saying this to you.

You heard what Goosewerx said:

She does NOT fw racist people, regardless of their gender identity or orientation, just because you’re part of a minority group doesn’t mean you can get away by saying discriminatory bs.

Also one more thing for racist white queers, gay activists who thought for your rights would hate y’all, because they supported Marsha P Johnson who is a BLACK GAY TRANSWOMAN

This is her btw:

And if any white person who hates white people/doesn’t trust them, I don’t blame you brah.

So in summary:

The LGBTQ+ community does not tolerate racism and/or discrimination of any kind.

I dropped out after 1 semester because I couldn’t pay for it and I wanted to die. All I could think about was how much I didn’t want to live and how bad I was at activism and how much better people of color deserved. The BLM movement was slowly down because people were going back to work and that made sense. What didn’t make sense was how so many people, specifically white people, stopped caring.

In the 1 semester I had in college I read and listened to the 1619 project. I took weekend seminars focusing on how to be a good ally. The big class of the semester focused on how climate change and racism are interconnected. I learned about the prison system. I was horrible. And being a white person, it was very much my problem. The more I learned the more I realized that this is not something you ever stop learning about. My brain was buzzing with all the crimes white people have committed against people of color and I didn’t know how to behave around people of color when I knew that every time they interacted with me they were measuring how safe I was to be around and how they should best act to stay “on my good side.” By the time I dropped out of college I was starting to feel like the damage was insurmountable and there was no way to ever “fix” it. But I sure as hell knew that I didn’t want to make it worse.

Roughly a year later I was doing a lot better and jump right back into the scary anti-racism education. I was so focused on doing my part that I hadn’t really noticed that most white had stopped doing anything. The people I interacted with online were all leftist now. And they were the type that did the reading. I was taking all the tips Black people gave on TikTok (left because it’s evil) and taking book recommendations and listen to them on audiobook.

Now I know how to keep something of educating myself and taking a break so I don’t fall into despair balance. The 2020 George Floyd murder enlightened me a lot. It sped up my growth into a scary leftist a lot! And I don’t fucking understand how so many white people just stopped.