#rowoon angst

You nearly jumped out of your seat when the door behind you flung open and the vampire’s touch disappeared from your body, all within one second. You almost fell forward but you managed to keep your balance, gripping onto the seat. You heard a loud thud accompanied by a groan and you wanted to turn around to look what was going on, but you found yourself frozen in place.

‘’What the hell do you think you’re doing,’’ an unknown voice demanded angrily, to which the other one scoffed, and from the sound of it he got back to his feet.

‘’Get out,’’ the newcomer ordered the other, and with a light woosh, the vampire who had almost bitten you disappeared from the room, pulling the door closed behind him. It was silent for a few seconds, and you began to wonder whether both vampires had left the room, but that suspicion died when you heard footsteps behind you.

‘’Sorry about that. He…wasn’t supposed to be in here,’’ the new voice explained to you.

‘’It’s alright,’’ you said back, surprised at your ability to talk at this point. You felt his presence behind you and lightly jolted when the vampire placed his hand on your shoulder.

‘’Easy…’’ he told you softly, and strangely enough it actually had a calming effect on you.

‘’I want you to feel comfortable…don’t be afraid.’’

As if a switch had flipped, you felt the fear in your stomach disappear and your muscles relax. You should feel afraid, especially after the dispute that had just happened, and if not that, you should at least feel alarmed about not being afraid, but your body and mind refused. You were calm, you were comfortable.

You felt his breath on your neck and without a warning, you felt the sting of two sharp teeth breaking the delicate skin. A soft gasp escaped your lips but you remained relaxed in your seat. Opposite from what you had feared, a euphoric feeling slowly spread from your neck through your entire body. You remained comfortably on the stool, your head tilted to the side a bit and your eyes closed, as the vampire pressed his lips against your skin and lightly sucked at the two small wounds he had created.

You felt the blood leave your body, but you didn’t cringe. Your breath remained steady, your heart beat at a normal pace, and the comforting hand on your shoulder, which was now placed on your neck as to keep you steady, all made you believe that donating blood wasn’t really that bad of an experience. In fact, you might have been inclined to call it pleasurable. Your body felt warm, your mind slightly clouded, as if you were in a warm bath, in the half conscious state after just waking up when everything is still peaceful and you don’t remember anything except how comfortable you’re feeling. If this was what it was going to be like, it would be a breeze.

You weren’t sure how much time had passed when the vampire pulled away and pressed his thumb gently over the two small punctures in your neck, making you wince slightly. You felt him reach out to the table and grab a band aid, which he skillfully placed over the two dots on your neck.

‘’There…’’ he said as he stepped away from you, and now that his touch was gone, you realized that you had gone a bit dizzy.

‘’Steady… the nurses will give you something to get your strength back.’’

There was something about his voice that soothed you, though you weren’t sure whether it was because his voice was sweet like honey or if it was something more magical.

‘’Until next time,’’ he added, and you could have sworn you heard him smile as he said it, and just as quickly as he had entered the room, he left again. You sat in silence for a few seconds, when the lights slowly turned on, allowing your eyes to adjust. You blinked a few times, then got up from the chair. You were steady, but a bit woozy, and you rubbed your eyes before walking out of the room.

‘’You alright, dear?’’ a nurse asked you as she walked over to you. You squinted your eyes a little, disoriented slightly by the loss of blood and the daylight that shone through the wall that was made up entirely out of windows as tall as the room itself.

‘’Your blood pressure was a bit uneven at the beginning, though not alarming or even uncommon,’’ the nurse added as she pressed a cookie into your hand.

‘’Yeah I’m fine,’’ you replied honestly. You felt fine. The first few minutes had been strange, to say the least, though the rest of the experience had made up for it.

‘’Oh good,’’ the nurse smiled, satisfied. ‘’If you’d please take a seat with the others, your class representative will escort you to your dorms shortly.’’

You sat next to your classmate Lia, who had just donated blood as well, and absentmindedly took a bite of your cookie. The sweetness felt good on your tongue and you could almost feel it giving you a bit of your strength back.

‘’Did it hurt?’’ Lia asked.

‘’A little bit, though not as much as I expected it to,’’ you replied. ‘’And after that I didn’t feel a thing anymore. How about you?’’

‘’Mine did…I think it was because I was so nervous. The girl who drank from me kept telling me to relax, but I couldn’t help it. Only at the end did it start feeling better.’’

You thought about what the vampire had said to you. He had told you to be comfortable and not to be afraid, and that’s exactly what had happened. Were they really just words? The other girl hadn’t been affected by her vampire’s words of comfort, so why had you? Were you just that impressionable?

‘’Alright, that was everyone. Please follow me to your dorms, you will have the rest of the day to get your strength back. Normally feeding takes place in the evenings, so that you have the evening and night to recuperate, but as today was your first day, the schedule has been flipped a little,’’ Changmin informed the group. The friendly second year student was growing on you. He was like a steady factor of little tips and tricks on how to survive vampire school.

You smiled a little to yourself at the inside joke you just made, earning a few weird glances from your classmates, though you didn’t mind. You got up with the others and followed Changmin back to your dorms, where you immediately crawled into bed, not even bothering to get out of your uniform, to get some highly needed shut-eye.

~

‘’What the hell did you put that stunt for?’’ Rowoon asked the black haired vampire who sat before him on the leather couch. Rowoon intentionally ignored the little voice in his head asking him why he was so protective over this human girl, and focused on the third year instead.

‘’I changed my mind, wanted to give feeding from the vein another try,’’ Juyeon smirked as he leaned back, placing his arms on the backrest of the couch. ‘’Why do you care so much anyway?’’

‘’You know why,’’ Rowoon said, knowing for a fact that Juyeon knew what he meant. It had been her scent. It didn’t happen often, but once in a while a human would come along that simply smelled so good, they practically made all vampires crave their blood. He had felt it, he knew that Juyeon had felt it, he knew that Seonghwa, San and even Jaehyun had all felt it.

‘’Still. You had no right to walk in on us like that. You can’t claim her,’’ Juyeon challenged him as he got up from the couch. Rowoon slightly squinted his eyes at the defiant tone of the younger vampire.

‘’You would have killed her. I did you a favor.’’

‘’You just want her all to yourself, don’t you? Well, next time-‘’

‘’Oh there isn’t going to be a next time.’’

‘’Gentlemen…’’ Jaehyun interrupted the two vampires, who were now directly facing each other, so close that Jaehyun could barely step in between the two of them.

‘’I think that’s enough,’’ he soothed the two, placing his hands on their chests and gently pushing them back. Juyeon chuckled softly and walked away to join Seonghwa and San, who were seated on another couch in the room. Rowoon pushed Jaehyun’s hand away, but Jaehyun grabbed his wrist in return. The two locked eyes and Rowoon knew immediately what Jaehyun’s stern eyes were demanding.

Stay calm. Stay in control.

Rowoon gave him the slightest nod with his head, and Jaehyun let go of his wrist in return.

‘’Boys, boys, boys…you can cut the tension in this room with a knife,’’ a female voice remarked, causing all five vampires to look up.

‘’Ah, Seungyeon. I was starting to wonder when you’d show up,’’ Rowoon said with false hostility, causing the female vampire to smile.

‘’I know you can’t go a day without me.’’

The other vampires chuckled at her joke and Rowoon merely rolled his eyes.

‘’Please tell me you did actually spend time apart over the summer,’’ Jaehyun inquired, though with an interested smirk on his face.

‘’Of course, I couldn’t sit around and babysit Rowoon all day,’’ Seungyeon scoffed. “Besides, at this point I’m pretty sure that we’re both in control enough that Mr. Kim doesn’t need us to keep an eye on each other the whole time anymore.

It so happened that when a human wanted to become a vampire, they couldn’t just be turned and get on with it. They had to be chosen by a highly valued member of the vampire community to be ‘’adopted’’ into their coven. Usually these vampires only choose one human every few years to turn, though in Rowoon and Seungyeon’s case, they had both been chosen by the rich business man, mister Kim, with only a year between them, and had developed what could best be described as a brother/sister bond as they went through transition around the same time.

‘’Do you want me to fight you?’’ Rowoon demanded, making Seungyeon laugh.

‘’Ha! We both know who would win, anyway,’’ she smirked.

‘’Please, I just broke up a fight already. Surely I don’t have to teach you manners, too, Seungyeon?’’ Jaehyun pleaded, though the amusement was thick in his voice.

‘’You’re right. I’m above all that squabbling nonsense,’’ she said as she sat herself down next to Seonghwa, pulling out a small bottle filled with a red liquid.

‘’I still can’t believe you willingly drink that,’’ Seonghwa said, shaking his head as he eyed the bottle.

‘’Of course you don’t, if you understood why I did, you wouldn’t drink human blood,’’ she said back with a sweet smile, before downing the synthetic blood. San snorted, highly amused with the level of sass Seungyeon never failed to dish when she addressed the other vampires, and dodged a pillow that Seonghwa threw at him in return.

‘’Now now, is that a way to speak to your brothers?’’ Seonghwa asked innocently, referring to the term Seungyeon often used for all five of them, though right now Seungyeon simply rolled her eyes.

‘’Don’t siblings bicker?’’ she defended herself.

‘’Fair enough,’’ Seonghwa chuckled.

‘’So anyway. Did I just walk in on you two fighting over some human?’’ Seungyeon asked, averting her attention to Rowoon and Juyeon now.

‘’Not just some human. This one smelled amazing from across the courtyard,’’ San elaborated.

‘’Ahh...,’’ Seungyeon mused, intrigued by the whole situation.

‘’It’s nothing worth talking about,’’ Rowoon said in an attempt to stop the conversation, and surprisingly enough it worked. He had no interest in talking about her with them. He wanted to keep her to himself, and if he could he would claim her immediately. Because her blood had been the best thing he had ever tasted.

~

‘’Huh. That’s really strange. My session was fine, exactly how they describe what being bitten is like. I felt like I was floating. I didn’t even feel dizzy at all afterwards.’’

You put your steaming cup of tea down and studied Jeno, who sat across from you at the table in the dining room. It was pretty late, and you would be heading to bed soon, but you knew you wouldn’t be able to sleep early anyway so you and Jeno had gone down to the hall to have some tea and talk about your first donating experiences.

‘’You don’t even look like you donated blood,’’ you snorted, shaking your head slightly. Your dizziness had subsided after you had taken a short nap after dinner and all that was left now was a mild headache, which you had been told was normal.

‘’It’s probably because you’re so tall. You have more blood than me,’’ you speculated out loud, at which Jeno chuckled.

‘’You actually might have a point there,’’ he agreed. You both sat in comfortable silence, which was something you both liked a lot, you had learned today.

‘’Did you hear about those abilities?’’ Jeno asked, breaking the silence after a while.

‘’Abilities?’’ you repeated.

‘’Yeah, the vampires. They all have these… special abilities when they become vampires.’’

You raised your eyebrows in question. ‘’You mean like really fast speed, all that kind of stuff?’’

‘’Well, that too,’’ he nodded, ‘’but the unique ones. You never wondered why some of those vampires are so popular?’’

You had to admit that you didn’t even know which vampires he was talking about. You hadn’t talked to many people and you had spent a lot of your time sleeping already on your first day.

‘’Alright, well most newborn vampires get a special ability, like being able to detect body heat or something else useful for vampiric survival. Some, though, get these very rare and in my opinion, really awesome abilities. You know that third year representative, Jaehyun, for example? Telekinesis. How cool is that?’’ Jeno gushed, and you had to chuckle at his enthusiasm.

‘’That does sound pretty cool…how is it decided how you get what ability though?’’ you asked.

‘’Nobody decides it, you just wake up as a vampire and you will have one, or if you’re lucky, two abilities. Some are very rare, others are very common. The group I mentioned earlier, the most popular vampires in school, basically, have the rarest abilities. I think they choose who gets to hang out with them based on their abilities… Another one of them, Seonghwa, produces actual venom. I think he can control whether or not he uses it when he bites someone, but to me that’s a pretty impressive ability.’’

‘’How do you know all this,’’ you askes, as you were certain no teacher had mentioned any of this before.

‘’Oh, you know. Word in the hallways. Gossip travels fast here. Like how Kim Rowoon and Lee Juyeon fought over who could drink from you.’’

You felt your body stiffen and you sat up more straight.

‘’People are saying that?’’

‘’Oh yeah, pretty much everyone is talking about it. You do know who Rowoon and Juyeon are, right?’’

‘’Should I…?’’ you ask hesitantly, suddenly feeling stupid for knowing so little while Jeno already seemed to know so much.

‘’They’re part of that group. Rowoon is pretty much the most popular guy in school. He has all the girls swooning over him, and if there are girls who aren’t pining for him, they’ll have their eye on one of the others in his group.’’

Your mind was swimming with all of this new information. Rowoon. Juyeon. Fight. Gossip. Before you left for Sagong Academy you had fantasized many times about what your first day would be like, but this sure as hell hadn’t been one of your made up scenarios.

‘’Holy sh—‘’ Jeno started to say, but he stopped himself. You looked up at him and saw that his eyes were fixated on something behind you. When you turned around, your eyes fell upon a grey, tailored blazer with orange details, right behind you. You nearly jump and quickly look up to identify the person standing behind you. He had voluminous, deep red hair which was parted on the side, a mischievous look in his eyes and a contagious smile.

‘’Hello there,’’ the student greeted you, and it took a moment for you to reply. What was it with these vampires who kept approaching you?

‘’Hello…’’ you replied, smiling up at the boy.

‘’I have a message for you,’’ he continued, holding out a golden rimmed envelope. You took it from him.

‘’Thank you…’’ you said, trailing off into silence as you didn’t know his name yet.

‘’San,’’ he said, to which you nodded with a smile.

‘’Thank you San.’’

‘’My pleasure,’’ he said, smiling at you with a light bow. In the blink of an eye, San had disappeared again, and you turned back to look at Jeno.

‘’That was…weird,’’ you said, inspecting the envelope.

“Extremely… you really seem to attract them, huh,” Jeno said, tilting his head to the side a little. 

Ignoring his comment, you looked down at the envelope again and opened it. You pulled out a white card with elegant looking handwriting.

Dear Y/N,