#repeating thoughts

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Constantly hearing

The gears grinding inside.

Broken.

Broken.

I can't leave the door,

I haven't been doing well,

Charged by the hour-

What a joke to think you cared.

You cared.

You cared-

My mind is repeating,

Broken record,

Breaking the record

For putting me through hell-

Through hell,

Through hell,

I can't stop

Until I get it

Fucking right.

Fucking right.

Don't you get it?

Save yourself or drown!

Haha!

Or drown!

Drown!

"that's the way the cuppy cakes"

I’ve got stories in my head,

Not fanfiction, but kind of,

Not planning things to write,

Although I think I once wanted to,

But stories to make myself strong,

Stories to believe I have influence,

Beyond that that I see.

Where my words might change worlds,

Where talking can actually help,

Or just where there’s comfort.

Sometimes these thoughts loop,

They twist and spin forever,

Growing stronger, gaining focus.

Sometimes I change it up,

Let them fruit into writing.

Build the vines anew.

There are stories evolving in my mind,