#relationship insecurity

Me: *laughing nervously* yup this is one of many signs this is the beginning of the end! I'm calling it now so at least I will have the joy of being proven right

But losing him.... Oh god no. Imagining it makes me shake and get choked up, I go to the verge of tears. I don't want to lose him for any reason... I can imagine my future with someone for the first time. Please world don't take him away from me... I'll be inconsolable, a broken shell of who I am right now... Don't take my boy away from me, I beg you.

This world.... Might be better off without me

I hope this doesn't make my girlfriend feel like I love her less, cause I care about her but just really I haven't known her as long I can't really be as connected as we can, I was his best friend before we started dating it's just a different dynamic.

M: I went to bed thinking: I am doing the work on myself and I am continuing to do the work. This is why I am on this planet -- to continue learning how I can be a better human and better creator and more loving and expansive in every area of my life, including romance and partnership. So I went to bed feeling pretty good. I think this morning, I'm going to focus on maybe writing some positive poetry and some affirmations and meditate and get into receiving mode and get into a higher vibration. I think checking in to our vibrations throughout the day is going to be really important. It's a moment-to-moment practice.