#read literally.......... everything of hers

It's probably the closest thing you'd find to Ghost's diary. There's annotations that go back years, highlights of quotes that spoke to him, underlined when his future self resonated too. If he were the kind of person who allowed himself to dwell on poetry, he'd point out the symbolism of his favourite book being the abandonment of a monster by its creator.

Inspired by a scene from chapter 7 of the Ryers fic Spit Swear by @poorlittlegreenie13

“I asked if she was chill with us being gay, and she said yes, and she said you explained gay sex to her, and I said there’s no way you covered everything, which you clearly didn’t,” Richie says.

soft celia.... need more... soft celia.....

First of all, she's been missing for nine years. nine. years. she's legally dead. that means credit cards, social security info, home ownership, any legal ids are invalid. getting that reversed costs money, money she doesn't have because no more bank account. she could go to her family for help since they're wealthy but that means going back to her mom. if her mom is still alive. which is its own can of worms.

she might be roughing it on the streets for a while and like. Ragatha is a rich girl. besides the child abuse she's been comfortable and provided for all her life. and in the circus she didn't need food or anything. Ragatha is gonna be struggling to survive for the first time and that's gonna be extremely jarring and unpleasant.

and!! following the logic they all entered and exited the circus in different places she's. alone. so much of her identity is in being the helpful one, the cheerful one. suddenly she's Completely Alone in the world. none of her friends are with her. she has nothing but her own thoughts for company and that Will Not Go Well

sincerely,

quarter life crisis fan anon