Theres this god damn quiz results screenshot that constantly floats around as a meme for a 'which character are you quiz' of my kin, Razor, and it makes me so mad.
"Youre probably 5 idk how you got here bc you cant even read"
Fuck you quiz maker and FUCK anyone in the fandom who constantly rags on my struggles with education or infantalizes me for them.
I know in my main tl this wasnt even an issue bc au wee but I do still have a more canon complacent timeline and GOD.
I WAS NEARLY AN ADULT. DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO LEARN TO READ AND WRITE AND SPEAK AT 18-20?? Sure learning a new language is one thing, but learning to do it aT ALL is a whole other.
For fucks sake Im not STUPID Im not a BABY. Im doing something NONE of you could even fucking DREAM of.
And god dont get me started on the double standard between me and Collei! She can ALSO canotically barely read but because she can speak full sentences clearly SHES not stupid but I AM? Even when I state. In canon. That I speak the way I do because talking is EXHAUSTING. Implying I COULD speak full complete sentences if I wanted and CHOOSE NOT TO TO CONSERVE SOCIAL ENERGY???
I hate that I even have to bring her up bc she was my best friend and I dont want her to feel bad so plz any Colleis reading this is NOT your fault. We're struggling together.
Just. Fuck man. Im already not that popular and while nobody out there really HATES me, most people see me as this little stupid baby who cant do anything at all ever and will always be stupid and will never ever read or speak correctly and AUGH.
I wish I could shove my main timeline in everyones face and go "LOOK AT WHAT I COULD HAVE BEEN IF VARKA WASNT A PIECE OF SHIT. I WAS THE SMARTEST KID IN MONDSTADT. THE AKADEMIYA BEGGED ME TO JOIN THEM. CANON HAD TO FUCKING NERF ME BECAUSE ID BE TOO POWERFUL BEING RAISED BY LISA."
Im STILL smart in canon, I canotically picked up rudamentary speech from just listening to Varka talk during the years he visited. I learned to fight without even understanding most of what Varka was telling me. I SPEAK WOLF. FLUENTLY. I picked up vision techniques from Lisa in barely a year of her training me! I may not know a lot in canon, but Im learning VERY quickly and I WISH PEOPLE WOULD SEE THAT.
~Razor🕯♟️ (GenshinImpact)