#random_thoughts

How Would Muffet react to the fact humans accidentally swallow spiders in their sleep because they like to crawl into the warm flesh cave that is our mouth?

What’s worst then that? When the only thing swirling in your head, haunting you day and night, is how ugly and disgusting you look. But don’t worry, someone will find you pretty... No matter what you do, you’re still not enough, to fat, to tall, to short, to skinny, not enough this, to much that... How am I supposed to take that, when the only person that I want to acknowledge me is you... I know we have to love ourselves, but how can I, when the only thing I see is this disgusting creature supposed to be a human that everyone make sure to remind how disgusting I am, but I don’t have to worry, someone will find me pretty... Why does that matter that much, why does this hurts more than you’re ugly... I know people will tell me oh shut up there is worst in life, I know child, I know, but the pain is still here, coming at me just like the bully find his victims... Life is a bitch, it’s painful, no matter what. People tell me, you’ll get tougher as life goes on, but the more life goes on, the weaker I feel... How can I talk with any one, or try to have anything with anyone, when I can't even love myself?

لكى أُصدقك القول يا صديقي بسؤالك عن حالى فأنا لا أعلم , لا أعرف وصفاً بعينه قد يكون هو شعورى وحالى فى هذة اللحظة فأنا مبعثر الأفكار لا أقوى على لملمة شتات نفسي وشعورى بالحزن أصبح روتيناً حتى نسيت وقت  الفرح ماذا كنت أفعل . اللون الأسود يكسو يومي بنهاره وليلة كيوم خريفٍ فقدت فيه الأشجار بهجتها وترسمت بالحزن لمرآي أوراقها مبعثرة على الأرض فاقدة النضرة واللون الأخضر 

anguish by the hand of this bastard 🙂