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You been out here telling me you want to be with me, that you like me and treat me as the queen I am, but then not even 3 days later you throws me out as if I was trash telling me that this shit wont work cuz im to fat for you, and then a day later you walk in with an other dude! If you didn’t like me you should’ve just told me with the get go and not give me all this hope and all this feeling! But now you want to make me seem as if i was the asshole of the bunch for being hurt! Boy bye I’m done beating myself over for your stupid ass! You made a choice, I am not the choice, live with it and own your shit!

What’s worst then that? When the only thing swirling in your head, haunting you day and night, is how ugly and disgusting you look. But don’t worry, someone will find you pretty... No matter what you do, you’re still not enough, to fat, to tall, to short, to skinny, not enough this, to much that... How am I supposed to take that, when the only person that I want to acknowledge me is you... I know we have to love ourselves, but how can I, when the only thing I see is this disgusting creature supposed to be a human that everyone make sure to remind how disgusting I am, but I don’t have to worry, someone will find me pretty... Why does that matter that much, why does this hurts more than you’re ugly... I know people will tell me oh shut up there is worst in life, I know child, I know, but the pain is still here, coming at me just like the bully find his victims... Life is a bitch, it’s painful, no matter what. People tell me, you’ll get tougher as life goes on, but the more life goes on, the weaker I feel... How can I talk with any one, or try to have anything with anyone, when I can't even love myself?