These are not necessarily fics that were written/released in 2019, nor are they all fics I first discovered in 2019 - just my favorites of the fics I’ve read this year. In no particular order:

1. Another Day Gettin’ into Trouble (whoknows) - Harry’s drunk when the idea occurs to him. He’s also a pop star, so sometimes his drunk ideas turn into actual things instead of just ideas. The clone-a-willy kit is one of them.

2. The Tiny Little Bungalow (pointerbrother) - Fifteen-year-old Louis Tomlinson gets reluctantly uprooted from his Doncaster-life when his dad decides to move in with his new girlfriend Anne and her two kids. Speaking of the kids, one of them is this curly-haired bloke who's just a little too pretty for both his own and Louis' good.

3. We’ll Be Seamless (dinosaursmate) - Louis spends all his spare time scrolling arty nude blogs on Tumblr but amongst them all, Green is his favourite.

4. Tightrope (sadaveniren) - Louis gets pregnant from "one last time" sex and he and Harry somehow think they'll be able co-parent without it being weird for anyone (most especially their new boyfriends).

5. We Will Find Our Way (supernope) - Harry and Louis are uni students studying abroad in New York, stuck in the dorms together over Christmas.

6. Autumn at My Window (thecellardoor) - Harry and Louis are both in the band and have been sharing flats and hotel rooms for nearly five years, but never made the leap past 'friends who are too close for comfort'.

7. Falling for Me Won’t be a Mistake (rearviewdreamer) - Harry is married to his job and so overworked that he doesn't know how to stop. All it takes is a forced Hawaiian get-a-away, the warm tropical breeze of the island, and the most beautiful, elusive man he's ever seen to make him remember what living is like outside of work. Well, that, and the little souvenir he accidentally takes home with him.

8. Fumbling in the Dark (quodpersortem) - Louis is straight, Harry is not. They still shag a lot.

9. Let’s Redecorate Our Lives (thoughtlessblogger) - Louis hires a decorator and gets more than he'd anticipated.

10. Your Kiss (dimpled_halo) - Louis and Harry are best friends who make things more complicated when they start to kiss.

11. Time Bomb (thissentimentalheart) - Louis has everything: a lead role in a giant Hollywood franchise, a glittering new house with an entertaining Irish neighbor, and a steady, normal boyfriend who he probably loves. Louis never expected to become a household name among young Hollywood overnight. He also never expected to find something endearing about the enigmatic rockstar who keeps showing up on his back porch.

12. I Want You So Much (but I Hate Your Guts) (becauselarry) - Louis gets accepted to play for the Manchester University Alpha-Beta Football Team. The only problem: Louis is actually an Omega. He is determined to make it big in the football world, though, and he can't do that bound to an Omega team. With the help of a faked doctor's certificate and some pretty strong suppressants he is ready to fight for his dream.

13. Maps can be Poems when You’re on Your Own (suspendrs) - Harry falls in love with the guy his best friend is fooling around with.

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Summary: Cas has been in love with Dean for years, and everyone knows and keeps teasing him with it, especially because the feelings aren't returned. Or at least, that's what Cas thinks until Dean makes him sleep in his bed.

Strap in, it’s a long one!

Re-Reads:

1. Wings to Break Your Fall (karamelised) - Harry’s work and family are keeping him busy. He really isn’t looking for a relationship, doesn’t want one. He just wants Louis. Problem is, Louis has other plans.

2. Falling for Me won’t be a Mistake (rearviewdreamer) - Harry is married to his job and so overworked that he doesn’t know how to stop. All it takes is a forced Hawaiian getaway, the warm tropical breeze of the island, and the most beautiful, elusive man he’s ever seen to make him remember what living is like outside of work. Well, that, and the little souvenir he accidentally takes home with him.

New Reads:

1. Love is a Word (You Gave It a Name) (hattalove) - It’s Christmas. In between snowman building, tree shopping, and ill-advised skating on a frozen lake, Louis and Harry get ready to take the most important step of their lives.

2. Every Arrow that I Aim is True (estrella30) - Canon compliant. Years after One Direction ends, the boys are following their own paths. Louis comes to stay with Harry for a while.

3. Given a Chance (someonethatsfunny) - Canon compliant. Behind the scenes of the iron closet, Simon up to his shit.

4. To Keep the Night from Ending (objectlesson) - Harry and Louis take a night swim.

5. Good Enough to Eat (objectlesson) - Harry is convinced he’s never gonna be able to try his favorite fantasy on a real boy, and Louis offers to remedy this.

6. Fumbling in the Dark (grand buzz (quodpersortem)) - Louis is straight, Harry is not. They still shag a lot.

7. Let’s Redecorate Our Lives (thoughtlessblogger) - Louis hires a decorator and gets more than he’d anticipated.

8. May Your Every Wish Come True (sweetrevenge) - Harry and Louis reconnect during the holidays, it’s kind of fate.

9. Barefoot in Blue Jeans (indiaalphawhiskey) - Louis Tomlinson is trying desperately hard not to fall for his son’s au pair, but he can’t, for the life of him, remember why.

10. My Lights Stay Up, but Your City Sleeps (pearlydewdrops) - Louis has trouble sleeping, Harry has a habit of wrapping himself around Louis during the nights, and a mutual agreement to engage in a fun and simple thing quickly turns into something perhaps not so fun, and certainly not simple.

Summary: Dean Smith is a classically-trained pianist studying for his music degree. He hasn't got time for the college's social scene- he's got scholarships he needs to work for, practice to get on with- and he certainly doesn't have time for Castiel, the hippie-ish slacker genius of a guitarist in his class.Which is a shame, because this module? Involves working in pairs. And the professor just paired them up.

Summary: Dean had long since given up on ever finding his truemate, but then he stumbles across 'the one' in a random bar. His soon-to-be-mate Castiel is gorgeous, smells *amazing* and things are looking great... except when they make it to the bedroom, it turns out that they're both alphas...

Oh I know. :)

I already have an appointment with my doctor. I'd never adjust my meds by myself because that could just be awful. I'm just trying to deal with suddenly feeling so off. I haven't had so many bad days since I started my meds.

But anywho. It should get better soon. Fingers crossed.

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