I’m going to begin by telling you a story. A long time ago, my mother went to college and pursued a double degree in phsychology and English. I don’t know if she was fully set on being a phsychologist, but I do know it was her first choice career-wise. Until she took statistics for phychology. This stats class killed my mom, and when she found out this would be a main component of phychology, she quit this path and became a professor. Around 30 or so years later, history is repeating itself.
I have never loved math, but I haven’t hated it completely. I’m pretty good at algebra and I’m very analytical. When I began to figure out what I wanted to be career wise, I landed on accounting because its a safe career choice and I read that it wasn’t “hard” math. My thoughts of being a lawyer, doctor, or political analyst quickly went away due to a combination of fear of the competitiveness of the fields and the fact that I cannot deal with blood and guts.
So I went to college, I declared a major in accounting and hoped for the best. Up first, business stats. This class has made me experience daily mental breakdowns for over a month. I am spending around 10 hours a week on homework alone for this class. I have also begun to question how much I actually want to do accounting. The actual accounting class has gone well, but I seriously began to question if I could do this for the rest of my life. I came to the conclusion a few days ago that I can’t. Yes, stats is only one class, but the overarching idea that complex math actually makes me miserable is not a good thing when it’s your career choice.
I have also come to the realization that I do not want to be miserable in my job for a large portion of time. And I feel that being an accountant would make me too miserable. With that being said, I’ve decided to do what I’ve been thinking about since I was a child: going into law. I feel that I posses the qualities of a good lawyer, and that I can do more good in the world as one than as an accountant. I’ve decided to change my major to history, something that I absolutely love, and push for law school. My aunt and uncle are lawyers and I will be talking to them to get their expertise. I am also reading a book recommended by my aunt about a first year law school experience.
Law will be hard. I have never been the best at logic problems and it will be extremely competitive and stressful. I will regret my decision many times, but I think over all I will enjoy being a lawyer more than being an accountant.
So I will now push hard to become better at logic games, get good grades (because gpa is really important to law school), and research more about my new path.
I am incredibly excited about my future, which has been a first this past couple of weeks where I have been completely unmotivated with school.
My next step is to talk to an advisor about changing my major, talking about the pre-law program at my school, and re-registering for classes.