#poemofthenight

Then eventually they’ll leave.

They say you are your own worst enemy

What if they’re right?

I have tried to live my life through rules

Isn’t that what we all do?

But it’s hard to resist the temptation of bending the rules

And breaking them

I have a temper in me that you will rarely see

I keep her chained up

But sometimes she breaks free

I can’t find a chain strong enough

To keep her from escaping

She’s far too strong

And always finds a way to break down her wall’s

I wreck things but then apologise

Just like walking on your granny’s flower’s

I look down at the wreckage

And with my tears I water the flower’s

To try and save them

Because we all have a monster in us

But I want to apologise for mine

The stars sing a quiet song that directs all human affairs.

It makes me wonder then…

a bit about love

And that's how I knew

The soil that was burning away my roots

Was not my home

I needed to stay

Somewhere else

Even if for a night

To find back my dreams

We lived in the sunshine

Before you were diagnosed

Just a stomachache

Or so the doctor’s supposed

Then grew a black tar pit in your lung;

and lopsided skin soaked in chemo

Just 11 years old without a mum.

After school one day

I’ll never forget,

Dad told me you had passed away

( and all I could utter was an ‘ok’)

And With a firm grip on depression’s bars

Came soaked pillows

And decorated wrists with unlovely scars

But now I see you every night;

Sparkling amongst delivered stars.

i used to write about you

every line

every word

i chose very carefully to make sure i meant exactly what i wrote

so that one day if i had the chance,

you would read and i’d be glad

to have your heart

melted by my art