#personal research

Buzz lightyear (Personal interpretation)

It's just my personal preference when drawing the three of them.👉👈

If you don't agree, just leave.

WHEN THE GIJINKA IS A SEVERE DOWNGRADE COMPARED TO THE ACTUAL OBJECT

I AM SO ANGRY AT HOW BORING NIHONGOU LOOKS LIKE IN TOUKEN RANBU, WHEN HIS REAL "SELF", THE ACTUAL SPEAR, IS THIS BRAUTIFUL.

(you can look at it for yourself here, btw, HD photography, you can also zoom in to see the details)

Nihongou's character art seems to me like the artist completely had no idea what the actual Nihongou looks like in person.

Like, in the artwork that the spear shaft is black with some gold, which made me think that the artist had tried to look for photos, maybe from museum visitors, but they just can't see the details properly. I've seen visitor comments saying that amateur photography cannot capture the mother of pearl well, and it just doesn't show as clearly in photos due to the lighting. Even in today's HD-quality attendee photos it just looks black with some shine.

Plus the description did say that in older time periods Nihongou had a black lacquered shaft and black fur sheath. Maybe the artist saw the photos, assumed the shine was gold patterning on an otherwise black shaft, so that's why the art looks like that.

Like, the game staff probably just didn't want to restrict the artist about the design, so maybe that's why they didn't bother giving specific references/instructions to the artist, but I refuse to believe the artist would have designed Nihongou to look so boring like that if they'd known how beautiful the actual spear is.

"The handle is newer" is not an excuse. It's not current-day-new. The story says that many swordsmiths tried to copy Nihongou down to the spear's mother of pearl shaft. It's got to be at least Edo or Meiji-era, then, and it's still part of the spear's "history".

A number of the other swords had designs based on its current appearance in museums anyway, and not necessarily how it's supposed to look like in the past (for example Ichigo Hitofuri's red and gold sheath).

(even if the sheath was not modern either, the original Ichigi Hitofuri was burned in the Osaka Castle war in 1615 and reforged later, so this red sheath can't be any older than that)

PUTTING YOUR BEST FOOT FORWARD

Ever since the robotic biped weight test failed last November, I've been sourcing the cash for new actuators/electronics. In the meantime, I've repurposed the insufficient biped servos/equipment for a use case they'll be more suited for. Here are a couple of hind-legs for the quadruped I'm cooking up! Currently I'd say the body is nearing ~80% complete, with mostly just compartments for the electronics, alongside some structural and weight distribution issues, to iron out. Also the fore-legs, which will be having gripper claws for limited object manipulation.

I'll be posting some videos of the leg testing on here when I get around to it, along with the rest of the it. In terms of the coding for the actual system, I've experimented with, and been able to implement, the main Python based RL code. Inspired by recent events, I've decided to challenge myself. Instead of a pure Python system, I'm hard at work coding the Steel Bank Common Lisp hierarchical model scheduling system that will contain the TensorFlow models and bridge the strengths between the Tensor Ops of TensorFlow and meta-programming strengths of CLISP. Continuous learning, here we come!

I have crafted a survey of sorts as part of extremely early game development to research people's most feared animals.

Would that be something anyone would be interested in undertaking? It would take less than 10 minutes or so, by my estimate.

Yes several therapists have told me that they think im autistic. But they didn’t have the qualifications to diagnose me so it can’t possibly be true.

Clearly this is all just my anxiety and I am faking everything else. Clearly I’m just doing this for attention. Maybe I just want another label for myself. I like labels! They make me feel safe.

Maybe I’m just perfectly normal and everyone feels like this. Common humanity, right? If we all feel weird and wrong then no one is weird or wrong.

Self diagnosis is perfectly acceptable for other people but for me it is wrong. I need to do so much research and introspection in order to even question myself. And then I am not allowed to question myself because I might just be faking behaviors and feelings in order to fit in with this group of people that suffer greatly and are treated horribly by society. Clearly this is a trend that I am joining.

Oh. And I’m doing this for attention. Attention from who? I’m not sure. Maybe my support system. Maybe my friends. Maybe strangers online.

I feel too much. I don’t feel enough. Everything is overwhelming. I was able to handle this situation before, why can’t I now? I get too caught in the details. I miss important details. I remember everything. Until I forget. I know nothing. Until I remember. I am an oxymoron. I am the most plain and simple person on the planet.