Should I Finally Let It Out?
I didn’t realize how much pent up feelings I had till as of recently. I’m not one to show my emotions in front of people. Just pure happiness and sometimes agreement. I haven’t been one to fight back unless I felt like I needed to fight back. Sometimes I’d laugh only because I didn’t want to make the person feel bad. Until as of recently, there would be times where I wanted to just break down from all the stress I was dealing. All the heartbreaks I’ve always gotten. Grieve over those who left this world. I didn’t. I didn’t cry when one of my close friends died. I didn’t cry when I felt like crying. I kept it all in. I started feeling like I was left out. Started to feel like I was alone. I didn’t want to cry in front of people because of how I feel like they’ll pity me or just simply laugh at my face, or maybe they’ll just think I’m weird for crying over something. I’ve always felt like I never fit in anywhere. Maybe its because I kept moving around when I grew up. Maybe its because I keep lingering to old memories. Should I let it all out? Should I keep the feelings pent up?
What you see on my post might not depict my reality. It might not show you how I’m feeling on the inside. But does anyone’s post ever depict what they’re feeling on the inside? Do people actually express what they’re feeling on the inside? Should I finally let it out?
I always have been an overthinker. That I am. Never once have I not overthinked. I have always been an over worrier. I care too much but don’t show it sometimes. I get angry a lot, but I dont say it to some people. I’m that person who rather be a people pleaser rather than care about my own mental health.
Should I finally just let it all out? Or do I keep it pent up?
November 9,2021 12:05 AM
