This blog is intended as a safe space for all ocd discussion, as somebody who has been diagnosed my whole life and had extremely violent OCD since I was a child.
For those with OCD, I hope this blog can be a place to safely share your
vents/intrusive thoughts
confessions/takes
positive and negative experiences
experiences
and simply share a space with those who can hear you.
For those without OCD or those uninformed, I will gladly also answer asks about
medical questions
experience questions
confessions/takes
examples of asks:
"Hi, I had (this experience with ocd) today. I dont want advice, I just wanna share. -anon."
"Hi, im an author, how do i write ocd compulsions respectfully?"
"Hi, I have (type)ocd, can others with (type)ocd tell me if they relate to (thing)?"
but please note, i do not speak for everyone. I suggest if you want info, you turn on the notifs for the post with your ask and allow others to insight you as well.
My name is Wright, I've had extreme OCD my whole life, and it has disabled me in every function of the word. As a child, I would have panic attacks and meltdowns over other kids "putting their pencils on the desk wrong", I had violent intrusive thoughts about things I didn't want, I convinced myself I was diseased, was extremely paranoid, and worst of all did not understand what was happening.
I was removed from the public school system when I was a child because I was "unstable" and depressed in elementary, which led to me being isolated and violently abused with no support. My abuse made my OCD worse, giving me constant and hard to logic episodes about my own morality. My anxiety and panic over things being out of order became full shutdowns or moral episodes over walking through doors with the "wrong foot", not touching the counter exactly four times, or biting my food unevenly.
I skipped middle school, then half of high school. I went for one year and was so unable to function I left again, was held back multiple grades, and still am.
OCD has ruined many aspects of my life and I am not shy to say it disables me, but it also doesn't ruin me. It is shockingly little of my personality, in fact.
I am a writer, I draw occasionally, my special interest is a rock band from the 2000s, and I am extremely knowledgeable in snakes. I like the color orange, Marvel, lukewarm weather, reptiles, cold war legalities, and blueberry espresso.
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hiyaaa! I think I might have OCD, but I’m far FAR too scared to talk to anyone about it or get tested, what if suddenly every experience I’ve had gets invalidated?? What If I accidentally made everything up??? I know I haven’t!!! I am actually 100% without a doubt I haven’t!! But what if other people think I’m faking???? What if I’m actually normal and stupid for wanting to know what’s wrong with me??? Siiiiiiigh I don’t know I’m putting this here 😞 just wanted to speak !!!
i recently started liking a guy from my class and it's such a bitter sweet thing. before therapy i've never really been sure of my feelings, in romance among other things. i know most people don't know this but ocd is a lot more than just being clean and prickly all the time. it's a toxic mindset where you constantly doubt everything inside your brain. it also comes with the belief that you're a monster who wants to hurt everyone you care about. and for many people with ocd, harboring romantic/sexual feelings for someone is just another way you can hurt them. the idea is TERRIFYING. on top of never being able to tell if your feelings are real you also get horrible intrusive thoughts when you try to get close to that person. it's not fun. last year i think i really liked this one friend. but i could never tell if my feelings were genuine or if i was just obsessing over the idea of them. that's how it was for all of my crushes, since i was a child everytime i started liking someone i've only ever felt dirty and disgusting for objecting my horrible, horrible feelings onto those people. the guilt was even worse if they were someone close to me. it felt like betraying them, tricking them, hurting them. i'm 19 now and for the first time in my life i have a stupid teenage crush on this boy and he's a huge nerd and such a dork and i talk about him to my friends with a grin on my face that i can't seem to stop and it's just SO CUTE. like i catch myself smiling when i'm talking about him and i can't believe how easy it comes to me now. and on top of everything i just feel so, so fucking free. it may sound silly but i never thought i could have a crush on someone like a normal person. it just makes me so happy. i like someone and it makes me happy. not ashamed or guilty or mad. just happy.
