#intrusive thinking

So I work at a church daycare(ironic I know)

And one of my coworkers is the pastor's son he's like late 20s to early 30s and he's divorced

Im an alternative like young adult I guess lol who you can tell isn't straight like very visibly

And all I can think of is me being such forbidden fruit for him that he rapes me, and tries to "fix" me and all this other shit, and I think about it everytime he and I work together like I convince myself he's gonna loose his shit and basically kidnap me, and all this other stuff like if I make eye contact too long my brain is like insane idk what to do at this point