Every time I get a spark of confidence and my inner me is saying, " You are fucking hot! Look at them tits and ass! You look amazing in that outfit but that one shows so much more skin so why not wear that one! " But then suddenly, no more than a weak after....I'm sad again. Then all of these things run in my head like a never ending carasol: "You're ugly! Wow look at u trying to pull ofd such an outfit! You wearing a bikini? Ha palease, you dont even look good in a tank top and leggings. What makes you think that you'll look good in anything else? Even the trendy onsies that girls ( and probably more guys than I know) wear are even idiotic for you to look good in? You think u look cute? Well nice try after all sweety but ur still a useless trash dumb."
I don't understand how this happens, but nothing that I can recall triggers me into such moods of total worth to total degradement. It just happens.....and I hate it....cause it hurts. I guess this is the only post that's actually mine. I would love to hear stuff from anyone. I just ask kindly to not say, "You're beautiful, its just because of your self confidence is low," cause its actually not as encouraging to me. It might work on some people but not all. Thanks for reading if you did . Have a good day.