#nickxreader

“Damn piggy, forgot something.”

Pollard dropped Nick’s bag on the floor with a grin. Nick bent over to pick it up, only to feel a paper plane hit the back of his head. He ignored it, heaving the equipment on his shoulder. He was used to the hazing, it wasn’t anything new.

“Aren’t we a little too old for these kinds of games. “ The female voice cut in. Pollard looked up, and so did Nick.

“You know it’s been my experience that bullies tend to target people out of insecurities. Is there something you’re compensating for officer?” 

Your eyes drifted to his crotch suggestively, and a few of the other officers chuckled as Pollard trudged away. You send a grin his way, picking up the folded paper as you crushed it in your hand.

“Sometimes you gotta fight back Jakoby.” Nick nodded.

“Don’t think that would do much. I just want to do my job.” You gave him another smile, patting his shoulder.

“You’re doing a pretty good job so far, keep it up.” 

You say those words, walking off, and Nick stood, a bit dazed. He hadn’t seen you before, so you must work with another precinct. Yet, you seemed to know him. Then again, who didn’t know him.

“Chatting it up with our transfer huh.” Ward walked over, and Nick shifted his focus. He looked a bit lost, and Ward gave a half chuckle.

“Please tell me you know who that is?” Nick looks relatively confused.

“That’s officer (Y/N), they call her the falcon.” Nick's eyes widened at the woman that was greeting the other supervisors present.

“That’s her! I thought it was a guy.” Nick whispered. Ward shook his head.

“Nope. Her dad was a cop too. Three thugs broke into her old man’s place when she was younger. Knocked him out cold. They said she found the gun and took down all three of them. Straight shots to the leg. By the time the cops came they didn’t even put up a fight.” Nick’s eyes lingered on your form.

“That must have been hard for her.” Ward nods.

“Yeah. I mean he didn’t die or anything. But I heard that’s when she decided she wanted to be in the force. She’s never missed a shot in her life. “ To say Nick was impressed would be an understatement. He heard the rumors. You were a force of nature apparently.

“Alright, enough gawking we got a job to do.” Nick shuffled a bit, following Ward out, not before sending you one last look.

Their shift ended later in the night. After parking the vehicle, they went to the lockers to grab their stuff. Ward bids Nick goodbye, heading home to his family. Nick was still pretty much packing up, and when he heard a knock, he raised his head.

“Hey Ward, Carson said you and Nick forgot this in the squad car.” When you walked through the door, Nick’s eyes lifted. The cellphone in your hands had him shooting out of his seat.

“Oh! T-Thank you, that's mine.” 

You held it out for him, and when your hands brushed, Nick expected you to pull your hand away, or at least show some form of disgust. You placed your hands in your pockets, and from your body language, he couldn’t sense anything negative. It confused him.

“Why are you so nice to me?”

Nick didn’t mean for it to come out so harsh. But all his years on the force had taught him that he needed to be on guard. It was a sad reality that there were very few people on the force that he actually trusted. Instead of the annoyed look he expects, you smile.

“I guess it’s because I kind of relate with you in some weird way.”

Nick just listens.

“Everyone seems to think I’m oblivious, but I know what they say about me.’The Falcon’. “ You make air quotes with your fingers.

“Somehow they turned my traumatizing even into an origin story. That night with My dad, I was terrified. Those men shot him, then they came to take me. It wasn’t robbers. They were a trafficking ring. They’d been targeting families in the neighborhood for months. They came for my dad to make a point. It was to send a message. The only thing they didn’t account for was me being able to use a gun.” 

You rolled your shoulder, touching it subconsciously, as if reliving a memory.

“I became a cop because I wanted to feel in control. After that night, it took me years to feel safe in my house again. I needed that feeling, so I got into this field. My story isn’t as elaborate as some people might think.” The sad look on your face shows the vulnerability that he’s sure you’ve never expressed to a lot of people.

“I know you do this for a sense of pride and justice. You want to show other orcs that it’s okay to be different. That anything can be achieved with hard work and dedication. You want to protect that hope. I do this to protect my vulnerabilities. In a way we’re both trying to protect something, but I guess yours is much more noble.”

Nick isn’t sure what to say or do. You look down, wiping the corner of your eyes.

“Are you crying!”

He looks a bit panicked, so he approaches to reach out and comforts, but then retracts the minute he touches your shoulder.

“S-Sorry, I should have asked you first, I’m sorry!” You can’t help but giggle at how helplessly flustered he is. You reach over, hugging him, and Nick froze.

“Once in a while, it’s nice to lean on someone other than yourself.” You mutter. You continue to hug him, and Nick stands there, giving your back a pat.

It appears he did have an ally.

When you pull back, you’re wearing a suspicious smile.

“Just so you know, Captain says I’ll be joining your duo. “

“Wait you mean..”

“I look forward to working with you, Officer Jakoby.”

You wink at him as you walk away, and he just stares.

“How is she, what is going on!!” Nick was badgering the doctor with questions. Your entire team was there. Rafeal walked in just as the doctor was briefing on the severity of your injuries. “What’s the news?” Barba asked standing at Olivia’s side. 

“Her vitals are stable for now but we need to..” All of a sudden the woman stopped talking. Her eyes closed for a second. “Doctor?” Carisi asked. When her eyes reopened they were all shocked at the golden hue now present. Barba was astonished. 

“Nick.” The monotone voice of the nurse made everyone visibly freeze. 

“What’s going on!” Barba demanded. 

“There’s only one person who can…” the nurse smiled and Nick gasped. “(Y/N)?” the women nodded. “We don’t have a lot of time, come with me.” He didn’t question it. Everyone else in the room was stumped, especially Barba who was still trying to figure out what exactly was going on. He grabbed Olivia’s hand, halting her. 

“Liv what the hell is-” Olivia took his hand. 

“Barba just..I need you to trust me. Can you do that.” The look in his eyes was that of a very startled person. Yet, one look from Olivia made him want to believe in anything right now. So he did. 

He placed his trust in the woman who often drove him mad, but usually had the best interest at heart. If she wasn’t affected by this, then he could find it in himself to have faith in her. There had to be an explanation behind it all. “Alright.” She smiled, still holding his hand as they walked down the hall. As they moved through the hospital, Nick was stunned that no one had stopped them yet. 

There wasn’t a security or doctor in sight. When they got to a room, the doctor opened the door. The smell of sterilizers immediately caught their noses. Amanda covered her nose at the powerful scent. There was something else in the air. They all trailed in, one by one. 

“We shouldn’t be back here, it's an operating room. “ Barba wasn’t wrong about that. It took them a while to notice the many bodies of what looked like doctors on the floor. There was also an alarming amount of blood. And someone sprawled out on the silver table. Amanda looked down a bit horrified. 

“Don’t worry, they aren't dead, just unconscious. That’s why I brought you here.” They were still very much puzzled. When they finally recognized the figure on the operating table, troubled looks were present around the room. Nick's stomach dropped at the sight of the bloodied female. (Y/N)!!” He moved to your side briskly, careful to evade the unconscious doctors. 

All he could see was blood..so much blood. Your skin was paler than he’d ever seen. Tubes attached to your body. 

“W-Why do all this, they are trying to save you.” Carisi argued. The doctor shook her head. 

“They can’t save me. Only my friends can. That’s why I need your help. They have the technology to assist me. If the doctors here tried to cut into me any further, they would have died. “ Olivia’s eyes widened at the information. 

“W-What do you mean?”

“My powers are….when I’m unconscious I can’t keep it under my control. The last time I got hurt like this I...I almost blew up an entire hospital room. “ You could see the alarm behind their gazes.

”My DNA isn’t like anything they’ve ever dealt with. That’s why I need to get back to Central City. I’ve taken the consciousness of this woman because it was the only way for me to get to you. My friends can come here, but I need the cameras in this room to be disabled. Barry and Cisco can’t come through a breech unless they know its safe. Usually I would have taken them out myself but I’m already pushing my limits with just controlling this body. I can't navigate anymore of what’s left anywhere or I’ll lose her altogether. “

Carisi was starting to get the picture. “Alright. Amanda and I will deal with the computers. “ She nodded, following him out of the room. 

Nick was still looking at the woman standing before him. He could see you..he knew it was you by the glow of your eyes. But the body wasn’t. His eyes drifted back to your bloodied form on the metal table. You looked down. 

“I’m sorry you have to see me like this Nick. I-I never wanted to hurt you. I really had no idea he would actually shoot. I thought I could have made it in time just to save that kid and..” he walked over placing his hand on your cheek. “It’s alright. You don’t have to explain. You have these powers, even if you could you would have been revealing yourself to all those kids. That would have been far worse if anyone else found out. We..people have a hard time dealing with things they don’t understand. “ 

Ain't that the truth. 

“It's all well and good but would someone please explain to me what the hell is going on!” you could practically see the steam pouring out of Barba’s ears. He was confused, probably frightened. Anger must have been his defense mechanism. You stepped over to him, and he fought the urge to just bolt out of there. This random doctor was standing there looking at him with glowing eyes. 

“I should have told you earlier, this wasn’t really how I imagined you’d find out about me.” 

“Why are you talking to me like we’ve met before?” You just wore a small smile. “I promise when I get better I’ll explain everything. “ 

Barba was just left gaping. Olivia gripped his hand, bringing his focus back. “We all will.” she added. 

Nick’s phone rang, causing him to jolt. He patted around his body, searching for the device. When he found it he pressed the button, answering. 

“Yeah, you got it. Alright thanks.” He hung up the phone. “Carisi got the feeds down. You have about five minutes.” You nodded, closing your eyes again. You turned when the breach opened right behind you. Barba’ eyes were possibly the size of saucers now. 

“Olivia is that a…”

“Just, don’t freak out.” she instructed. The statement was more for her than him. Three people jumped out of the blue swirling portal. 

Nick recognized the two younger males, but the older one wearing a pair of glasses was a mystery to him. 

“Hey guys.” you waved. Barry rushed over, pulling you into a hug. You returned it. He must have been thinking the same as you. If they couldn’t save you, this would possibly be the last time you saw each other. 

“Allen, we have to hurry.” Harry advised. Barry pulled away. “Right, right. “ There wasn’t time for proper greetings, Nick understood that. So he helped when he saw the three of them disconnecting the tubes attached to you. Harry looked over at Nick in wonder. He didn’t miss the look of worry on the detective’s face. 

When all the cords were gone, Harry hoisted your body into his arms. Barry looked on at the other people in the room. The look of awe in their eyes would have been comical, if not for the severity of the situation. The door opening behind them made everyone turn. Carisi and Amanda entered, freezing when they saw the very real portal. 

“Wow..” Amanda mumbled. Carisi couldn’t utter actual words. 

“You guys should get going. Those cameras will be on any minute. “ You spoke. Harry agreed, moving to the breach with Cisco and Barry. 

Your eyes moved to Nick, who was looking at your form in the arms of Harry like it was the last time he would get to see you. Your hands raised to his cheeks, pulling his focus to you. Without words you leaned up, pressing a soft kiss to his lips. He closed his eyes. Even though you were in a different body, for a second with his eyes closed, he couldn’t tell the difference. He could almost smell your perfume. As if you were standing right next to him. 

You pulled back slowly, opening your eyes. “I’ll be back. I promise Nick. “ You knew you shouldn’t have told him that, but you couldn’t help it. He looked so broken. It made you want to cry. Nick licked his lips. He reached down, hooking his hands around the back of your head and pulling you in for an intense kiss. It shocked you at first, but you matched his intensity, grabbing onto his shoulders to level yourself to his body. You weren’t sure how long the two of your were standing there kissing, but when Nick pulled back he was panting. 

“Come back to me..” he whispered hoarsely. “I will.” He finally released you. His head raised watching as Barry, Cisco and Harry stepped into the breach, one by one. As soon as they were inside the portal disappeared. The doctor you were previously controlling collapsed and Nick reached out, grabbing her before she could fully tumble to the floor. 

For a minute straight the room was unnaturally quiet. 

“I need a drink.” Barba said, breaking the tension. Carisi smiled weakly. 

“So what did you get back from the daughter.” you were facing Nick’s direction. His eyes were in the paperwork. “Not much, Rollins and Carisi are following up.” 

He brushed past you without another word. It was starting to get irritating. You grabbed his arm, effectively gaining his attention.You gestured to the interrogation room. He got the message, following you down the hall. When you were both inside you closed the door. Nick folded his arms, leaning on the table with his ankles crossed. “Something you need?” his attempt to act unaffected was infuriating. 

“Nick, how long are you going to give me the cold shoulder?” he scoffed. 

“I’m your partner, isn’t that what you wanted. What, should I hug you every time I report information on a case.”

“Cut the crap! You’ve been acting like this since..since that night!” you accused. His arms unfolded, resting on the edge of the table. 

“What do you want from me (Y/N). You made it pretty clear where we stand. I’m trying to respect that.” 

“Bullshit! Why the hell did you kiss me then. I told you this would happen, that’s why I said I couldn’t. And you still kissed me!!” He slammed his hand on the desk and you jolted.  

He was storming over to you. “You drive me crazy.” you looked up, he was now towering over you. You could feel the intensity of his eyes. He was glaring at you, all his pent up anger was aimed at you. 

“You just got up and made a decision. I’m tired of people making decisions for me. First I lost Zara, then Gill. The two people I used to care most about took away the kids that mean everything to me. Now I’m standing here in front of you taking another chance, but you’ve already decided I’m not worth it. Guess there’s just something about me that drives women away.” 

Behind all the rage, you could see the hurt in his eyes. 

“I-It’s not like that Nick.” you reached over to take his hand but he moved away. 

“Yeah, well then tell me, what is it like? Enlighten me, because I’d love to know what the hell I’m doing wrong. “ he let out a dry laugh, stepping closer to the door. You couldn’t provide a reply.

“Look, all that’s important is that we pay attention to the job. Let’s just stay focused on that. Like you said before. This never happened.” you weren’t given a chance to get much more in after that. Nick left. And you were stuck with nothing but your conflicting feelings. 

~~~~

“Who’s his new girlfriend? “ Your eyes raised at Amanda’s comment. Standing at the door was Nick, chatting it up with a female detective. You rolled your eyes. Since your little spat two weeks ago, your relationship with Nick was, well, somewhat strained. The both of you did the job, efficiently too. But the lingering tension never left. You thought things would just go back to normal eventually. It was just taking longer than expected to get over Nick. Especially since he’d been flirting shamelessly since then. 

Whenever you went to coffee shops, or even on leads, he’d be a little extra attentive with women. At first you thought it was a foolish attempt to make you jealous, but now it was getting to you. Because for the past week he’d been talking with this pretty little brunette detective. She worked in a different unit, but sometimes your paths crossed. Now it was like she’d take any excuse to come visit him. He was leaning over whispering something in her ear. At that point you looked away, busying yourself with paperwork. Anything to get the sound of that woman’s stupid giggling out of your head. 

You really were trying to drown it out, but she wouldn’t stop laughing. The pen in your hand snapped in half at how tightly you were pressing down, and a light above your head shattered. The woman jumped, and so did Nick. Along with a few other officers. Amanda turned her chair all the way around when she saw the stare Nick directed at you. 

“That’s the third one this week.” Barba said from behind. You spun, not expecting him. He looked down at you, gesturing to the pieces of glass on the ground. A maintenance man walking by saw the shards, looking up in utter confusion. “M-Must be faulty wiring.” you offered. Thankfully Barba was still in the dark. It’s not like you didn’t trust him, you just thought the less he knew right now the better. You’d tell him when you were ready. He headed back to his office and a deep sigh left you. Amanda peeked from her desk. 

“You know, I’m not a psychic, but I can tell there’s something going on with you and Nick. Care to share? “ you wouldn’t even know where to start with that question. 

“We’re working it out.” It was a blatant lie, but what else could you do. 

“If you say so.” 

Nick was back to talking with that perky detective and you had to admit, it felt like forever since he smiled at you the way he was with her. It hurt to see him so obviously happy. You should have been glad. You were the one who said it wouldn’t work. Nick wanted to try, but you shut down any chance of that. You couldn’t be mad that he was trying to find a connection with someone else. That didn’t make it hurt any less.

“We’re looking for (Y/N) (L/N). You guys probably know her. She’s a kickass detective. I’m her best friend by the way. Taught her everything she knows.” your eyes light up at the voice you heard behind your back. You turned, practically jumping out of your seat. Your two favorite people. “Cisco, Barry!!” They were at the entrance, talking to an officer. When they spotted you their smiles grew as big as yours. You were so taken in your reunion you didn’t see Nick’s eyes move to the two men now standing next to you. 

You hugged Cisco, with a laugh. He returned it, pulling away to look around the precinct. His eyes landed on Amanda. From the moment he spotted her you knew you’d lost him. He went over, already trying to flirt with her. 

“How have you been?” you hugged Barry, enjoying the familiar feel of him. It was a welcomed embrace. You didn’t realize how much you missed them. He held on, obviously thinking the same. The both of you stood there for a while just hugging. When you opened your eyes you could see a few people giving you small smiles. You pulled away. “I think we’re gaining an audience. “ you laughed. You noticed Nick’s gaze from the corner of your eye. You ignored it. 

“What do I care, he’s already moved on.” You really didn’t feel like you needed to explain yourself to him. 

“I missed you (Y/N).” you smiled. Barry really was exactly what you needed right now. 

“Trust me, I feel the same.” Amanda cleared her throat. 

“Oh right. Barry this is my team.” They stood introducing themselves. “Barry Allen, nice to meet you all. I’m glad you’re taking good care of her. She told me all about you all. “ 

“Really.” Nick spoke walking off from the side. He held his hand out for Barry. He took it, giving it a firm shake. 

“Woah, N-Nice grip you got there.” Barry chuckled, pulling his hand away. He flexed it a few times, looking back to the others. “I’m sure she’s told you about me.” Cisco said confidently, sending a wink in Amanda’s direction. She looked flattered, and Carisi seemed a little more than annoyed. The entire exchange was hilarious. 

“You’re that Allen kid. She never stops talking about you. It’s nice to meet you.” Carisi interjected 

“Barry and I go way back.” Nick clenched his jaw at the information. 

“I’m free for the moment, how about I show you around?” 

“We’d like that.” Barry answered. You took his hand, leading around the precinct. 

Nick’s eyes never left as you walked away with Barry and Cisco. 

“She looks pretty cozy with that guy, you think they have a thing?” 

Nick didn’t even respond to Carisi’s question. He trudged over to his desk, dropping down loudly. 

~~~

“So what’s the deal with your partner, he was glaring daggers at Barry.” Cisco had to have been wrong. Nick was way too preoccupied with his little girlfriend to be jealous of you. “Hell if I know.” you replied. Barry shot you a smile. 

“You have a thing for him don’t you?” your face flushed at his question. 

“H-He’s my partner!” you defended. Cisco smirked. “That’s a definite yes. Plus he looks, Cuban maybe. Don’t think I don’t know your little spanish kink.” you weren’t sure it was possible for your face to get any redder than it already was. 

“Cisco!” Barry raised a brow, a smile playing on his lips. “Come on, you can’t hide anything from me. Just so you know, that time you were crushing on Harry, I never said a word.” You glared at him and Barry’s eyes widened. 

“You had a crush on Harry!” you looked at your shoes, completely embarrassed. 

“I-It was just a phase okay, thanks a lot Cisco!” 

You sighed, walking into the elevator. Both men noticed the change in your mood.

“Thanks a lot for coming guys, I really needed this especially now. “ 

“Well, I think your detective should be awarded a medal. She prevented a lot of chaos.” When they got back from the hospital, they were partially shaken. Unfortunately the first person they were greeted by was the one and only chief. William Dodds was completely quizzed at the somber looks of the SVU team. “Why the long faces? You stopped a school shooting and your detective is safe. You should be celebrating. " 

Olivia looked at him relatively lost. The only people that could ensure you were safe had just jumped through a portal to god knows where, so how did Chief Dodds know. 

“How do you know she’s safe?” Olivia asked. Carisi and the others were at their desks, but they were listening in on the conversation. 

“Well she put in for some leave. Not that she didn’t earn it. It’s a good thing she was wearing that bulletproof vest. “ 

“What?” Olivia was completely lost. She didn’t have a chance to question him, because he was walking out after offering his congratulations for a job well done. Barba was next to her, still going through what he’d seen at the hospital. 

“Why does he think she’s on leave?” 

“Do you think that she..but she couldn’t have..could she?” Amanda was speculating in broken sentences. Honestly, none of them knew what was exactly going on. But the cover of you being on leave was a convenient one. Olivia couldn’t do much but trust that you were behind whatever was going on. 

“I guess we’ll just have to wait and see. “ Whatever the outcome, your friends would fill them in. Olivia just hoped the outcome turned out to be beneficial. She wasn’t sure she could deal with losing an officer. Her eyes drifted to Nick. He was standing at your desk, running his fingers along the mahogany surface. 

None of them could afford to lose you. 

~Central City~

Three Weeks Later.

“She’s okay. I can’t guarantee when she’ll wake up. If she’ll even wake up. “ Caitlin stated. The steady beats of the monitor was the only indication they had that you were still alive. Caitlin had carefully mending your external wounds. All that was left was your internal ones. 

Your brain activity was on the fritz. She’d ran over a dozen tests, but they all came back unreadable. She couldn’t tell what your mental state was. Her suspicions were that it had something to do with your telepathic powers. That and the fact that you’d claim the consciousness of another person before reverting to your true body. She had no idea how that affected your true body. 

They all knew the ramifications of what could happen. “This is my fault. I was having that vibe for a week now. I thought it was some stupid nightmare. Why the hell did I just put it off. I should have told her something. Maybe she would..” Cisco slammed his hand on the desk angrily. When it first started he thought it was just a dream, since he only ever had them when he was asleep, rather than his usual contact flashes. 

“It’s not your fault Ramon. We’ve done all we can. Beating yourself won’t do any good right now.” Harry wasn’t wrong. All they could do was wait and hope for the best. Barry sat down next to your unconscious form, taking your hand in his. All those years of your support, advise, banter. 

It dawned on him that he may never get to see that again. Never get to see you. Iris walked over, placing a hand on his shoulder. “She’ll wake up. We have to believe she’ll be fine. “ Iris offered. Barry placed a hand on his shoulder over hers, brushing his thumb over her knuckles. 

“You know, I bet if we found an attractive Spanish guy she’d wake in an instant.”

Cisco’s joke made a few of them laugh. Iris raised an eyebrow smiling. “(Y/N)’s got an obsession with the language. “

“Got it.” she laughed. 

“I remember when she had a crush on Harry.” Iris said.  Harry looked stunned at the information. 

“Wait, you knew about that too?” Barry asked. Iris nodded. 

“We all did. You’re a little too oblivious Barry.” 

“Wha- but Harry didn’t know either.” he defended. 

“Harry wouldn’t know love if it smacked him in the face.” Cisco jested. Harry shot him a glare and he cleared his throat awkwardly. 

“She once had a Criminal Minds marathon with Killer Frost.” Caitlin smiled at the memory. She was trying to figure out why she kept profiling everyone that day, only to find out her counterpart had run through almost five seasons of the addictive crime show. 

“I guess it makes sense now, she’d taken me out to the Central City museum once, when I first got here. It feels like it happened just yesterday. “ Harry said. Cisco rolled his eyes. 

“She asked you out on a date and you didn’t even know. Too late now buddy. She got the hots for the detective back there.” Harry grumbled. 

“I’m aware. And I believe it’s for the best. We do work much better as friends. “ 

They were all going through treasured memories of you. It was all they could really think of. Think of the joy you brought, rather than the silence you now provided in your comatose state. 

Barry was still holding your hand. His brows furrowed when he felt a small shock go through his palm. He didn’t react at first, because it didn’t hurt him per say. But the next shock of electricity made him jump. He yanked his hand away. Iris shuffled back looking at him. 

“What’s wrong!”

Barry looked down at you. “S-She shocked me..” he muttered. Harry walked over, studying the readings on the machine. All their attention moved to the monitors that started beeping aggressively. The lights above were now flickering. 

Barry took off with Iris, just in case. They all knew how dangerous your abilities could get. This time they thought they were more than prepared. Apparently not, because your body started hovering. The machine at the side of your bed started to short, sparks flying everywhere. Caitlin jolted, and before long you were a few feet off the ground, the cords that connected you now sliding off as you drifted away. 

“What’s happening!!” Cisco yelled. All the electronic items seemed to be going haywire. 

“We need to get her somewhere away from technology. She may be trying to come back but the electronics are blocking her attempts. Ramon! Vibe her away from here.” Harry shouted. 

Cisco didn’t flinch, he raised a hand to Vibe you away. The blue energy from his palm hadn’t even gotten close. Just before it could touch your body the energy reflected off an invisible force. The light bounced back, knocking Cisco right off his feet. His body went hurtling into the air, knocking into the opposite wall. He grunted, hitting the wall, and falling harshly to the floor. 

“Cisco!!” Caitlin was by his side in seconds. When Barry returned he didn’t fail to notice you floating in the air, or Cisco now picking himself off the ground. 

“I-I can’t vibe her away. She’s got some sort of field blocking me out. I can’t even get close.” Caitlin was supporting his weight after the harsh fall. 

When they looked back you were now upright, your eyes were also opened. They stared in awe, because the light in your eyes wasn’t one they noticed. Usually when you used your abilities to the max your eyes would turn golden, but now they were.. purple.

Your body was now lowering to the ground, the lights in the room stopped flashing altogether, the area going dark. 

When your feet touched the ground, you looked at them. The room was quiet...too quiet. 

No one knew what to say under the circumstances. Your eyes were blank of any emotion, except for the glow. 

“Humans. Bow before your new leader!” 

Cisco panicked. “Shit she got mind controlled by a freaking alien!!” he hollered. 

You stared for a few more seconds before a smile burst out on your lips. You closed your eyes and the glow faded, the lights flickering back on automatically. 

“The look on your faces was priceless. Come on. You really think I’d let some alien control my brain.” Cisco's eyes lit up and he ran over hugging you tightly. You returned it with a smile. 

Cailtin was laughing softly and Harry rolled his eyes. “I must say I’m not amused by your poor sense of humor. “ The dark haired scientist grumbled. You grinned at Harry, despite the scowl on his face. 

“All this time I’ve been out and you're still a grump.”

Barry walked over, still wondering if his mind was playing a cruel trick on him. When he saw your bright smile he knew it was true. He didn’t say much. But as soon as Cisco stepped away he hugged you. Your eyes warmed, patting his back. He was hugging a bit tightly, but you didn’t care. “I missed you too Barry.” he didn’t have to say it. You knew. You pulled back slowly.

“It’s good to see this place is still the same after all this time.” Barry laughed. “You’ve been out for three weeks. How much do you think we’d change?”

You narrowed your eyes. “What do you mean three weeks? It’s been months Barry.” 

Caitlin looked a bit worried. “It has been months right?” you asked hesitantly. 

Cisco shook his head slowly.  “No, it’s only been three weeks (Y/N). “ You looked down, hands shaking. 

“T-That’s not right I-I was counting I knew that it was..”

“What do you mean you were counting? You’ve been unconscious this entire time.” Harry interjected. 

“In my head I was...that’s how I got better. I had to keep track of the days so my consciousness wouldn’t slip away but I swear it was...it felt like months. Almost a year.” 

None of them knew what to say. This wasn’t the usual issue they encountered. This couldn’t be solved by science like they were used to. 

You were still looking at your hands. Your body felt different. 

“Something’s changed..” 

~Central City~

“Is everything back to normal?” Caitlin held out the papers for you to see at the question. You stared at it blankly. 

“Ummm?” She smiled. “It means you're healthy (Y/N). Your body has returned to homeostasis. However..” 

How did you know she was going to say that. 

“Your brain is, it seems like it’s working on a higher level.” Her hands held a scan of your brain. 

Harry, Barry, Cisco and Iris were in the cortex as Caitlin briefed everyone. You’d only woken up yesterday. So despite your protests, they insisted that you spend a few days in S.T.A.R. Labs to ensure you were a hundred percent. You sat on the bed, waiting for her to fill you in. 

“The last time you had a checkup you said your brain was working at eighty percent. That’s changed. It’s now functioning at ninety percent.” The many colored areas on your brain scan made you a little weary. You weren’t a scientist, but that could not have been exactly great. 

“Is there, will there be some kind of negative reaction?” 

“I honestly have no idea. We’ve never had to deal with anything like this before. I think it’s best that you hold off using your abilities, just to be sure. You’ve come out of a coma. My guess is this has something to do with your perception of time. For us it’s only been weeks, but to you months. It’s possible your brain has been developing this entire time. Up until yesterday you’ve been utilizing your mental structure. In short your brain activity was growing extensively because of your constant use of it. “ 

Her theory wasn’t that far fetched. It wasn’t the craziest thing to happen. 

“Well okay. So I just have to take a little break from the meta side of things. I think I can do that. For now though, I have a job I need to get back to.” you jumped off the bed, about to walk off. Harry grabbed your arm. “I don’t think it wise you return yet.” you looked at him lost.

“What do you mean, I have to get back. I’ve been gone for almost a month. I’ll be lucky if they don’t fire me.” 

Barry was the next one to speak. “They all think you're on leave. Even your superiors.” 

“But that doesn’t make sense, who told them that. Surely they would have needed to check with me. “ 

Cisco shook his head. “(Y/N), we think you were the one who gave them that idea. “ you laughed nervously. “T-That’s crazy I've been unconscious for weeks how would I..” your words trailed off. The looks they gave you made you a bit uneasy. Harry finally let go. “This is why we need to observe you more. The fact that you unconsciously altered the minds of an entire chain of command is truly amazing. That being said, it proves we have absolutely no idea what you're capable of. It would be very unwise to let you out without having a better idea of everything. “

Caitlin could see the growing worry in your eyes. “Let’s run a few more exams. If everything checks out, you can go back to your day job. Cisco can create something that’ll monitor your brain activity, just so we can stay in tune with your development. “

“ I will?” Caitlin sent him a look. 

“I-I guess I will. “ He left to start working on it and Iris laughed. “You’ll be just fine, don’t worry.” 

“Yeah..” 

Somehow you weren’t so sure.

~New York City~

“How do you think she’s doing?” Amanda wasn’t the only one wondering. Weeks passed. Barry called to give updates a few times every week, but for the most part it was always the same. Nick looked at his phone, hoping to see maybe a notification, or any indication that you were okay. It tore him on the inside. 

“Nothing so far.” Came Nick’s reply. He couldn’t offer anything else. Amanda nodded. 

“I know it’s been tough, if you need someone to talk to I’m right here.” Nick didn’t respond, but she knew he heard. He wasn’t the best at asking for help. She just wanted him to know he didn’t have to do it alone. Every once in a while he’d stop by your apartment, just hoping you’d be on the other side when he knocked. 

There wasn’t any reply. The same all the time. It had only been three weeks, but to him it felt like months. Nick was starting to realize he came to rely a lot on you. Of course he knew that from the beginning, you were his partner. It was understandable. But, this was on a different level. He just wanted to see your eyes again. That’s all he wanted. Just a chance to- Nick eyes widened. He blinked a few times, wondering if he was imagining the woman who just walked into the precinct. A couple officers turned at the detective that walked down the hall. 

When she was standing at Nick’s desk she stopped, a smile present on her face. Nick stood slowly, unsure of what was really going on. He must have been daydreaming because Barry gave no confirmation that you were healed. Yet, here you stood, perfectly fine.

“Nick..” the sound of your voice made him tense. It was real, it had to be. His hand reached out slowly, touching your cheek. You leaned into his hand, loving the warmth it provided. 

“Is it really you..” you nod, leaning up and giving him a soft kiss. Nick’s other hand came down automatically, hooking around your neck as he pulled you in. His arms wrapped around your waist and he lifted you off the ground. A couple of whistles echoed and you could hear a few of them clapping at your return. Carisi and Amanda smiled, standing and clapping with some of the other officers. 

Olivia could see the commotion behind her blinds, she stepped out of her office. A relieved expression on her face when she saw you were alright. She pressed a hand over her heart, letting out a sigh.

Nick was still kissing you earnestly. He stepped away from the desk, spinning you around. You giggled between your kisses. He was smiling too, the biggest you’d ever seen. 

“I’m never letting you out of my sight again.” he whispered. You pressed your forehead to his. 

So, I had a really crazy idea. I love The Flash and Law and Order, so I decided why not do a crossover story with my two favorite television series. Please enjoy :)

Disclaimer: I don’t own either shows, all rights go to their respective owners.

“Rollins, Amaro, Fin, Carisi, come and meet our newest Detective. All the way from Central City.” Olivia was introducing you to her team. Ever since you’d put in the request at your precinct you were eager to join. The Special Victims Unit was your first choice. Joe asked multiple times if you were positive this was the career you wanted to pursue. 

He’d been a cop for ages, he knew this unit was a tough one. Having worked with them on a few cases and heard stories on others. You were adamant on coming here, and he had faith that you could be an asset, he just wanted you to make sure you knew what you were getting yourself into. 

It was endearing to say the least. You held out your hand, greeting all of the other members of your new team. “It’s nice to meet you, “I’m (Y/N), (L/N). I’m really looking forward to working with all of you.” You shook their hands one by one. When you got to the man with dark hair you blushed a little. He had a sturdy grip, and a very kind smile. 

“Nick Amaro. So Central City huh, where is that in Ohio?”

“Missouri. “you corrected with a smile. 

“What made you come to Special Victims? Liv said you were on the homicide task force.”

“Just a change in scenery I guess.” That was partially true. 

“Yeah, I heard a lot of crazy stuff happens there. A guy that can run faster than the speed of light. The press there really are eccentric.” Amanda pipped in You giggled. You were glad they thought it was a poor attempt to attract tourists. If you told them half the things you experienced, you were positive they wouldn’t believe you. It was partially the reason for your departure. You were tired of super powered villains, you needed a rest. Plus Cisco and Barry had more back up, Ralph and Killer Frost were a part of their superhero squad now, they could handle things without you. 

“Well, today just get settled in. We’ve been a man down since Mike moved to the terrorism task force. “ You nod, walking over to the desk Olivia was guiding you to. You smiled, dropping your bag on the table. “I’ll bring in my stuff tomorrow.” you stated. Olivia handed you your badge and gun and your smile widened. “Wow..” you took it gratefully. “Thank you Lieutenant, I’m so happy to be here, I’m going to do my best to make you proud. “ Olivia smiled at your excitement. 

“Let’s hope this job doesn’t take away that beautiful smile of yours. “ you looked down a bit bashful at her compliment. She gestured to someone. Carisi  walked over, dropping a hand on your shoulder. 

“Show (Y/N) The ropes. Carisi here will be your tour. I’ll figure out who to partner you up with tomorrow.” 

“That’s great. Thank you boss!” Olivia couldn’t help but find your enthusiasm adorable.

Sonny chuckled. “I remembered what it was like being the new kid. You’re gonna fit right in. Follow me.” you did, as he guided you around the precinct explaining the basics. 

You met a couple other officers, and even stopped by the District Attorney’s office. Carisi knocked on the door, and a deep come in echoed on the other side. He opened it and you were met with man. His eyes were directed on the files on his desk. They lifted when he saw who walked in. “Detective, do we have a case already, and here I thought I’d be having a quiet day in. “ 

Carisi laughed at the man’s statement. “This is our newest member Counselor, just giving her the rundown.” The man stood from his seat, running a hand down his tie as he did. “Well, it’s a pleasure to meet you. Although I have to warn you this is no easy job. I’m Rafael Barba.”

You took his outstretched hand, introducing yourself. “It’s a pleasure to meet you Mr. Barba. I’m looking forward to working with you all.” He gave a small smirk. “Ah, I see. I guarantee you won’t be thinking that in a few months.” your brows furrowed. “Excuse me?” Carisi waved his hand. 

“Don’t mind him, let’s continue on.” Carisi ushered you out the door a little too quickly, not before sending a glare at Barba for trying to scare you off. “That guy, I wonder if he realizes we actually want you to work for us.” 

“It’s okay, I appreciate him trying to warn me. If I’m being honest my old captain was a bit hesitant on letting me go. But I really think I can make a difference here.”

“Liv told me. From the recommendation you sent it seems you’re a good worker. Your record was impressive. If you don’t mind me asking, why did you leave? I’m no expert but people don’t just uproot themselves because they’re tired of the shrubs.” 

Ah, you were expecting this. Now you needed a good cover. You didn’t want your fresh start to be based on lies, but how were you going to explain to them what you could do without them throwing you into a mental facility, or worse yet the government finding out about said abilities. Neither choice was desirable in your case. So, you decided to give him a half truth. The half you had an easier time disclosing, even if it was personal. 

“The truth is Carisi, I was adopted.” He looked a bit guilty, like he crossed some line. For a few seconds he didn’t say anything, then he finally found words. “Sorry, I didn’t know. It’s fine if you don’t want to talk about it.” you shook your head with a smile. “You don’t have to apologize, it’s in my file. You would find out sooner or later.” Your reaction to the conversation made him relax a bit. 

“Truth is I have no idea who my birth parents are, but I do have people I consider family back home. My old captain, he was the father I always wanted. He looked out for me, taught me everything I know. I just wanted a chance to use what he taught me to become someone he could be proud of.”  

Carisi smiled. “I’m sure he'd be proud of the person you are now, and will become in the future.” you returned his warm look. “Thank you Sonny.” he seemed happy at the way you addressed him, and for the rest of the day Carisi and you moved through the department easily. When the day was finally over you gave a sigh. 

You were packing up, watching as the other members slowly but surely made their exit. 

“See you tomorrow newbie.” Fin called. You waved. “You too!” you answered. Fin smiled at your response. You were a bit younger than the rest of them, which explained why you had a constant smile on your face. When you secured all your belongings you moved to Olivia’s office. 

You stepped through the open door.” I’m turning in boss, I’ll be here bright and early tomorrow, ready to start.” you assured. She removed her glasses. 

“Alright, make sure and get some rest. These cases often take a lot. “ You nod, bidding her goodbye. You walked through the halls to the elevator, stepping in. When you got in you noticed there was someone already in there. The detective pushed a button, stepping closer to you. 

“Mr. Amaro.” you acknowledged. He chuckled at the way you addressed him. “Please, just call me Nick. I’m not that old yet.” you flushed. 

“Y-Yes of course. Sorry about that.”

“Don’t worry about it. I get it. It’s your first day so you’re trying to find some level ground with everyone. We’ve all been there. It’ll get easier, just give it time. Fin and Carisi already seem to like you. Amanda thinks you’re a secret badass under all the smiles. And Liv looks at you like a puppy she needs to protect. “ you giggled at his evaluations. “I’m glad they like me. Carisi is very interesting. He invited me for dinner, says he’s a great cook. “ 

“The guy is something else, already hitting on you.” you shook your head. 

“I don’t think that was it. My radar is usually spot on. I think he’s just glad he’s no longer the new guy.” you informed. Nick snickered at the statement and the elevator dinged, you stepped out, Nick walking at your side. 

“So how are you liking New York so far, everything you expected?” Nick opened the door for you and as soon as you stepped out the chill hit you. 

“It’s as cold as I heard, that’s for sure.” You clenched your coat closer to your body, shoving your hands in your pockets. 

“Trust me, it only gets worse from here.” You could see the mist coming from his breath, despite that he didn’t seem affected by the temperature. 

“Thanks for the heads up.” you joked. You were walking down the streets of New York, talking back and forth with Nick. He was surprisingly easy to talk to. And he seemed to be weighing on what to ask. You could sense there was a question he was itching to ask, maybe the same one Carisi did earlier that day. He didn’t though. You stopped walking when you got to the end of a street, waiting for the sign to change. Just as the light did a scream was heard. Your head whipped behind and so did Nick’s.

“My bag!!” a woman screamed. There was a man running through the crowd, coming in your direction. He was shoving everyone in his path. You went into cop mode almost immediately. You weren’t sure how he knew, but he must have sensed you and Nick were cops. When his eyes connected with Nick, he turned in the opposite direction. “NYPD!!” Nick yelled, taking off after the mugger. You weren’t very far behind him. You knew at his distance Nick wouldn’t catch up in time, even at the speed he was moving. You bit on your lip.

“Guess I have no choice.” your eyes glowed for a brief moment, and you focused in the mugger’s direction. All at once he went tumbling to the floor. People scrambled away from him and Nick grabbed him before he could take offa again.

He pulled him off the ground, forcing his hands behind his back. In seconds the guy was in cuffs, the purse he grabbed now laying on the ground. When you finally got to them you picked up the bag, smiling at Nick. 

“That was exhilarating for my first day on the job.” Nick smiled, turning back to the thief. He groaned when shoved him forward. “You have the right to remain silent.”

“She put in for leave.” Nick sighed when he showed up the next day. After that night, they thought it was best that you had some time alone to think. You were obviously upset, so he was hoping the very next morning you could meet up with everyone and just discuss what happened. When he got in that morning he went to Olivia’s office immediately. “Dodds approved, after what she went through he said it was more than well deserved.”

None of them knew what really happened, the one thing they were clear on was that something very unusual was at play. Nick stopped himself from going straight to your apartment this morning. 

Now he was wondering if that was such a good idea. He didn’t want to pressure you, but he also cared about you deeply. The thought that you might be somewhere hurting made his heart ache. “What do we do Liv?” Olivia wasn’t sure what to tell him. 

As the boss she was expected to have all the answers. This was not like her common situation. “We have a case, as soon as we’ve dealt with it we’ll all go over and talk with her. Right now it’s probably best if we just give her time with her thoughts.” It wasn’t a full proof plan, but it was all she could come up with at the time. Nick wasn’t exactly the sit still type, but in this case he was forced to be. He only hoped that you didn’t think they hated you for not coming clean, or worse, were scared of you. 

“Alright Liv.” He left, hoping that this case would be done quickly, all he wanted right now was to ensure you were okay. 

~~~~

You gripped at your head, crying your eyes out. This is what you were afraid of. Those looks in their eyes. You hated it, you hated it so much. What alarmed you more was the fact that they found out. You were sure you were being so careful. When did you slip up? Of course they would figure it out, they were detectives after all. 

You just wished they hadn’t found out so..soon. You were just getting close to Nick, Olivia adored you, and Rollins, Fin and Carisi were the siblings you always wanted. You felt like your life was finally falling in place for the first time. It was almost like you were in control of this one aspect of your life. That was all gone now. You couldn’t imagine what they thought of you. 

The vase on your table broke and you flinched, looking up with wavering eyes. You felt so powerless, which was ironic considering the circumstances. You had no idea how to face your coworkers now, and your lack of emotional stability was costing you a lot of ceramic. 

That was the second vase you had broken in less than two hours. You sniffed, standing to go and clean up the mess. You gathered the broken pieces, in your haste to get rid of them you grazed your hand on a piece. You winced, watching the line now across your palm. You picked up the rest carefully, dumping them into the trash. The blood was starting to run down your hand. You could barely feel it now. 

“What did I expect..they probably...probably..” you didn’t know what they thought of you, what Nick thought of you. You gripped your bloody palm tightly. Your anxiety was at an all time high. The knock that came to your door made you jump. You pretended not to hear, whoever it was would go away eventually. It was best if you just had some time apart. 

The knocks were becoming more insistent. 

“I know you’re in there (Y/N) open up!” you tensed. 

“Nick..” you couldn’t, why was he even here. 

“G-Go away!” you shouted. 

“If you don’t open this door right now I swear I’ll kick it down!” he threatened. You gulped. 

“He wouldn’t really do that...right?”

“Guess I have no choice then!” he yelled. 

“Alright!” you raised your hand and the door opened on its own. Nick stood on the other side, watching you from across the room. He just stared for a few moments then he stepped in. When he did your eyes focused back on the door and it closed. He looked back in awe. 

Then his gaze moved back to you. “Woah..” you didn’t keep eye contact. When he stepped closer, you took a step back. Nick raised his hands in a surrender. “Listen, I know you need time to process, hell we all do. Liv told me to give you a couple days but how am I supposed to do that when I know my partner probably needs me the most right now. “ You still refused to meet his eyes. “(Y/N) I-” he stopped when he saw blood dripping from your hand. 

“What the hell are you okay!” He threw caution to the wind, pacing over to you and taking your hand. You were startled at the contact. He seemed relieved when he saw it was just a small cut. 

“Geez, I swear you're like a kid.” he guided you to the sink, turning on the tap and holding your hand over the running water. You just watched as he stepped away to get a paper towel from your counter. He returned, shutting off the water and pressing the paper to your palm, keeping pressure on it to stop the bleeding. You tried not to wince, but he noticed your discomfort and eased his hand off a bit. 

“It’s better...thank you..” you mumbled. 

This was not what you expected at all. When he barged in you were certain it was to confront you on all the times you’d drop subtle lies about situations that required you to use your powers. His bad cop attitude disappeared as soon as he saw that you were injured. It wasn’t even that bad, life as a cop, he must have encountered far worse things. Yet he was looking at you with so much worry. Not the fear you thought would be present behind his beautiful brown eyes. 

“I’m not scared of you.” your eyes widened. Was he a mind reader? How did he know?

He stepped closer, hands raising to hold your cheeks. There was something strangely familiar about this moment, like deja vu. His thumb was brushing circles on your skin and suddenly, you’d forgotten everything. The intensity of his eyes, warmth of his touch, it was a little too much for your mind to really process. You blinked, and the look in his eyes changed to one of amazement. You were confused, until you saw the glow from your eyes reflected in his. 

“Shit am I-” you moved to pull back,but one of his hands reached down, wrapping around your waist and pulling you flush to his body. 

“Oh no you don’t.” he growled under his breath. You stiffened, hyper aware of his muscled body now stuck to yours. 

“I don’t care what you think, but I’m not scared of you. I know this isn’t how you wanted us to find out, hell I’m not sure you even wanted us to find out.” Your gaze faltered. 

“I-I wanted to tell you..I..I really did. I just..”

He pressed his forehead to your own. “I know, you don’t have to explain anything.” The hand that was once on your waist moved to the small of your back. He was tracing patterns against your skin. “You’re still the same girl that walked into the precinct all those months ago (Y/N), that cheerful smile, those hopeful eyes. Nothing’s changed. “ his words made your eyes well up. You clutched unto him. 

“A-Are you sure?” you croaked out. He nodded, the action making your head moving slightly with his. You giggled and Nick smiled at you. He pulled back a little to look at your eyes again. You felt yourself squirming under his gaze. “Your eyes are beautiful.” you blushed. They were probably still glowing. 

“S-Sorry.” it was always harder to control when Nick was close. At his proximity, you were shocked your lights hadn’t exploded yet. 

“You don’t have to apologize.” he chuckled, and you were now more aware that you were maybe too close to Nick for your own good. He didn’t seem to mind. He leaned to your ear. 

“Te dije que son hermosas..” you gripped into his coat, fighting a shudder. This was getting a bit too dangerous. If you didn’t get some distance now, you’d definitely do something you wouldn’t be able to take back. You moved to pull away, but Nick gave no indication of separating. 

“N-Nick..” you cursed at how unsteady your voice was. He hummed in acknowledgement. He pulled back, finally releasing you and your heart settled a little. When you looked at him he had a cocky smirk on his face and you frowned adorably. He really did enjoy torturing you. 

“Are you willing to take that risk?” 

Barry’s words wouldn’t leave your mind. He was right, the only thing stopping you was fear. Fear of losing your friend, or hurting him. At this point it felt like you’d already done both of those. 

“Hey sunshine.” your eyes lifted at Fin’s greeting. “Hey Fin, have you seen Rollins. Cisco left me a gift for her.” It was a STAR Labs sweater, he insisted you give it to her. Fin chuckled. 

“That kid, I doubt he could handle Rollins.”

“You’d be surprised. “ Now that you thought about it, Cisco seemed attracted to very dangerous women. Kendra, Golden Glider, Gypsy, now Rollins. He really did have a type.

Rollins walked in just then with a very disgruntled looking Nick. Carisi was behind them mouthing ‘don’t ask’. You raised a brow. Fin apparently didn’t heed the warning. 

“What’s wrong with you?” he questioned. Said question just made the growing crease in Nick’s forehead deepen. “Alright, got it.” Fin replied. He took a seat, and everyone slowly gravitated to their own corners. The air was tense. You wanted to know why he was in such a bad mood, but at the same time, you were already on shaky ground with Nick. So maybe tipping the boat wasn’t exactly the smartest plan. “I’m a little peckish. Think I’ll go get a quick bite. Anyone want anything?” You hoped your offer would cut the tension in the room. 

“I’m good.” Nick answered gruffly. You frowned. You moved to get up, but the sight of a familiar brunette caught your attention. “Isn’t that..” you started but Amanda shook her head vigorously, advising you not to say anything. The reason behind Nick’s horrible mood was starting to make sense. That was the woman Nick was seeing for the past two weeks. 

There she was now, chatting it up with another detective in the unit. From the way she was casually touching his shoulder and leaning into him, you could tell. “That tramp.” you thought with a glare. No wonder he was angry. You could imagine how Nick felt. From his perspective it must have seemed that women were just tearing him down left and right. Now you felt bad. If you’d just given him a chance, maybe things would be different. He’d probably never take another one on you. 

Even if that was the case, maybe you could do something to make him feel a little better. Your eyes caught the cup of coffee in the woman’s hand and you grinned. Gold flickered in your orbs and her hand titled on its own. She gasped when the liquid spilled all over the other detective’s expensive suit. He jumped back, letting out a shout at the hot liquid that unfortunately landed on his crotch. You winced a little. Most of the precinct saw what happened and you ducked your head when the eyes of your team landed on you. 

“You can’t prove a thing.” you said in one quick breath. Amanda watched  you for a few seconds, before she burst out laughing. Carisi and Fin joined in. Pretty soon you were laughing too. You chanced a look in Nick’s direction. He was wearing a small smile. Hope didn’t seem that lost after all. 

~~~

“Thank you for stopping by Barry, come back anytime.” He gave one last hug, standing at the door. “I will. I have a feeling Cisco won’t mind coming back either.” That you believed. He really was relentless. A knock on your door caused you and Barry to look over. You reached for the knob, opening it. Nick was on the other side, he was shuffling on his feet. He looked up when he saw the door open. 

“Hey (Y/N) I-” he stopped himself when he saw Barry. 

“I didn’t realize you had company.” 

“No it’s fine. I was just leaving. “ Barry moved over, pressing a kiss to your forehead. He winked at you. “See you soon.” he said. Just like that he was gone in a gust of wind and a spark of red light. Nick stood there, wide eyed. His short hair looked partially ruffled from the wind. “He’s fast.” you added. 

“Yeah no shit!” you smiled at Nick’s reaction. “Just so you know, you’re the only one that knows his identity right now. Try to resist telling Carisi. He won’t ever stop with the questions. “ 

Nick stepped in, still trying to process what just happened. 

“Wait a second he’s the-”

“Yep.” 

“And he-”

“That’s right.” 

“But that’s-”

“Impossible.” you finished. “Trust me, don’t try to find a logical explanation. You won’t find one. “ 

You closed the door, offering him a chair to sit on. “You want a glass of water or something.” He shook his head, not taking a seat either. He just looked at you.

“I’m okay.” Now that he was standing there, you were curious why. He was still wearing a dress shirt and slacks from work, so your guess was he came straight over after he clocked out. 

“If you wanted to kiss him before he left you could have. I shouldn’t have come by when I did.” 

“Kiss him? “ your puzzled look earned a gesture from Nick. 

Oh… 

“Nick you’ve got it all wrong he’s married.” His hands moved to his waist. 

“Wait….you’re having an affair with him?”

“NO! God No.” It was a laughable thought. “Trust me there is absolutely nothing there. Barry would never in a million years cheat on his wife. Neither would I. Cheat that is. Barry and I grew up together. We’ve known each other for ages.”

“Oh, well okay.” You could have been sure you saw relief on Nick’s face. 

“That’s good, not sure if I could compete with a guy that runs faster than Carisi devours his mother’s home cook cannoli.” 

 You smiled at his joke. Then you really thought about what he said. 

“Compete with him?” you asked hopefully. Nick stepped closer, not touching you, but with the lack of distance, he didn’t really have to. Just his presence had you weak. 

“I know what you said before, and in all honesty you’re right. Nothing ever ends well when partners get involved. I’ve been on this job long enough to know. Olivia told me about her previous partner, Elliot. From what I heard around the squad, they weren’t just partners. And we all know how that ended.  “ you heard rumors, but Olivia clarified that he left her. Without so much as a goodbye. You weren’t sure if you could take it if Nick ever did that. Just up and left you with no warning. 

“I know Nick, trust me I know. That’s why I said we should stop it before it got to that point. Our partnership is already far from normal. The things I can do. Things I’ve done. I feel like I’m living in a constant state of fear.”

He was afraid you would agree with him. The plan was to come back and repair your relationship. He was tired of walking on eggshells. He didn’t care if you were unwilling to pursue anything more than friends. He just missed his partner. That being said, it didn’t stop him from hoping you would want something more. That hope would always be there. He was just going to have to find a way to deal with it. 

“You don’t have to worry about that anymore. Listen, the past two weeks I’ve been a dick. I think we can both agree on that. I was pissed at you, and the truth is I was wrong. When I tried to force those feelings on someone else, everyone saw how well that worked out. “

“Yeah, can’t say I’m sorry to see her go.” you snickered. Nick couldn’t stop the smile that played on his lips. 

“Ha ha very funny. Don’t think I didn’t see your little trick.” 

“Where’s the evidence officer? “ you raised your hands with a giggle. Nick shook his head with a smile. 

“Anyway, I just wanted to apologize. I respect you (Y/N), and I respect your decision. As long as I have my partner I’m fine.” you gave him a pointed look. 

“Are you sure?” you took another step forward, closing what little space you had between each other. You didn’t miss the way his Adam's apple bobbed as he swallowed. He licked his lips, from the look in his eyes you could tell it was an impulse action. 

“What..” he muttered lost. 

You licked your own lips, hands reaching to rest on his shoulders. You finally leaned all the way in, to the point where your chest was pressed to his. Your hands wrapped around his neck, and you had to look up to see into his eyes. At your height, he was still a few inches taller. 

“I’m tired of being afraid, Nick. I want to feel something, something real. And I want to experience it with you, because…” you closed your eyes, when they reopened Nick took in a sharp breath. 

You could always tell when your eyes changed around him. His reactions were so obvious. “Because with you..everything feels right. I want to give this a chance. I-If that’s what you still want.” 

Now he thought maybe he was hallucinating. His forehead leaned on yours and he knew. It was real. “Of course I want this.” he breathed. You beamed at him. “That’s good. “Nick hugged you, pulling a deep breath. It felt like forever since either of you were this close.

“By the way, jealous Nick is adorable. “ He pulled back . 

“I wasn't jealous, I was just concerned.” he protested. 

“Suuuure you were.” you mocked. He closed his eyes with a laugh. “Okay, maybe just a little. What do you expect. The guy is a hero. I was afraid I’d have to wear tights to impress you. “ you giggled. “No need, I’m not sure you could rock it. Besides, you’re a hero too Nick. “ He was about to argue, but the genuine look in your eyes made him decide against it. You really did see him that way. 

“I appreciate that (Y/N).” 

“It’s all true. “ Now that everything was resolved, you weren’t sure what to do. Just a few seconds ago he was about to kiss you. You wanted him to, but maybe after all that happened, taking it slow was the best way to go. You couldn’t risk a mistake by pushing too fast, too quickly. You turned, breaking eye contact. You moved to the fridge to get him a drink.

“So since you're already here, how about you chill for a while and-” Nick’s hand pressed to the fridge, shutting it. He was right behind you. He moved so quietly, you didn’t even hear him. 

“I’m a little thirsty for something else.” the sudden drop in his voice made you quiver. You almost lost it when he pressed a kiss to the back of your neck. “I hope you realize you can’t say all those things and expect me to leave here without a kiss.” 

You bit down on your lower lip. You were still caged to the fridge. He had you right where he wanted you. Your head lifted and you glanced over your shoulder. Slowly, you turned around, now fully facing him. “Just one kiss.” you spoke. He smirked. “Of course. “ your eyes narrowed at the playful look in his eyes. You leaned on your tiptoes, reaching up and pressing a quick peck to his lips. 

“Okay, that’s it.” 

“Come on! That was hardly a kiss.” he complained. It’s not like you didn’t want to, you were just afraid if you gave him a proper one, you wouldn’t be able to stop yourself after just one kiss. 

Nick shifted, invading your space, and this time he initiated the kiss. He pulled you to his body, lifting you slightly off the ground to match his height. Your hands moved over his shoulders and into his hair, forgetting everything else. He kissed you with vigor, tongue wasting no time, slipping past your lips. He deepened the kiss, trying to memorize your taste, your smell. 

Your fingers found merit in his short dark locks, and you were tugging lightly, trying to urge a sound out of him. He complied, a soft grunt leaving his throat. All you could hear was the pounding of your heart in your chest. It was getting louder and louder as the kiss progressed. When you separated, you were shocked to see that you were no longer in the kitchen, but now pressed to the couch. Nick was grinning at you like a teenager. 

“How...do you keep doing that?” you asked between pants. You didn’t feel him move at all. 

“It’s a secret.” he said softly. He pressed a kiss to your forehead, brushing your hair behind your ear.