#monogomy

something I’ve clarified for myself:

I want to meet more women in unusual relationship configurations

specifically: women whose partners are monogamous to them by choice (one-way monogamy)

I think it would be really good (and meaningful) for me to learn more about & spend more time with women like this

Coupled with the gift I’ll be giving her so she can move out on her own where she wants…

Well guess what?

To you, I may be insane and petty and that this persona isn’t me.

But to me, all your little witticisms and rocks you throw at me will be the very foundation of my empire.

I am real

I am Elmo Batman

I was thining abou it and actually I do think when Kelly's in, he's in. He was going to marry Renee #1,

REnee#2: He was going to move to Madrid with her, then when she came back and he felt that was his baby (which Ithink if she had been honest about her not knowing who's it was, hew old still stay and help take care of the baby even though it would not be his responsibility) I digress, they were going to get a place together.

I know Brittany was a grief and I do think he loved her on some level, probably grief filled but she and he helped each other. He said they were going to look for a place but invited her to come with him in Chicago

Anna: he was actually considering leaving Fireshouse 51 to be with her. And also to n to be Benny. But then she broke up with him briefly since the cancer came back (I think she did love Kelly and I think she was trying to give him the easy way out.)

All these womene left him (okay Britany was encouraged to go home and talk to her parents and for Kelly to stop avoiding the loss of Shay

People/Women Leave him. He feels he's not good at monogomy but really monogomy has not been kind to him. So why would he entertain that idea when every time he always loses like the song Yours (which I think is so Stellaride and Kelly coded about Stella specifically) says: Just live for the spin and hope for the win Go all in, just to lose again.

But you know who doesn't leave, Stella. Even when Stella broke up with Kelly, she never really left him. The friendship is there. The love is there. As he says in his vows, "You make me open up, and even when you got to know me, you loved me anyway."

I don't. It just made me sad that Kelly sells himself short and other people do the same to him. It's like, in what relationship did he, was he the issue where he was doing something not good? Besides his shutting down on Stella, he even acknowledges it before they break up: "It's like I feel myself wrecking things, and I don't know how to stop."

Confusing monogamy with morality has done more to destroy the conscience of the human race than any other error.

Polyamory isn’t for everyone.