#micahverse

@okiimii

I disagree with this characterization of myself.

I do not see honest sincere apologies as weakness. But since you bring it up, I do view fake apologies as weakness.

To me, an apology means something. It means that you understand that you did something wrong, and will commit to try to do better in the future.

Long time followers should know that I have apologized for things in the past.

For example, there was an unfortunate incident where I said the T-slur in a post in a neutral context to explain the point. (Just making it clear that I did not call anyone the slur.) There are certain pejorative terms that are acceptable in neutral contexts as long as you aren't using them against someone. I had mistakenly believed that this slur fell into this category.

I was educated by people, regretted my actions and the harm they caused, and then apologized for it. And I haven't used the word since.

If this post is about this latest incident where I referred to a group of sysmeds as disgusting creatures...

The reason that I'm not apologizing should be obvious. I don't regret anything I said. I don't feel the slightest twinge of sorrow or guilt. My opinion, they had it coming... It was fun for them to be able to gang up on someone they saw as weaker. So they needed to be shown how it felt.

I already felt zero guilt before I found out that part of this harassment campaign included August posting Micah to a hate subreddit. But somehow, it's possible to feel less than zero guilt.

If you want to talk to somebody about apologies, why not go talk to August about posting their former friends to r/systemscringe? (I wonder if it's clicked yet with the rest of the group that August would do the same to them in a heartbeat if they ever have a falling out.)

The fact of the matter is that if I could go back in time and undo what I did... I wouldn't. My actions were not a mistake. They were not an accident. I don't regret them.

And I don't give fake apologies.

An apology born out of sincere guilt is not weakness. But an apology for something you have no regret for, simply because you want to avoid accountability, would be.

As a tulpa, I have been accused of role-playing more times than I can count. I've been accused of pretending to be something that I'm not. But by and large, the person I am on this blog is who I am. People can take it or leave it.

If I started giving fake apologies every time I got criticism, I wouldn't be me anymore. I would be pretending to be a character who I'm not.

And surely that's not what you're asking of me. Surely you aren't asking me to give apologies that I don't feel just to make the criticism go away. Surely that's not what you consider strength.

Maybe you expect me to actually feel some level of sorrow or guilt for my actions here. But I'm sorry to say that I don't.

And it's not that I can't sympathize or empathize with people. I can...

But not to bullies who harass the people they once called friends. Not sysmeds who hate me and people like me for our very existence. Not r/systemscringe users who sell out other systems to watch them be mocked and ridiculed by hateful singlets. Not people so intent on forcing their misery on others that they would make "parody" blogs just to mock systems for enjoying being systems and not hating themselves.

A stupid tag made by a group of mass harasser?

Here's the quick summary: There is an anti-RAMCOA group of syscoursers here on Tumblr that all seem to know each other and be connected in some way. One of the former members of that group, Micah, ran an anti-endo blog called dissociative-misinfo (which lived up to its name) and had another blog called Snowchester-system that pretended to be a RAMCOA system.

That blew up, and the user later apologized and became pro-endo.

Anyway, their old friend group has been harassing them over the past several days, demanding apologies, then whining about the apologies because the apologies aren't using the exact words they want.

It's all really nothing more than an excuse for bullying.

And this friend group is made up of just... the most vile, disgusting, creatures on this website.

Obviously, there's no such thing as a good anti-endo. But even by anti-endo standards, these people are the worst of the worst. At least one of them, August/The Infernal Collective, is an r/systemscringe user. Others have both defended August's use of r/systemscringe and have repeated r/systemscringe's anti-RAMCOA talking points. Rat-in-a-coat and Morlock being two of the most outspoken anti-RAMCOA syscoursers on the site. They generally are pro-fakeclaiming, like with Morlock claiming they can tell if people really are systems or not.

Another blog from this group, validity-system, is a blog that was originally created to mock systems for being inclusive, invading pro-endo tags to fill them with hate. They've now declared themselves to be a "Michaverse Loremaster" which makes it sound like they're now dedicating their hate blog to targeted harassment of this one user.

Really, if you knew what the people in this friend group were like before this drama, it shouldn't even be a surprise that they would resort to such bullying and harassment of a former friend who breaks away from their group.

Please also put yourself in the shoes of the people whose trauma he faked and maybe try to understand why I'm especially upset about this all. I don't give a fuck about the rest of the "micahverse" situation.

if you want a genuine apology for something someone did that upset you, you do it PRIVATELY and civilly you do not start it with aggression that is NEVER going to end up well. it's like you guys are still living in medieval times and you want to publicly humiliate Micah with stones.

"but their apology wasn't good enough!" approach the situation RESPECTFULLY take it to fucking dms like the adults you claim you are. you guys are acting like a bunch of high schoolers and you really should be ashamed of yourself, i would expect this kind of behavior from immature 15 year olds not full grown adults fucking hell.

and if someone is showing signs that they are clearly not mentally okay? DON'T FUCKING CONTINUE? is it really that hard for you to show a tiny bit of human fucking decency and wait until someone is able to calm down before continuing with your endless tirade? have you not heard the phrase "don't kick a man while he's down" ????

micah doesn't want anything to do with any of you, they're not trying to be friends again, they just want to live their life and continue to grow. ive seen them apologize again and again and i get that it's still not good enough for you but you seriously need to fucking be the bigger person and let it go. at this point, what more do you fucking want? do you want micah to leave the internet permanently? is he barred from any chance of growth and second chances? do you want him to suffer for the rest of his life to make up for what he did?

"you're not involved in this you don't get to have an opinion" you made your issues public. you aired your dirty laundry for the entire world to see and guess what? people have opinions.

this is all really disgusting to see and im extremely disappointed that adults would act in this manner.

list of users this person was:

snowchester-system

bootleg-zenix

revoromantic-system

revoromantic

runaway-convoy

shadow-convoy

zain-syscourse

liam-shipcourse

zain-syscourse

obviously-im-a-boyo