#mental break downs

I now plan to put it together sometime this week or next, as my sister will be gone for about 2-3 weeks to visit doctors in California, causing BOTH parents to be up there as well. Meaning I will be all alone with just my thoughts.

I’m genuinely surprised that Lucas didn’t hit someone in the face with the lightstick when he was swinging it around (or himself for that matter 😂)

I can literally imagine it slipping out of his hand and flying and making this huge projectile curve and coming crashing down on someone or something

Chenle and jungwoo would probably find it super cool

Yuta, Doyoung and Renjun would probably have something savage to say

Winko will either be lost or impressed

Where as the mums Taeyong and Kun would probably have a mental breakdown 😂

And amidst all this chaos you’ll have Lucas laughing loudly and blabbering something in ‘Lucas Language’

And then once Yuta decides that he’s done shading Lucas

He’ll probably go Winko hunting 😂

Cus YuWin for the WinWin!

literally..he got me through one of the worst nights of my life. 

it's a situation where people would judge me automatically.

he doesn't though.

"i need you to listen to me..i don't care how this happened..it happened, and you have me to lean on. i'm going to do everything i can for you. whenever you need me, call me. i'm always gonna be here and i'm always gonna have your back"

i hope he understands how much i needed to hear that. and how much it meant to me coming from him.

i also hope he knows he has me to lean on if he ever needed me. i would do anything for him.

there's also something about him where i feel extremely safe and secure. 

i don't like expressing my feelings to people. it always comes out wrong and i always feel like the bad guy in the end for it.

with seth..i can't help but be totally open and honest with him. he just breaks down the protective wall over my heart (as corny as that sounds).