I can suddenly actually hear other alters talk, which I’d say is a good thing because it’s easier to deal with being a system when you know what’s going on in there at least in my experience. I’m also so much fucking weirder and loud and energetic than I was before, I think it has to be because depression is down. Overall I’m just starting to do fairly good!!! :]

anyway thanks for coming to my ted talk

So, I've been on this for about 3 months. I initially started with 25mg then moved up to 50mg because I didn't really feel anything happening. I'm still not seeing much of a difference with my anxiety. I also haven't felt any side effects. I have noticed, however, that I've been less anxious when having to answer or make a phone call. I've also started to participate in class(not much but still an improvement). So, I think I'm gonna ask my doc if he thinks I should increase my dose a bit to 75mg.

Here's to hoping.

/lighthearted

Basically my primary care physician found someone who was willing to overlook some of the legalities, and so I spent all of yesterday navigating Irvine’s stupid public transportation system,, but I got to see the doctor? And!! normally they’d check to make sure I knew what I was getting into and have me socially transition etc. and have like a therapists note, but she was just like. “yeah you’ve been self medicating for two years that’s proof enough” and literally got me a prescription like that very second??? so yes !!! am on legal hormones !!!! they still cost money,, but i get them instantly, they’re like 3x cheaper, and i can pay on cash,,, and also she wrote me a lab order to get bloodwork done under my insurance but like,, hidden,,,, and i’m just !!!! aaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i might even get to increase my dosage !!!! wow !!!!!!!!