#mash fluff

kisses with mash are innocent. neither side is quite experienced and taking each learning step together. but it feels right. it feels safe kissing him and knowing he doesn't have the heart to judge you. you can feel the love through each small kiss he presses on your lips. even when he's holding your face a little too hard, you can tell he's trying his best for you because you certainly deserve the best of him. your noses might bump, and your teeth might clash, but nothing is going to prevent mash from showing you all the things he feels for you. he might not be able to unravel them and understand them right away, but he knows what he feels for you is love.

kisses with finn are shy but intimate. he can't handle kissing you for so long, otherwise he feels like his heart is going to explode. faces are red, eyes are averting, but he can't help but go back for more. you're so patient and good for him, how can he not? he'll kiss you all over your face if he can't handle kissing your lips, but he just wants to keep kissing you until it feels right. until it feels like he's meant to do it as easy as breathing, he silently asks you for a little patience and practice with each short kiss on your lips.

kisses with lance are slow. he hates rushing things. he takes his time to do things right, and as a meticulous person, he intends to do the same when it comes to learning how to love you. kissing you is simply one of the steps to perfect the method of loving you, which is why he's kissing you until the last ounce of oxygen in your lungs. he waits for you to catch your breath and goes back for more when you're stabilized because as much as he tells himself to take it slow, it's very hard. he never knew he would be so eager to learn before, but you seem to show him sides of himself he never knew he had. he feels like he's a prince in the fairytales anna likes to read all the time, and he has no doubt that you're the princess who gives him his happily ever after.

kisses with dot feel like hushed giggling at midnight. the two can't seem to stop giggling laughing each time you part from one kiss, only to silence each other with the next kiss. he pecks your lips, your cheeks, your jaw, with a big, bright smile and quiet laughter ringing in your ears. he never thought he would get to experience something so simple yet big, but you gave him a chance no one else would. hence, he treats you like a queen because you're worth more than gold. he wants every kiss you share with him to remind you of the laughter and happiness the two of you share. kissing you feels like kissing sunshine, and dot isn't sure if he felt so warm and fuzzy with any other girl, but the thought is gone in a nanosecond because you're all he can think about.

kisses with abyss are intoxicating. he hasn't felt a time where he felt so liberated. he feels like he can breathe around you, even with his lips pressed so tightly against yours. he wants to breathe you in, memorize your scent and the feel of you under his until it's the only thing he can think of. he's always been so burdened by his eye, he couldn't possibly think of feeling so free with someone. he's grateful to have you, even if for a single moment like this, where he can kiss you senseless. until he's the only thing on your mind, like you are on his. if there was anything abyss could choose to be drunk on, it'd be you. the finest liquor of the world could be served to him on a silver platter, but none of it will be better than feeling you against his lips. he doesn't ever want to feel satisfied of you because he can't treat you like he's had enough of you. he doesn't want to see it happen.

kisses with abel feel unreal. abel isn't new to the thrill of romance novels among his fellow nobles, but he never was able to get a grasp on it himself. he felt like it was always overexaggerated and unreal, but now he knows. sharing a mere few kisses with you made him feel things he never felt before. why was his face so warm? why are you looking at him like he hung the moon and stars for you? why can't he stop kissing you, whether it is your lips, nose, or cheeks? but even with all these feelings, abel knows that none of the romance novels other nobles read could compare to the feeling of kissing you so deeply yet gently. like you're a glass statue made of love and unrivaled kindness, because that's all he sees in you. he's a little afraid of breaking you, hurting you, scaring you, but when you smile and press a kiss to his cheek like that, he feels his restraint falling apart, bit by bit like cookie crumbs.

kisses with rayne are sacred. he's such a busy guy, and there are so little moments where the two of you can spend personal, bonding time together. his time is sacred, but rayne would give you all of his time and energy that he should be using to build a better world for orphans on you. treating you right, kissing you until you're red and dizzy, sweep you off your feet when you kiss until your knees are weak. there will never be a time he sees you as a chore. his job is what should seem like a chore, even if he chose the path to take, but he'd rather have his job be a chore than see something so natural as loving you, pulling you into small alleyway to kiss you like he's mad, as a chore. so what if his time and attention is sacred? he has plenty to spare, only for you. anything and everything he has are yours: his mind, body, soul, and heart. why shouldn't you have his time and love when you have all of those things?

kisses with orter are secret. as strong and emotionlessly confident as he is, orter doesn't think he can handle people seeing you kiss him. or him kissing you, whichever makes you show him that cute, flustered expression of yours to him. the expressions you make kissing him, the way you hold onto him so tightly are things only he should be privy to. no one else should have the privilege to get to see you like this. even if he were to lose all the magic in his body and every bit of power he has in the palm of his hand, orter would rather lose it all than to share the way you love him so suffocatingly with anyone else. why else would he be holding you just as tightly, just as closely to his body while he ravages your lips like they're his last meal? surely, you understand are his wordless acclamations of love, the passion he puts into loving you can't go unnoticed. he'll kiss you until you notice them, anyway.

He nodded his head a bit still watching you closely. "Okay, out with it." He said a bit more forcefully, and you looked at him with surprise. "Come on you can't keep secrets from me." He said as he motion his hand at you.

'That's what you think.' You thought to yourself before you cleared your throat. "It's a bit embarrassing." You admitted.

"I wont laugh." He said as he raised his hand up, as if making an oath.

You smiled at the gesture, before letting out a long breath. "Uh, so, I've been, sort of seeing someone for the last few weeks." You paused and looked over at Hawkeye.

Part of you hoped to see jealousy cross his face, but you didn't really expect it. So when you saw him seem to adjust himself uncomfortably, you felt your chest tighten. "Oh, I didn't know that. Uh, wh-who is this lucky gentlemen? Or gentlelady, I don't judge." He quickly joked, and you rolled your eyes lightly.

"Patrick, the newer MP."

"Ah, yeah, I've seem him around."

You nodded your head. "Yeah, well...I thought he really liked me ya' know? I thought we had a somewhat serious thing going on, but earlier, when I went to do inventory, I uh- caught him in a rather revealing situation with a nurse."

Hawkeye watched your face fall as you said this, and he felt anger rise in his chest. He let out a deep breath and shook his head. "Bastard." He mumbled under his breath. "And I assume this is at least one of the reasons you can't sleep?"

You shrugged lightly. "I wish it didn't effect me so much, but, it does."

Your mind began to wander, and you started talking, slowly as you stared at the tent wall. "There was this guy in high school, I really, really liked, he even asked me to prom. But the day before, I found out he asked someone else instead, and went with them. Then there was a guy in college. I thought for a short while I was gonna marry him. Then he left me for someone else. And then-"

You stopped short, as you thought to yourself. 'And then there was you. The crazy, hilarious, but heart-felt and kind Doctor I fell head over heels for, who would never see me the same way.'

"And now Patrick." You said softly before shaking your head. "I guess I just don't get it. What is it about me that isn't good enough?"

Hawkeye felt his heart break as you said this, your eyes falling to the table as your face fell. How cold you think you weren't good enough? You were more than enough, for anyone. It was other's who weren't good enough for you. Including himself.

Leaning a bit closer to you, he spoke in a soft voice, but it was heavy with feeling. "Don't you dare think for a minute, that you aren't good enough for those guys. You are the one they didn't deserve. You are the one Patrick is missing out on. If he can't see that then he's a bigger idiot than I thought. You are kind, generous, smart, and brave. Look at me Y/n."

Tentatively you met his eyes, and he smiled softly as he continued. "You're the most beautiful person I've ever met. Inside and out." Placing his hand on top of yours, he seemed almost lost for words before he met your eyes again. "Hell, you are my favorite part of every day. You make me remember the good in the world, even out here, in the middle of this damn war. And if a schmuck like me can see that, they should too. But if they don't, then that only means they don't deserve to be anything to you, so don't waste your heart on them."

Your heart was pounding heavily, and your eyes burned hot as you listened to him speak. You never knew he thought that way about you, and a part of you wished he didn't. It only made you fall harder for him. Which in turn, only made you hurt more.

"Hell, if I was lucky enough to be with you, I would never let you go."

You felt your neck and ears burn hot at his comment, and you looked away timidly, pulling your hand away from his. "You don't need to say these things just to make me feel better Hawkeye."

He frowned, shaking his head. "Y/n, I'm not just saying them, I mean them, honestly."

You met his eyes again, and smiled, speaking in a joking tone. "And here I thought, I wasn't your type."

He tilted his head a bit. "And why would you think that?" He was not joking, his face held a serious expression.

You looked at him with a furrowed brow. "You're kidding right?" You almost scoffed.

He shook his head, and you felt your chest tighten. "Well, I mean, the nurses I see you with, they're all so different than I am."

"When was the last time you saw me with a nurse?"

You opened you mouth to speak, but faltered, actually thinking about it. You couldn't recall any time recently that you saw him chasing after a nurse. "I- I don't remember, but that's not the point."

"No, the point is-" he paused as he turned, swinging his leg over the bench to face you entirely, "-that none of them compare to you. And ever since I got to know you, none of them have shined a light to you. If I had less control over myself I'd probably follow you around like a love-sick puppy." His face fell a bit as he saw how taken aback you were. "But I hid it a bit to well didn't I?"

You nodded your head a bit as you swung your own leg over, facing him. "I had no idea. I thought you'd never be interested in someone like me."

A soft, almost sad smile crossed his face as he reached forward taking your hands in his again. "You're the first person I think I've ever met that I thought, or felt this seriously about. And I guess, that scared me. So maybe I did push those feelings away, hid them. But I do feel them. And.... I know you may feel like you can't trust me, due to my, admittedly amorous reputation. But I can assure you, I could never hurt you, nor would I ever want to."

You swallowed the lump in your throat as you gently squeezed his hand. "I trust you Hawkeye."

He met your eyes and smiled softly.

"And just so you know, Patrick doesn't compare to you either."

His smile grew bigger. "Now your just buttering me up."

You let out a soft laugh and shook your head, looking down at your intertwined hands.

"I'm sorry he hurt you." He added softly.

You smiled as you met his eyes, shrugged your head. "You're right, he isn't worth me wasting my heart on."

He smiled, almost proudly, before his face changed, showing a more timid expression. "Do you think I might be worth it?"

You bit the inside of your lip lightly as you resisted smiling. You nodded your head. "I do. And I don't think it would be a waste."

His smile grew as his eyes flicked between your eyes and you lips. Slowly, the two of you leaned closer, pausing as your noses touched, your lips only an inch apart. Your eyes met and they both shined with various emotion. Together, you closed the space between you, your lips meeting almost cautiously, before you both deepened the kiss.

Slowly, you and Hawkeye both let go of each others hands. Yours rose, one gently placed on his neck, the other gently grabbing his loose shirt. Hawkeye's hands cupped your face as he deepened the kiss.

When you both ran out of breath, you pulled away, resting your foreheads against one another as you stared at each other gaily. Gently caressing your face he pecked your lips quickly.

"I don't want this to end, but if we don't get any sleep, we'll be zombies tomorrow." He said softly, and you could see the exhaustion of the day in his eyes.

You yourself felt fatigue begin to wash over you and you nodded. "Only promise this isn't already a dream."

He smiled brightly, leaning in and kissing you gently.

"I promise."

xx End xx

he kind of saved your life from the bureau, which is why the two of you got married. he wanted your body in return for saving you, so you got married to him, was annointed husband and wife, and never knew peace ever again.

not in the way that innocent zero was a bad husband, but he wasn't good either. other than when he's getting you pregnant, he doesn't really treat you like you exist.

to him, you're just another pawn in his plans.

but that is far from meaning he'll let people do whatever they want with you. what's his is his and will stay as such, no one else gets to have you. if there's someone mistreating you, he'll get rid of them, only because he's possessive af like that.

generally speaking, your first son, doom, was a good kid. he was well-mannered, though he had a strong capacity for magic. and honestly, you prevented your husband from training doom until the boy was eight, saying he should have a proper childhood at least.

doom is equally protective of you, not allowing your husband to let his anger out on you for not obeying him and being a good son. you've taken care of him for years, and he wouldn't be able to live with himself if he let you get hurt for something small.

famin is a bit more unhinged, but he still shows some form of care for you. he plays pranks on you with his invisibility magic, but it's usually him popping out of nowhere with a small bouquet of flowers he got from the forest.

i like to think famin was one of the clingier ones when he was a kid, just to be a brat to your husband. he has a heavy favoritism over you than his father and it SHOWS

doom makes it a little hard to tell, but you're his favorite too. he would die before he forgets the love and care you've given him.

now a little fun fact about epidem is that you turned into a major sweet tooth during your pregnancy with him, with your most common craving being pudding. it'd explain his obsession with it, but i don't think any parent would have expected things to go that far.

you've tried getting him to eat something else, but he only eats begrudgingly knowing his father is going to punish you because he doesn't have a good diet.

he's seen you get beat to the moon and back because of him, he won't let it happen again.

delisaster is probably the most clingiest and brattiest kid in the whole family.

he'll cause chaos everywhere he can, even when you try to control the damage, he gets things messed up pretty bad.

you actually got into the most trouble with innocent zero because of him, but he didn't care until doom forced him to watch you get punished for his wrongdoings.

he was, reasonably, terrified because his father just beat up his mother into a bloody pulp without hesitation, and he began to see why you were so stressed about him having good manners. not only could he be punished, but you were going to be hurt the most.

it's not enough to have him completely obedient, but he'll better his manners for you only.

he essentially becomes a mama's boy, listening to your naggings without complaining, doing a complete 180 in terms of personality when it comes to you in front of his subordinates.

after what he saw all those years ago, he would never find it in himself to disrespect you.

domina was mostly raised by innocent zero because you fell ill after giving birth. you weren't there to shield him from the damage, and would beg doom to protect domina as much as he could without endangering himself.

and obviously, domina grows up hating you because he thought you didn't like him, when that was the furthest thing from the truth.

he probably won't learn until innocent zero is defeated, you're finally free from the horrible marriage you've experienced, and you're free to live as you please.

there were no charges given to you after hearing what your sons and husband had to say.

the most contribution you had was literally birthing seven sons, and you even went as far as protecting them from the man himself, which didn't earn you many punishments to give.

at that point, domina willingly visits you and finally takes a good look at how ragged you are.

you're worse off than everyone in the family, having gone through too much stress and illnesses and injuries that your body couldn't heal itself like it was supposed to.

he visits every weekend now, sometimes bringing his friends along so you have happier memories to keep you company when he's not there with you.

helps you find hobbies to spend your free time with and will get you a bunch of novels and books so you're not left alone with your thoughts.

mash, despite being taken from you so early, had taken a part of your heart with him, and you were nearly inconsolable after he disappeared. you were hoping you could protect him more than you did domina, only for your husband to be crueler than before.

when he hears that he has a mother, he was rather shocked. and scared, honestly.

he's lived with regro his whole life, and only sixteen years in he learns he had a mom this whole time?

he doesn't blame you for not looking for him because he had a feeling you did a lot.

the first time mash and regro visit you, you were crying for most of the time, apologizing over and over for not being able to raise him properly and unable to protect him from his own father.

regro insists that it was okay. mash was a wonderful kid to raise, and you did nothing wrong. the only one to be blamed for all of it was innocent zero, and with him gone, you were free to spend as much time as you wanted with mash.

regro was content with letting you raise mash, knowing that you were nothing close to innocent zero the moment you started bawling at the mere sight of your son.

the old man could tell not being able to raise mash hurt you a lot, and seeing him as a grown boy only rubbed salt into your wound.

so the next time he came along, he got you a photo album of mash's baby pictures, so you could see the whole process of his growth. you thanked him so many times, regro wondered when you were going to run out of tears.

mash, after having spent some time with you, gets pretty attached to you.

perhaps it's knowing the fact he's your real son or the fact you treated him like glass, but a month after mash started visiting you every other day, he started sitting on your hospital bed then placing his head on your lap, letting you play with his hair, and so on.

after you start feeling better, you start asking the divine visionaries if you could see your sons and husband, which they deny heavily at first.

and shockingly, the first one to cave is actually ryoh.

as a married man with a kid, he had a feeling you cared a lot for not just your sons, but for innocent zero too.

he has no idea what you saw in him, but perhaps that was what kept you from running away from him for so long.

and turns out, a few months after sitting in a prison cell was enough for your husband to realize he cared about you a lot.

after most of your kids were grown, he started to soften around you a lot without even knowing. he'd look at the injury you had for a month and got worried, knowing that he was keeping your body in perfect condition the whole time, but your immune system stopped working.

thus, he was severely overprotective of you but covered it under the guise of not wanting you to cause more trouble for him later.

he carried you around a lot, kept you on his lap whenever he was sitting on his throne, never brought you to the battlefield, and did his overall best to take care of you in a roundabout way as to thank you for giving him his children.

he's visibly shocked when you show up at his cell, thinking he was hallucinating at first.

he doesn't recall feeling so relieved to see someone, but here you were.

he's grabbing your hand, making sure you're recovering okay, his eyes are scanning every inch of your body, and everything to make sure you weren't being mistreated. he might as well let the world burn if you weren't being treated well.

when you tell him how happy you were that you got to spend more time with mash and domina, cyril doesn't know what to say.

he knows he's the reason for all the pain you've gone through, and he didn't deserve to even see you so happy, but a part of him was happy you were still thinking about him.

maybe the two of you meant something to each other but never got the time or chance to talk about how you felt towards each other.

he hopes, that in in another life, he would have a chance to treat you well.

you were pretty much only alive due to your personal magic, which has something to do with revival. and really, innocent zero didn't know you had that kind of power until you were like five. he planned to just get rid of you if you didn't show any signs of magic power any time soon, and lo and behold you got something that would help him reach his goal of being the world's greatest.

you were nothing more than a pawn to some hundred year old man that was high off of power, and being considerably younger than your other "siblings," they had a bit of pity towards you.

i imagine doom is your main caretaker. as much as he preys on strong opponents, he does say that he dislikes fighting the weak, and you being a child and his youngest siblings at that, there's no reason to NOT take care of you.

famin might try to teach you how to murder people, but i'm pretty sure doom would punt the guy to the stratosphere for that so he tries to teach you assassination methods in secret (he still got caught)

the one time famin was nice to you was when your father threw a fit over you "messing up" his plans to take back mash, and he was shockingly the first person to react to you crying at the time.

given that famin is an unpredictable guy, this was rather out of character for him.

no one really knows the reason why famin was like that, and neither do you, but he claims that yelling at a miserable kid like you won't solve anything, so he probably comforted you as a means of getting you to shut up.

epidem would probably get to be a part of his religion that he made based on pudding, and while you don't mind the dessert, you're not sure what he's talking about half the time.

epidem recognizes your cluelessness towards his religion as agreement, even though doom has reminded him many times that you don't understand even a tenth of what he's talking about.

i don't see delisaster taking much interest in you honestly.

you're a itsy bitsy kid to him that has little to no use outside of your resurrection magic, which he admits is cool, but not as cool as his.

the few times he does show a bit of attention to you is when you resurrect his subordinates after they "die" from taking his orders. or if he got frustrated with them and took his anger out on them. he gives you a solid pat on the head and ruffles it a little bit.

after an unfortunate series of events, delisaster is banned from babysitting you (he accidentally let you get drunk under his supervision once and doom nearly beat his ass to the moon)

domina probably hated you at first, thinking you were going to get a lot of attention from innocent zero for your resurrection magic, but he was the first person to realize that wasn't the case.

in fact, your magic actually drains you physically to the point if you used it too much, you would start vomiting blood and have some kind of organ failure.

mind you, you're a decade younger than he is.

he might hate you, but you're still his younger brother. he's not above leaving you to suffer in pain alone. even more so if you're crying because you're a kid in pain, and obviously kids cry when they're not okay...

so domina learns to love you, even if a little bit. he hopes that if he accepts you, then you'll grow to accept him too, not just for his power for who he is.

so after doom, domina is the next most reliable person to take care of you.

he treats you like a human than most of your siblings, so i believe that it doesn't take long for him to become your favorite.

doom might be too intimidating for a kid your age, so domina, who's considerably more approachable, is right up your alley.

and let's not forget mash, who hadn't even known about you until after innocent zero got arrested.

he was shocked to say the least, seeing a tiny kid who's main diet was pudding, coughing up blood, and dressed in rags. and as passive as he is, mash probably won't stand for a kid, much less someone who's supposed to be his little brother, being treated so badly.

immediately takes you to regro where you receive proper care and nourishment for kids, and you're surprisingly well-mannered. you don't cry, you don't run around and get lost, you don't throw fits when something bothers you, it's almost like you're an adult.

and regro doesn't like it.

he finds it horrifying how calm you are in situations children would find to be the end of their world, but you sit there and take it.

and he knew innocent zero was a bad person, but for you to be so mentally damaged after six years of living with him, he can't find it in himself to forgive that man.

mash also notices that you're not a normal kid, so his protectiveness over you just blasts through the roof. he doesn't even let domina get close to you, thinking he'll hurt you too if he left you alone with the latter.

it takes a lengthy discussion with you, mash, and domina that mash understands that domina was the one person who looked after you the most, and the last person to intend to hurt you.

it takes a long time for you to recover from your harsh life with innocent zero, but mash and domina, including regro and mash's friends are willing to walk you through it every step of the way.