#m. wayne

I am very excited for what's to come. I do not expect anything, as expectation leads to disappointment, but I know what I want. And I have the feeling that if I develop my skill and work on my art form, the universe will take care of the rest. Existence is so beautiful. All is love.

I am the epitome of sobriety now, here, in this moment, but it was not so long ago that I was drowning in my own debris. This wreckage and rubbish consisted of feelings of insecurity and low self-esteem, which I was attempting to treat or cure with external substance abuse. One can for a time exist this way, half awake, half asleep, numb, medicating the surface like one does to a cut with a bandaid, or ointment, but only for a time, as even with medicinal creams and bandages, the main healing comes from beneath the wound and from the bodies resilience regarding the immune system and its white blood cell army. One, however, becomes stagnant, and tired of feeling like the suffering is ceaseless in it's continuation. One searches for other answers, different cures of numerous varieties. I discovered meditation, and I am here to tell you, this is the only method, so to speak, that I have found success in. Slowly, slowly, the misidentification, the false, though seemingly correct illusory viewpoints begin to shift and fall away, dissolving. When awareness, pure and total, and absolute, is all that remains, you will be home and have a peace that truly surpasses all understanding.