#lsd tw

Something that I discuss in therapy with my therapist and one of the long reaching background goals we have is to learn to be comfortable being grounded. A lot of the time I’m like “Yeah I’m here and grounded what do you mean??”

But then I sometimes get these flashes of realization and connection where everything feels hyper-real, hyper-present, hyper-here and now. A lot of the times, its really calming and relaxing, it can feel very clear and I guess.... connected for the lack of better word. It is rare moments that I go “woah I can see the world as it is here and its immersive”

Sometimes if it occurs while Im stressed it might be negatively overwhelming, but I rarely really get that in a stressful way. With that being said, feeling connected to everything like that can sometimes - while being relaxing and clear - very jarring and I joke about it to my therapist about feeling like I took some kind of LSD and became some weird hippie cause like XD If I’m alone while experiencing it you might just catch me staring at plant leaves or looking up at the sky for hours just BAFFLED that things are real and that I am connected to them and that “That green looks really vivid and pretty. I’ve never seen such a vivid and pretty green in my life. This plant is really and oh my gosh look at the texture of this leaf”

It really feels like some huge trip and is kinda more jarring than being hella dissociated most of the time. It’s *good* but very new, jarring, and uncomfortable.

So a lot of people talk about grounding techniques, being present in the moment, and working on that, and I strongly support that, but I also do want to put a bit of word out that sometimes grounding isn’t such a simple and “comfortable” thing for people who chronically dissociate and have done so since childhood.

I forgot my day to day baseline is probably pretty derealized / depersonalized and I probably spend 95% of my time somewhere between in my head and not. I just am so used to that being my achieved high level of “ “ grounding “ “ that even if it is very very low compared to what I imagine most people experience, thinking that I could be grounded MORE sounds exhausting.

Its a work in progress and while its jarring and I probably look like I’m high when I’m more grounded than not, it is something I do feel and think will be really great to get more used to cause I mean

If I look weird because I am SO fascinated with how a plant is real and the leaf is SO GREEN AND VIVID that I just stare and touch it for like 20 minutes straight, I imagine life would be a lot more fascinating and interesting than it already is. XD

But I dunno, felt like adding some commentary about my experiences and thoughts on grounding that I feel are often not talked the most about?

@tenya

[Sourse: I read every Sonic comic by Ken Penders, and they’re wilder than you could ever imagine]

“Knuckles #13 opens with Harry the dingo cab driver (the one dingo character who isn’t a Nazi) discovering Charmy Bee in an alley, with another bee we’ve never met before collapsed in his arms. Harry rushes Charmy and his apparent best friend Mello to the hospital. The doctors try their best, but they have to break the bad news to Charmy. Mello is dead.  How did Charmy’s best friend die? Oh, by accidentally eating a drug-laced chili dog and overdosing on LSD! See, the shady owner of the local carnival is secretly working with a drug lord. He’s lacing his carnival food with this substance called “Lemon Sundrop Dandelion” (very subtle, Ken) in an effort to get the locals hooked on it. And now kids are getting poisoned left and right, including Charmy’s friend. The Chaotix investigate, but they get hungry and idiotically decide to eat the carnival food, and well…Then they get dragged to the hospital because they’re fucking tripping balls on acid. Shenanigans ensue Yes, this happened in an officially licensed Sonic the Hedgehog comic. This is the only story about drugs in the series, but it’s so bizarre because it doesn’t focus on the usual Very Special Episode peer pressure narrative. The victims don’t even know they’re being drugged! It reminds me more of those nutty articles claiming people are giving away edibles to trick-or-treaters.”

So like, full disclosure I’ve never done LSD, and all I can find online is saying hallucinations (both good and bad) and feeling “connected” or “at one with the world” 

I think he would like it? dosage would be a big issue tho cause he’s really small. 

oh i am so down to believe this like can u imagine how good u must feel to have that much power thrumming under ur veins and knowing that that power bends to ur will?? bro